Chapter 4- Rewind and Forgiveness
Killua slowly open his eyes and see that he is now lying on a flower field with haze surrounding him and there is a lake in front of him.
"Where- Where am I?" He mumbled softly, trying to remember what happened.
He stands up and look around, running endlessly but he felt like he is in the same place again and again.
"What's- What's going on?"
The moment he said that, he felt a presence behind him. He looks behind to see a beautifu, black haired woman with black eyes, wearing a yukata even though for Killua, her beauty is paled on Gon's comparison.
"Killua Zaoldyeck, so you are the one" The woman said, her voice is soft and light.
Killua found himself take a step back "Who are you!? What is this place?"
The woman smiled and chuckle "I am your guide. I guess you could call me, Shina and this is the place where you are not belonging."
Confused and curious, Killua asks "A place I shouldn't belong? What is this place?"
"This is the realm of nor heaven nor hell. You could say that you are in the middle of it" Shina said.
"Realm of nor heaven nor hell? but wait- I thought that I-" Killua trailed off, seems more confused.
Shina smiled "I know. You kill yourself in order to meet your wife and your daughter. Unfortunately, we can't decide about where you should be going. Seeing your actions and such"
Killua widened his eyes "That's right! Where are my wife and my daughter! Where are they!?" Killua said while grabbing on her yukata.
Shina smile did not falter "They are in heaven, they meet each other but alas, you are not allowed there"
Killua went shock and tense for a moment before falls down on the field.
"Does- Does this mean, I can't see them?" He softly mumbled while trembling.
Shina smiled in sympathy "If you want to see them, you can but you are not allowed to meet them"
Killua stands up immediately "WHAT! Why not!?" Killua demanded.
Shina ignore Killua and wave her hand. Suddenly, a mirror appeared , floating on the air and showing Gona who is happily picking the flowers.
"GONA!" Killua exclaims when he sees Gona, happy but sad at the same time because he can't be there.
Few moments later, another figure joins Gona who made Killua eyes widen then tears falling down on his face.
Gon was there as an angel, smiling and holding Gona who smile and holding her mother back in return.
"Gon, Gona" Killua softly whispered, he truly wanted to meet them so badly. Alas, he is not allowed to as he can only see them.
"This is the only thing I can do. You can only see them and they didn't know you are here" Shina said.
"Gon, why is she an angel while Gona is not?" Killua said while his eyes still fixed on the mirror.
"It is because of her forgiveness. She never holds any grudge at you and she even forgives Luna, who's the cause of the rumor that made her life a mess. Forgiving someone you truly hate is the causes of her become an angel. Not many people can forgive someone who made their life a downfall. " Shina said.
"I see. Yeah, it does make sense. I can't believe she forgive that Luna while I can't even forgive her myself." Killua says and look down, clench his fist in anger.
"Mommy! I wish Daddy is here! I want him to know that you are angel, just like what Daddy always said that you are an angel for him and it's true!."
Killua look at the mirror again, seeing Gona who is now sitting together with Gon.
"Mommy, I always want to meet you! I'm really glad but I want to see Daddy as well" Gona said, tear welled up in her eyes.
Gon hugged Gona immediately, her wings flutter and radiating warmth that envelope Gona "I'm sorry sweetie. One day, we might be able to meet him. Just not now"
"But- But I want the whole family together! Why it have to be like this. I want Mommy and Daddy together! I don't want to see Daddy without Mommy and Mommy without Daddy! Gona exclaims while tears had fallen on her face.
"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry" Gon cried as well while hugging her daughter who is crying as well.
Killua was no exception, he cries as well. He wants to be there, he wants to be together with his family as well. Why he can't be together with them. Why!?
"I'm sorry but- you can't see them anymore" Shina said then wave her hand again. In a second, the mirror disappears causing Killua to get hysterical.
"What! Why did you do that! Why! I still wants to see my family! Please!" Killua cries and begging now, his family is the most important for him. All he wants was his family. Nothing more.
"I'm truly sorry. " Shina said.
"Does that- Does that I mean I am going to hell then? Because I can't go to heaven so I'm going to hell. Is that why!? Because of my fault that my wife and my daughter died! Is that why!? Killua scream now, unable to accept it.
