Chapter Four: Meditating With Friends

After eating her lunch and working on the Ancient text for a few hours, Astra put down her pen down and rubbed her temple. She sighed in frustration for she couldn't stop thinking about Evan. Astra decided to go find Teyla.

Astra knocked on Teyla's door when she arrived at the Athosian's quarters.

"Enter," Teyla called.

The Atlantean woman stepped inside her friend's quarters and found the Athosian meditating.

""Astra," Teyla greeted warmly.

"Hey, Teyla can I join you?"

"Of course," Teyla invited.

Teyla found her friend fascinating. She was a brilliant scientist and part Ancestor. Teyla found Astra amazing with her story and the two had clicked. They had become close friends in their time in the lost city. They would often seek each other out when they were both on Atlantis. Teyla had been teaching Astra her style of fighting when the scientist had asked the Athosian leader to teach her, when she had confessed for having a love martial arts. Astra had been lucky enough to work with Colonel Sheppard's team on several occasions. Astra and Teyla had been delighted and enjoyed working together.

"You are troubled by something."

It was not a question. Astra sat down and imitated her friend and copied her siting position.

"By someone, not something," Astra corrected.

"Is it Major Lorne?" Teyla inquired.

They had spoken many times about Astra's feelings for Lorne before and after Major Lorne's arrival with Colonel Everett's men. Teyla was the first person Astra had confined in about her relationship with the Major. She'd explained what had happened before leaving for Atlantis the first time and when he arrived with Everret.

"I have recently discovered that I will be placed on his team." She had her eyes closed and was relaxing her breathing.

"This is not good news?"

"I am not so sure what I feel. Evan came and spoke to me earlier about being on his team. We apologised to each other for the hurtful words we exchanged before leaving the first time. Now I feel unsure, anxious about what I feel for Evan. I have no idea what to expect."

"You are feeling fear of your feelings for Major Lorne. What do you fear about these feelings? What happened when you were talking to make you feel this way?"

Astra listened carefully to what her friend was telling her. She always felt good after talking with Teyla, though her advice always made her think about things.

"We talked and we kissed," Astra admitted, blushing and adverting her eyes from Teyla's.

"Kissing can be a good sign. It shows that you are ready to forgive each other and to put the past behind you. You have admitted to saying horrible words and have apologised for them."

"Yes," Astra said thoughtfully.

"It is up to you and Major Lorne how you go forward with each other. You two care and love each other very much, and want to make this work. In your heart you know what you want and how to get it. A little fear never hurt anyone."

"When did you become so wise, oh Wise One," Astra teased.

"It comes from my father who was a great leader."

"Do you mind if I hang out with you for the afternoon?"

"Of course you are welcome to stay, Astra," Teyla said softly.

"Thanks."

Astra and Teyla talked all afternoon and well into the night.