Lavinia Swire sank into a small chair, sitting in the corner of her room. She subconsciously ran her hand over her stomach.
She sighed deeply. If only it didn't have to be like this. If only there was a way..a way to make it all, to make it all-go away.
Of course she could never tell Matthew. He would look down on her so, and despite her past sins, she still loved him.
She grimaced at the perfect image Matthew and Mary created together. She gazed longingly out the window. If only Richard had loved her like that...
Matthew and Mary sat together on the iron swing, their new favorite place to go.
'Matthew I...' Mary started 'I don't understand.'
'What?'
'I don't understand. Why was Lavinia a replacement? A Replacement for whom?'
'Mary.. I only realize now that I loved Lavinia only to fill the hole in my heart.'
'The hole from who?'
Matthew stood up, sighing. Kneeling down her took Mary's hands in his own and looked deeply into her eye's. 'The hole you left.'
'Matthew..!' Mary's hand flew to her chest. 'What?'
'I love you Mary Elizabeth Crawley.'
'Matthew' she repeated
Matthew slowly stood up and kissed Mary's hand. 'Mary, I love you with al my hear...' he stopped as Mary gently kissed him, her hot tears wetting his face.
Mary pulled away, wiping her face. 'I love you too.'
'Mary, what are you going to do with Richard?'
Mary sighed. 'I don't know..I-what about Lavinia?' she stared into Matthew
'I..' he stopped. 'It would break her heart.'
'Matthew! Don't you love me? I thought you did..but I can see now I was wrong..' Mary leapt from her chair and ran down the lawn, her disappearing figure melting in with the dusk light.
'Mary!' Matthew called. He jumped up, the swing rocking frantically-and ran after her. He winced as white hot jabs of pain sliced through his body, but still he continued to run.
His foot caught on a rock and he fell twisting his leg violently. 'Aghh..!' he screamed, pain shooting through him and wracking his body. 'Mar...!' he called and then everything went dark.
Lavinia stood by Matthew's bead, stroking his face. 'Matthew?' she whispered. 'How are you feeling?'
His eyes flickered open. 'Terrible.' he moaned
Lavinia stroked his arm, though his eye's displayed no love.
'Matthew, are..are you glad to see me?'
'Of course, Lavinia.' He said shortly, his eye's showing nothing but dread.
Lavinia sat down. 'Matthew...I need to tell you something..I did..'
Matthew looked surprised at her.
Lavinia dropped her eyes. 'Matthew-I-I'm pregna...'
'I can't hear you.' Matthew said irritably
Lavinia felt her strength draining from her, sinking like a holed ship.
'What did you say?'
"Oh I-I asked if you.. wanted some stew.' She answered quietly.
RUBY! Oh my gosh! *Jumps up, flapping hands. Grabs Ruby's hand and dances her around the room*You came on! Yay! :D Do you like this chapter? I'll tell you at Impact to read..
Some new and interesting things from Lavinia's past life coming through, eh?
*Spoiler Alert*
Richard is the father of..., and also in next chapter Richard is related to someone, close to the Crawley Family and also in the Bates's Family...