"Actually-" Shina said but got cut off by Killua.
"Fine! I don't care then. I'll go to hell now. Just give the worst all of you have although the deaths of my family and unable to see them again are much worse than the hell itself." Killua said, slowly stand up.
"I am not going to take you to hell" Shina said.
"Yeah, I- wait, what?" Killua got caught off guard, unable to believe his ears.
"I am not going to take you to hell" Shina repeated with much louder voice.
"What!? You are not taking me to hell? Then where am I going?" Killua asked.
Shina opens her notepad "Killua Zaoldyeck, you do committed a lot of sins for not listening to your wife explanation causing her to not taking care of herself well making her died while giving birth"
Killua bit his lip as he remembers it. He know he is at fault, he knows.
"Then about your daughter, your overprotectiveness is terrifying indeed"
"What the-, I care about her! I only wish to protect her since she is the only one I have and-"
"It's pretty much like imprison her. She can only go outside when you are there and you even had to add a lot of bodyguards for her. Had you truly care for her, you should listen to her as well. You are practically repeating the same mistake from your wife and now your daughter" Shina said while Killua just stood there, not knowing what to do.
"Then- Then what should I do! If only I have a chance! If I could turn back time, I would make sure that I will protect them! I will if I could do that!" Killua scream, literally in tears.
"So, that's your choice then?" Shina said.
"What?" Killlua asked.
"The reason why you are neither in heaven nor hell is because you are chosen for being given another chance for fixing everything. If you refuse this choice then you are forever remain as ghost who roam forever in this realm" Shina said.
Killua stood there, unable to believe he had a chance "Y- You mean it!? I still can fix everything!?" Killua said, a bit shaken.
Shina nodded "Yes but you should take caution because we will turn time back until you are to the point still fighting with your wife. Be careful with the choice as the result will be different"
"How could it be different?" Killua ask.
"The choice you made will determine your life. One small choice is able to make great changes so this is your only chance for either you fix it or letting it worse than this" Shina said.
"Of course I would take this chance! I'll do anything! Anything to be together with my family again!" Killua exclaims.
"I see. Like I said now this is up to you, made wrong choice and you will never guess who meet the end" Shina smile then wave her hand causing a bright light that made Killua cover his eyes.
"Gah! What the-"
"Go, Killua Zaoldyeck. As I said, make a wrong choice and your life will be crumbled"
Then all of a sudden, Killua awake with sweats all over his body. He takes a look at his surrounding and realizes that he is not in the mansion but in the apartment that he used to live, five years ago.
"What's going on" He softly mumbled then look at his digital clock and widened his eyes for the year is five years ago with the date of the next day of a fight with his beloved.
"No way, could it be!?"
Immediately Killua gets up and get dressed then goes to take his car and speeds up towards the mansion.
`If this is truly five years ago, could it be that Gon is still there, while still pregnant with Gona!?'
Killua add more speed, completely using his skilled driving skills made him able to arrive to the mansion in five minutes. Even though the distance from the apartment to the mansion takes 30 minutes.
Once he arrives, he wasted no more time. He gets off the car and dash inside the mansion, not caring someone might steal his car. All he could think about was Gon now.
`Please, please let her be there and still alive. Please!'
He dash inside the mansion causing some butlers and maids are surprised to see him but he don't care about them. He runs until he arrives to their room, he slam the door open and see inside.
Gon was there, sitting on the bed, still alive and startled to see him.
"G-Gon" He softly whispered, unable to believe he could see his beloved wife again after all these years.
"Ki- Killua" Gon whisper as well making Killua remember how beautiful her voice is and how long he wants to hear her voice again.
"GON!"
Wasted no time, he run towards her and hug her as if his life depends on it. He cries but he felt at ease as he could feel his wife again.
Gon was confused but she was glad to see Killua again. She hugs him back, crying a bit for feeling really happy that he is back.
"Oh Gon. I'm really sorry. I'm so sorry!" Killua said, crying and apologizing over and over again while hugging her for still can't believe that she is here, alive.
"Killua, it's fine. I have forgiven you already, I'm just glad to see you again. I miss you." Gon still in tears but smiling in a true genuine smile.
