Hello! Well, it's chapter 4! I must say that this story is going a lot farther then my other ones...but I think that it's becasue I'm on a Teen Titans rush for the past week...heh. Oh well! RobinxBB fluffy ness! I'm really not kidding, it's major fluff. :)

Enjoy!

A week, that's how long I've locked myself up in my room. I only come out at night to go up on the roof and for missions. And only when they really need me. I don't talk to Robin; I don't even look at him. I can't stand too see the hate in his eyes. Tch, if I could see his eyes.

My wounds healed only to be replaced by more wounds. It seems, that the beast inside of me most certainly did weaken them but it was up to me to finish them. The only problem was, I'm still so terrified of them. How come? It's a long story…a really long story. But for now I'll let you know everything that needs to be known to understand…if that made sense.

It was a year after my parents died. A year I had been roaming around, lost and scared. It was on a winter night when they first found me. It had been snowing and I was sure that I would freeze to death that night. But they found me and took me in, kept me in a warm place. They treated me good…at least for a while…and then things started to go bad.

Ruby and Nicolas Smith. They were doctors, for some sort of secret government mutation thing. They took care of me, cared for me and I had found myself growing to love them. It was nice to have someone to care about you again. But it didn't last long, and I should have known that it wouldn't.

A year later, after they had gained my trust completely, they broke it. They woke me in the middle of the night and brought me to their lab. And they locked me up, said I wasn't human, I was a freak and it didn't matter what they did to me. And it was pain from then on out. It racked through my body, it tormented my mind. I don't know how long I was kept locked away, treated like some sort of animal…

I slowly started to become one. Inside of me, anger just kept building and building, but I was always to weak to unleash it. They caused me to create the evil monster, the beast that now lay to rest within. I never let them experiment on me though. I would change forums too fast until they just got frustrated and left me.

And when they left, it got worse, the other doctors tortured me, they abused me, hit me…they beat me until I couldn't breath. And when Ruby and Nicolas came back and found me that way, they beat even more. They told me that no one could ever love me; I was just a freak, an animal. And the pain grew too much until I lashed out one day, when they weren't there. I killed people…and I felt bad about it, even though they had done terrible things to me.

And I fled, ran away from that city, hoping that Ruby and Nicolas Smith would never find me, ever again. But they did…they found me again, and this time, a mutation was taken hold of them. I could smell it in their blood, see it in their eyes from 9 days ago. I just knew, that, some experiment had gone wrong and they had mutated themselves into…monsters.

I don't know why they are here, maybe to come and take revenge on me? I don't know. All I know is that those two people have haunted me my whole life. But I won't let them take this city away form me; I won't let them take my friends away. If I had beaten them near death as the monster I had created myself, then I could do it on my own, without the beast. And I won't rest until I do, even if it takes me an eternity to over come my fear off them.

I jump as my alarm clock goes off. It's midnight; I should head up to the roof before I get to tired. I stand up carefully; my new wounds aren't healing very fast. I know I shouldn't be outside by myself, especially at night, not with Ruby and Nicolas prowling around, but they don't attack us. They don't draw us out. It's only every once in awhile that we run into them. But, they're doing something big, I can feel it. Besides, with all those major items they have been stealing, there's no way they don't have a plan.

It's a clear sky tonight, and the stars shine bright for me. I love looking at the stars, it keeps me calm. It makes me feel like I'm safe no matter where I am. Sort of silly I guess, considering that when you look at the stars, you're not paying attention to what is around you and then you are therefore, vulnerable.

Well…I'm a little weird tonight. I sigh and lean against the railing, watching the dark waves rush up against the rocks below me. It's so…soothing, everything about the Titan tower is. I really feel at home here, and now that I'm looking on the brighter side of things, I've realized that the titans don't really hate me as much as I thought. Ok maybe hate is not the right word, but at least I know that they care now.

Well…I've always known they cared, somewhere, I just didn't let myself see it. I stare at the rocks for a long time and it gets me thinking, thinking about Terra. I miss her, a lot and I can't tell you how much it hurt that she betrayed me, us. But if she came back, asking for a friend again, I would take her up on that offer in no time. And I know that it's dangerous doing that because, when someone breaks your trust and then you give it to them again so easily, it lets them know that you're not smart. Well, not smart in whom you choose. It means you're an easy target and that's something I don't want to be.

