Chapter Four
Edward waited in the car while Carlisle and I talked to my father. He wasn't happy about me missing school for a whole week but he seemed to understand how important it was for Edward to have me there when he visited his birth father. Besides, he was incapable of denying anything to Carlisle.
They waited downstairs while I packed. As soon as I entered my room I discovered that Edward already had most of my winter clothes in a suitcase.
"We are gonna have to go shopping somewhere in Canada. If I take you to Alaska with only these things we're not going to have to worry about killer vampires."
I rolled my eyes and opened the drawer where I kept my underwear only to find it empty. A wave of embarrassment went through me then as I tried to remember if I'd at least folded my plain, white panties properly. Edward had his arms around me in an instant.
"Don't be embarrassed Bella, you have beautiful undergarments."
The heat spread through my whole body as I said "You know, I'm perfectly capable of packing everything myself." He kissed my cheek with his cold lips and whispered "You can go through my underwear drawer when we get back home if it makes you feel better. They are just clothes Bella. Besides, you have absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about with me."
I sighed. He was right of course, but still...
As I looked at my open suitcase, a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach made me tremble. I sat down on the bed and grabbed my pillow. "I should probably take this right? I mean why would vampires have pillows? It's not like I can't sleep without one, I mean, you make a very nice pillow but soft pillows are nice to have around." I was rambling of course. I had suddenly realized that we were in deep trouble, again. Plus, if my dreams really were premonitions, Edward was in more danger than ever.
Sensing my panic, he knelt down between my legs and pulled me to him. I wrapped myself around him and held him close. "I will never let anything happen to you Bella. You are my life. I'd rather die than see you suffer."
"That's exactly what bothers me." Desperate tears filled my eyes "I can not exist without you Edward, my life started when I met you and it will surely end if you ever leave me. You don't know how alone I felt before you."
He let out a chuckle that sounded more like a sob "Oh yes my love, I do know." He took my cheeks between his cold hands and pressed his hard lips to mine. Tears rolled down my face and through his fingers while he held me. I completely forgot to breathe while our lips were touching. He noticed, broke the kiss and gently shook me out of my stupor. When I inhaled again, my head swimming, he smiled gently and rested his cool forehead against mine.
"Let's go, the sooner we get out of here the better." He let go of me so fast I almost fell flat on my face. When I turned around to look for him he was already gone. I grabbed my suitcase, threw my bag of toiletries and my sock full of money in it before closing it and hurried down the stairs.
Carlisle and Charlie were sitting in the living room. They both had cups of coffee in their hands, even though Carlisle's was almost full. They stood as soon as they saw me at the foot of the stairs. Carlisle hurried to take my bag and went to put it in the trunk while Charlie said goodbye to me.
"Take care of yourself Bells, stay safe." He stood a few feet away from me, awkwardly trying to decide whether to hug me or just let me go. I solved the dilemma for him when I threw my arms around his neck for an instant.
"I will dad." I was already halfway to the door when I said that.
"Wait Bella." I stopped and cursed to myself "Take this." He shoved a bunch of twenties into my hands. "Buy yourself a heavier jacket. Canada can be a very cold place."
I nodded and smiled. I was relieved to know Carlisle hadn't told him where we were really going. "Thanks dad."
"Hey, no problem"
"No, I mean, for being okay with this."
Charlie shrugged "That boy really loves you Bella, he seems to depend on you." It looked like he was still trying to decide if that was a good thing or not.
I gave him a tiny smile "I love him and depend on him too dad." I admitted. It struck me as odd that I didn't feel the tiniest bit embarrassed when I said that.
He nodded "Dr. Cullen is waiting."
I kissed his cheek and ran out into the pouring rain, closing the door behind me.
It took less than 30 seconds for Carlisle and Edward to pack. Esme handed me a plastic bag that contained an apple, a sandwich, a chocolate and a soda. The Cullens had been nice enough to keep some food in the house for me at all times. A wave of love for all of them washed over me at the gesture.
Alice pointed at a small suitcase by the door. "I packed some of my winter things for you. Edward should take you shopping anyway, since my shirts and pants won't fit you, but the coats and gloves should be fine."
I frowned "You own gloves?" I knew for a fact she didn't need them. She flashed me a toothy smile "Hey, gloves can be very 'in' every few decades." I smiled for a moment but sobered up almost instantly. "Alice, I need you to do something for me."
She nodded. "Anything."
"I need you to tell me what's going on at all times. Edward might try to keep some things from me. If things seem to be getting too dangerous and it looks like he might get hurt..."
Alice brushed a strand of hair away from my face "Silly Bella, Edward can take care of himself. Try not to worry."
I refused to give in "Promise me Alice." She sighed in defeat and nodded. Then she held out her arms and I walked into her cold embrace willingly. I loved her like a sister. I was going to miss her a lot, even if we were only going away for a week. For some reason, I felt like I had to say my goodbyes properly. She reached into her back pocket and gave me a package of tissues. I laughed. I was so worried I'd completely forgotten about my cold.
"Just take care of yourself Bella; I'll look after the rest of us."
"And Charlie..."
"Charlie too."
I smiled and kissed her cheek. Her hand shot up to the spot where my lips had been for a moment. She seemed to be relishing in the warmth.
"No wonder Edward can't stay away from you, the heat of humans does feel good."
I remembered she had no memory of ever being touched by someone before becoming a vampire and for an instant I really understood why Edward refused to change me. But then the moment was gone and I was once again filled with the constant fear of not being with him forever.
I hugged Alice one last time before saying goodbye to Esme. Emmett ruffled my hair and just said, "Take care of yourself kid. I kinda like having you around."
Rosalie was nowhere to be seen but Jasper was there. I smiled at him and said goodbye. He stuck out his hand, as if he wanted to shake mine. I offered my hand to him and he squeezed it between both of his. Immediately I felt calmer and very sleepy.
Edward flew down the stairs then, with Carlisle at his heels. He lifted me into his strong arms and I rested my head against his marble-like neck without protest.
"She'll be out for a few hours." I heard Jasper telling Edward.
"Thank you." His reply was the last thing I heard before falling into the deepest of sleeps.
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