"Yeah, me too. I miss you so much, so much that it hurt when you left" Killua said.
"Eh?" Gon startled, truly surprised.
Killua notices and thought `Eh? Oh right, I'm the one who left her in this 5 years ago'.
"Sorry, I'm truly sorry for leaving you alone" Killua said again, still hugging her.
"It's really all right, don't worry about it." Gon said, trying to assure her husband.
"I truly miss this. Can we stay like this longer?" Killua said while giving a kiss on her cheek.
"Yeah. I miss this too" Gon closed her eyes completely relaxing herself.
Some of the maids and the butlers who peek in secretly are smiling while Gotoh cried in happiness. Happy that they are truly and finally reunited.
"So? You are not going away anymore right?" Gon asked, tears are falling.
Killua wiped her tear before saying "No, I'm going to stay here. I'm sorry that I'm jumping to the conclusion fast and especially when you-" He stopped.
"I'm what!?" Gon asked, a bit nervous.
`Wait! This date if I remember is when I figured out she was disappearing a lot and I didn't know that she is pregnant yet. Better keep it a secret first since I don't want to ruin her surprise' Killua thought.
"I'm what? Is something wrong?" Gon asked.
Killua shakes his head"You're not someone who would cheat, I have cooled my head off and think a lot about it and I know that you are not someone like that. Sorry, I truly must have too much of my mind that cause me to get truly angry for you." Killua said, putting an excuse that is quite true.
"It's alright Killua. I'm just glad you understand and we are together again" Gon said, smiling in which made Killua smile in return.
"I know and I'm glad you have forgiven me. Thank you" Killua said.
"Umm, yeah. I'm a bit hungry, have you eaten yet?" Gon asked.
"Err no. Truthfully my mind is only preoccupied with seeing you so I'm just rushing out to go here and seeing you" Killua smiled sheepishly while rubbing the back of his head.
"Well, in that case, we should go to eat then" Gon said, while trying to untangle herself.
However Killua didn't let her.
"Killua?" Gon asked, raising her eyebrows.
Killua didn't answer, instead he just lift her chin and gaze deeply into her eyes.
Gon blushed "Wait- wha"
He began to kiss her, as if to silence her. It was sweet before it turned into a deep kiss which brought out a moan from Gon. He broke it and breathes in the air before kiss her again in a passionate way.
`How long has it been since we kissed?'
Killua felt his heart pounding and how much he loves the taste of her lips. He truly had lost himself in her, he can't get enough of her.
"Kuh.. Ki-Killua! Can- Can't breathes!"
Killua snaps out of it and pulled back, gulping nervously looking at his wife who had a dazed look with a red face and half lidded eyes.
Truly, that sight made Killua tried to hold back a moan.
"We, should go to eat now" Gon said while getting out of the bed.
Killua flinch a bit "Eh, ah! Yeah! We should" Killua said then leave.
Gon follows, grab Killua's sleeve made him turn to face her.
"Gon?" Killua asked.
Gon goes nearer and lean against Killua who blushed then whisper in his ear.
`If you want, We'll have fun tonight, you and me'
Gon leaves while Killua just standing there shivered.
"I so love that idea" Killua softly mumbled before goes to join his wife together.
The night, Killua finishes taking everything at the apartment back to the mansion. Killua and Gon are right now lying on the bed, relaxing themselves.
Killua started to nuzzle Gon's neck which makes her giggle a bit.
"Hey, you will keep your promise right?" Killua said while showering her neck with kisses.
Gon moaned lightly that fueled Killua's desire. The fact that she is pregnant doesn't help since it made her horny and craving for her husband. She wrapped her arms around Killua's neck and pulled him into a breath taking kiss which Killua happily accepts.
Killua broke the kiss, which made Gon whined.
`Wow, I guess she is truly horny when she is pregnant. I guess I better make a mental note about this'
He kissed Gon's jaw while his hand roaming around her body while she is still fully dressed which made her moan and gasp but she wants more.
Gon arch her back "Ngh, Killua. Please"
Killua smirked, he reached down and takes off her shirt which Gon happily complied but she began to pout when Killua decided to tease her by taking it off slowly so she started to take off everything quickly which made Killua licks his lips.
