Authoress note iv been up since 5 trying to get In the writing mood please enjoy
oh yah
italics means she/he is thinking
bold is yelling or singing
disclaimer : I don't own full metal alchemist if I did there would be plenty of envyXed/royXed
niether do I own the songs lillian is singing no sue
Last time
Iv gone out, ill be at the downtown concert hall around noon come see
Don't wait up.
Lillian rose
Rolling his eyes and getting out of the bed he glances at the clock flashing 7:00 he mumbles "shit, I really need to get out of bed earlier", leaving the room untouched he walks out to the living room to find it less the clean . Covering his eyes with his hand loudly he shouts in frustration "dammit I just finished cleaning it , no fair, damn woman "
Chapter four
The Rebellion ensues
Sitting in a plush chair lillian glanced around the hangout, although only a run down apartment it had been her escape from her father so many times, filled with band equipment and tons of cheap fold-able chairs and tacky rugs it felt like home to her, smiling at the tall thin brunette standing in front of her, his green eyes staring down at her , the same green eyes that could always peirce her souls wall and read her mind, smiling she looked up at him too see him holding the small gage in his hand, tensing as he slowly periced her tongue, after the procedure she stood up to look at her self in the full body mirror, scanning herself from foot to head, quickly glancing over her black converse shoes, to her faded extreamly ripped jeans to the high cut black halter top she wore finally resting on her mouth, curved bow-tie lips opened to shoe the spiked tongue ring sticking out of the middle of her tongue smiling she backed away to glare at her hair, the thing her father rufused to the most was cutting her hair, it reached past the curves of her hips almost knee length frowning, she turned to her long time friend who helped her take her first step into her new persona, she grabbed his hand dragging him out of the room and to a salon down the street from the hangout.
No longer
"I want a change"
No longer under his power
"are you sure, it's a good idea"
Ill show him ,I am nothing like my mother
"I don't want it so long anymore, cut it to my chest. In fact I want...red tips"
he no longer will hurt me
"no, actually black"
the barber smiled at her "that will be thirty dollars"
You'll see
"hai"
she sat in the red cushioned chair and waited for the barber to finish the changes in her hair
Epov
after re-cleaning the house and placing the large wooden trunk in the empty room in which his charge was to stay in he remembered that he was suppose to go the concert hall , I should start going he thought
grabbing the keys and once again glancing at the clock he walked out the door
–time skip--
Once arriving at the concert hall two rather large men were standing at the door, as he approached the wooden frame the two large dark haired men stepped in front of him
"Name"
Edward stared awkwardly at the two men and quickly stated "Edward Elric" the man looked at the list and looked again at the short blond and smiled "it seems Lil specifically wanted you to have back stage entrance..-" ed still confused was staring out into the unknown spacing out "ok short stuff go on in" and with that he was pushed in while trying to curse at the man who called him short "I'll have you know im 5"7 you-stupid-tall-ass-good-for-nothing-gia-..." unable to finish the sentence because he was too busy staring mouth agape at the unmistakable tall blond female on stage that began to move with the Mic in hand.
Lpov
staring out at the crowed that was now on the floor below happily waiting for her to sing, looking back at her two band members the one on the keyboard and the other on the electric guitar she smiled "lets do our best ok" the two men nodded, she started to tap her feet to the rythem of the keybored , she opened her eyes and searched the crowed, blinded by the light, she swore she could see her dark haired father , after calming her heart she turned and yelled "I wanna play the song I just wrote", "you sure"they returned "she smiled and stared out at the crowed "yah"
As the piano and the guitar began to play at an erratic pase she closed her eyes and imagined how her life changed and began to sing the first verse so softly it was almost un-hearable
Don't know whats going on
don't know what went wrong
feels like 100 years
I still cant belive your Gone
so ill stay up all knight
with my bloodshot eyes
while these wall surround me
with the storys of our life
As the quitar rifted loudly she opened her eyes raised her voice and looked out the crowed
I feel so mutch better
now that your gone forever
tell myself I don't miss you at all
not lying, denying that
I feel so much better
now, that your gone forever
the quitar slowed down and she stared at the vision of her father in the crowd trying to hide the tears welling up in her eyes she sang with renewed passion
now things are coming clear
I don't need you here
and in the world around me
im glad you disappeared
so ill stay out all night
get drunk and fucking fight
until the morning comes ill
ill forget about our life
now visibly crying she sang as loud as possible to the heavens keeping an even tone even if she was crying
First time you swung at me
I should have made you leave
I should have know I could be so much better
I hope your missing me
I hope iv made you see
That im now gone forever
becoming more silent she let the tears fall changing her voice to show her sadness only to hear the crowdes cheer even more to the show of emotion
And now its coming clear
that I don't need you here
and in this world around me
im glad you disappeared
I feel so much better now that you gone forever
now that your gone forever
as lillian stoped singing max played an ending solo that sounded haunting giving her time to catch her breath, she looked at her band members then again at the crowed "this is dedicated to my father, may he rest in hell", as she wiped her tears she walked off stage to be surrounded by her manager and a company executive beaming happily at the young singing, both walking up to her they began boasting about how far she will go and about the tour that they wanted to start,she bowed her head and departed to her dressing room.
Sitting down in the chair in front of the large lit mirror she noticed a lone single tear drop fall from her eye, a empty feeling growing in her heart, she pushed the feeling back only to hear a voice in the back of her head.
You had no right to live, your sister died and you were to weak to save her
as she cringed she opened a drawer of the vanity and pulled out a small bag in the corner ,opening it up she saw the double sided razor
Do it, show me your not weak, do it, do it
she sat stared at the glint of light on the sharp blade, shaking her head she pushed it back in the drawer mentally kicking herself 'im not gonna start that again'
—time skip–
Finishing her last song lillian walked off the stage, sweat slipping from her bangs quickly walking to her dressing room to change, glancing at the clock flashing nine o'clock she started to take off her ripped show clothes she quickly put on her regular skinny jeans and another crop top with a band logo on it 'Maybe ill go out tonight' finishing packing her stuff she hears a voice and looks in the mirror to see a reflection of her sister adorned in black behind her except she was different she had longer hair, spinning around in joy she turns to see nothing, shutting her eyes she mentaly kicks herself again
'shes dead , let it go''
letting go of the breath she didnt realize she was holding she lowered her head in sadness, looking up as she suddenly felt someone's hand on her face brushing a stray stand of hair out of her face to see the golden eyes of a man staring down at her, blushing she quickly blurted out "WHAT ARE YOU DOING" flailing her arms and hitting him in the jaw accidentaly, her eyes widened as she saw edward massaging his face where she had hit him and blushed "im so sorry", grumbling he mumbled "gee if I would have know that would be your reaction I would not have done it", smiling she laughs then suddenly tenses becoming serious "Hey Edward do you wanna go to an after party with me ?", backing up to give her a bit of room he shifted his weight from one leg to the other with a undecided expression on his face smiling he threw his arms up "why not?", she smiled "max told me that it was gonna be at studio 65", edwards expression changed to a confused look " how do you plan on getting in there?"
She smiled "duh I have a rock band, my producers have connections" walking to the door lillian opened the door to show max eavesdropping in front of the door "I decided to go max, im bringing a friend", blushing max walked into the room and threw his self into a chair "ok so what are we waiting for?"
Mwahahahah yay im so happy writers block gone, and in its place an awsome chapter on the way soon you will see a couple charected you know , and possible a humanculas (does happy dance)
Enjoy!!