But…I really would give anything to have her back again. I loved her, like a sister, she was my best friend. She was the only one that truly understood me at that time. She never looked at me weird because my skin is…green. She never made fun of my pointed ears or how much I acted like an animal. Don't get me wrong, I love who I am, most days. It's just sometimes; it's hard to believe that any human would ever consider dating someone like me. And Terra, she never thought about that. Whenever we went out to get pizza or just hang, she would also tell me whom she thought I would look good with. Always said that I was so cute and who ever I dated would be lucky. I still highly doubt that. I don't think anyone would be lucky to date me; I'm the one that would be lucky.

I stiffen at a noise behind me, it's close and I feel stupid for not smelling the person earlier. I hope to god it's not Robin, but knowing my luck it is. Well, lets see right? I close my eyes, already knowing that it will be Robin, it always is. And I breath in, I can smell the salty ocean, the crisp cool air of night and the scent of kiwi scented shampoo and Robins blue crush cologne mixed in with his own unique smell of rain water. I blush, please, just go away Robin; I don't want you to hurt me. But it's too late now, because he's right behind me and I can feel his hands lingering near my arms.

"Beast boy, what are you doing up? You should be resting and healing your wounds,"

I let out a quiet pleasure filled sigh/moan. It feels so good to hear his voice. So silky yet rough and deep at the same time. It sooths me, takes me in it's arms and holds me tight, warm and safe forever. My blush depends and I'm sure that Robin can feel the heat radiating off of me.

"I…" I can't speak; I'm too nervous, too afraid. I feel so…young standing in front of him. He's so confidant and kind and strong yet gentle. When I'm just shaking and nervous. I still have a lot of growing up to do. I guess… I mean, I'm 16 already, Robin's17, but…I still feel like I'm just a little kid next to him.

"It's cold out, you could get sick," he whispers into my ear…oh god, my ear. He's so close. I unconsciously lean back and my head tilts too. I feel my eyelids dropping and a gasp coming forth. God…doesn't he know what he's doing to me?

"I…I'm ok," I whisper. And I can feel it coming; I can feel it in his body language. I can hear it in his breaths.

"Beast boy,"

"I-I have to go to bed, I'm getting kind of tired…" and I twist around, only he traps me against the railing. I could get away easily if I wanted to…but I don't. He's so close and it feels so good to be near him again.

"Wait." He says, his breath tickling my forehead. And he rests his hands on my slim biceps…my upper arms, there's not much muscle there.

"R-Robin…I-"

"Just wait," is tone is a little harsh, but that's ok. I feel his fingers gently caressing my arm and even if I wanted to move, there was no way in hell I could. I don't know what he' thinking, or feeling. I haven't looked up at his face yet, and I don't really want too. This…all this closeness and touching, it was because he was letting me down easy.

But maybe…

No, there was no way. He loves Starfire, everyone sees it. My body tenses just thinking about it.

"You know," he starts and moves away from me to be by my side, resting his arms on the railing, " I remember the first time I met you, I thought that you were,"

Oh here it comes, the let down, I can feel my ears drop a little and I can feel my heart aching already.

"Cute,"

Huh?

Robin chuckles at the small confused sound that escaped from my lips and I blush, shrinking into myself. I listen though; he starts talking in that low soothing voice of his. I always listen when he talks, even if he thinks am not. Well actually, I don't really listen when he's yelling so much…heh.

"But, I also felt sad, because you seemed so happy, and yet…you were alone," he turned his head toward me, but I still didn't look up I don't want to see the disappointment, the refection in his-

"Beast boy, look at me, you haven't this whole time,"

eyes. I did look up into his face then, always fallowing orders from the leader. And I gasped, his mask…it's gone. He wasn't wearing it.

Well no duh, it's the middle of the night, who wears masks to bed? Come on, you're not wearing your uniform and oh…neither is he.

But god he had the most gorgeous blue eyes ever. They were bright and kind, sparkling in the moonlight. I gripped the railing hard and leaned into it; I completely just lost my will to stand.