"Killua! Hurry up!" Desperation is hinted in her voice.
Truly, he felt like he is the happiest man alive right now. Her begging and desperation words truly set fire blazing through her heart especially when she is naked and wet.
In one swift moment, Killua claim Gon's lips making their tongue tangled as both of their bodies pressed which makes Gon groan in frustration since Killua is still fully dressed.
"No fair! You should take off everything as well!" Gon pouted, complaining while puffing her cheeks which Killua found it really adorable.
"Fine, fine" Killua said.
Slowly Killua started to undress himself, teasing Gon again who is no longer pouting but growl in frustration.
"Argh! Just take off all of the fucking clothes so we can immediately go straight to fucking!"
Killua immediately widened his eyes, surprised to hear Gon's cursing words and outburst. He never ever heard Gon curse before but one thing he knows.
It was so damn hot.
Killua is now dazed, he could feel himself drooling and cum a bit in his pants. He snaps out his daze when Gon practically rip off his t shirt, revealing his muscular chest which made ladies goes wild then unzip his pants causing his erection to spring out.
"Finally!"
Killua opens his mouth to ask but all came out was a scream instead. He sees Gon eagerly and happily sucking on his member. She lets out a happy mewl sound which makes Killua blushed more.
`Damm! I never thought she is truly loves on sucking my cock. She truly looks so sexy from sucking me like that'
Gon keep sucking and producing some lewd noises in which made Killua moan more, getting more aroused while thrusting in her throat.
"Mmm yeah! Do-n't stop! Oh! Ahh! I-m cl-co-se!" Killua began to stammers as he could feel he was close but he whine in disappointment when Gon stopped and pulling herself off of Killua's length which is faintly thrusting into thin air.
Gon gives a mischievous smile. "That's what you get from teasing me"
Killua gives a sigh before smirks "Hn, you got me"
"I know" Gon said before goes to kiss him furiously which Killua does the same in return for a while at the same time, Gon takes off Killua's trouser before Gon broke it and quickly impaled herself on his slickened, pulsing shaft.
"Kuh- Ahhh! Killua moaned when he feel a tight warmth surrounding him. He looks at Gon who is giving an evil grin making Killua shudder in anticipation for what she has in surprise.
Gon ride him suddenly, making Killua moan and gasp for the sensation. It's the first time for Killua that Gon is the one who is dominating since she has always been submissive but he didn't care, he get to know more of her side after all but this time, he should give a helping hand or helping sex.
Gon began to squeal in delight as Killua began to thrust inside of her in a matching frantic pace. She began to bounce faster and faster causing Killua to do so.
"Ah! So good!Oh shit, oh yes, yes, YES! Gon yelled then came, causing her warm pussy tightened around Killua which made him lost himself and shooting his semen deep inside of her. She wrapped her arms around Killua's neck before leaning in for another kiss in which Killua obliged. Gon broke out then sigh while looking deep in Killua's eyes.
"We can go for another round right?" Gon said with a dreamy smile.
Killua smiled in mischievous way before thrusting himself again inside of her which made Gon moan in delight.
"Heh, Obiviously"
The next morning, Killua woke up and smiled seeing his wife still peacefully sleeping. He look at her sleeping face for few minutes before her eyes fluttered open, revealing a lovely pairs of hazel colored eyes that he always loves to see.
"Good morning love. Sleep well?" Killua asks, grinning a bit.
Gon blushes a bit "Y-yeah, good morning" She stutters then gives a small smile.
"You know, you are late for work now. Are you okay with that?" Gon asked.
Killua flinch a bit before wearing his boxer then look for his notepad since he can't remember what had happen at these day on five years ago, he look at this notepad and went pale then paler when noticing the time.
"ARGH! I forgot about the business meeting and some paperwork's I have to do! I have to go now!"
Killua goes to take a quick bath and get dressed then taking up some documents, putting them into briefcase and takes everything he needs making Gon sweatdrops.
`Wow, so fast'
Killua takes everything and prepare to leave but before he does that, he comes over to his wife and gives a kiss.
"I have to go, I'll see you later. I love you"
Killua then dashed out of the room, leaving Gon who is dazed before smiling and softly whispered.
"I love you too"