"Everyone thinks I love Starfire and I do," and there went my heart, "but not how you guys think. She's my best friend and I would do anything to keep her safe."

I was wondering why he hadn't bashed the side of my head in yet. Wasn't he mad? Or freaked out that a guy liked him? Loved him?

"A-aren't' you mad?"

He looks startled at my question.

"Why would I be?"

Well shit, now I have to tell him again.

"B-because I…I t-told you…" but my voice dies in my throat and I look away from his face, back out at the ocean. This was getting stupid; I'm not this giddy, or well girly over someone.

"No," and the whisper was right by my ear again. I glance at him from the corner of my eye and he's close again, my gaze meets his shoulder.

"Look at me, please," he asks confidently. I hate when everyone is confident and I'm not. But I do, I turn so that I'm facing him, keeping one hand on the railing. I never really noticed how short I was…or how tall he was. I'm not looking at his face though, and I guess that's what he wanted because he lifts my chin. His fingers are so smooth on my face, and he's so gentle. I sometimes wonder how he can be so aggressive with criminals and then be so gentle an hour after.

He doesn't drop his hand; instead he slides it up and cups my cheek, his thumb stroking my cheekbone. His fingers are barely touching my hair, tickling my ears. I breathe shakily and it's then that I notice how could it really is. I could see my breath coming out in small white puffs. I watch as his breath tickles my forehead, it's sort of amusing when you can not only feel someone breathing on you, but see it too.

I'm also painfully aware that my skin must look weird next to his tanned layers. My cheeks burn with discomfort as I grasp that I'm only in a tang-top and sweat pants, exposing more of my green colored skin. I move my head to look away, trying to hide the discomfort from Robin, but his hand tightens its grip on me and I feel his fingers soak into my hair, holding me gently in place.

"Robin…" I whisper, just a single soft note in the silence of the night.

Something changed in him suddenly and I found myself crushed to his chest, his strong arms wrapped around my middle tightly, holding on for life. His neck bent down so he could rest his temple against my shoulder. I blush as my arms are trapped against his chest, my cheek resting on his shoulder comfortably. I can feel his hand on the back of my head, tangled in my hair tightly. I can feel the weight of his arm running down my back and the grip of his other hand on my hip.

"Uh," was just about the only thing I could get out.

"Don't ever do that again," Robin whispered against my bare skin, so my tang-top is a little big and the straps fall off, so what? Anyway, I really have no idea what he was talking about. But I clutch tightly to his black t-shirt and close my eyes, breathing him in. His body feels so good against mine, he's so warm and comfortable.

"D-do what?" I'm a little afraid to ask.

"Almost die!" and his voice is rough as his grip tightens on me more. I gasp as my wounds are starting to feel the tug of Robin's tight embrace. And just like that he lets go of me like a burning stick, he looks at me with a weird sort of emotion swirling in his blue eyes.

"Sorry," he murmurs, talking about the wounds that he had annoyed. I don't really care though; I just wanted his warm arms around me again, holding me close.

I shake my head at him and step close to him, letting myself fall against his chest. His arms come up immediately, holding me safe.

"Robin…what is happening…um…with u-us?" I asked quietly still not quiet sure I want to know the answer. He shifts his weight a little and draws my head up. I'm going to have a major neck crap in the morning if I'm going to be looking up at him at this angle all the time. He smiles down at me and leans down closer.

My heart speeds up, my face flares up, oh god…please…just for once, don't let this be a dream.

And as his temple bumps against mine, his smile widens and his eyes chuckle at me. My eyes start to flutter close as I feel his breath on my lips. And right before he presses down against me, sending me to heaven he whispers,

"This,"

And he's kissing me, holding me tight. I can't think, I can't move, but when his tongue runs across my lower lip I let out a gasp and he's in. He's invading me, taking me. He kisses me roughly, hungrily, and yet so gently and sweet. I clutch to him tighter as he battles my tongue, tasting me, loving me. I've never felt anything so hot, so passionate before. And I don't ever want it to stop. I push up against him standing on my toes, trying to get closer, to deep the kiss even more. He chuckles at my need and I feel his laughter rumble through his chest and into mine.

And then I need air, desperately, but I don't want to stop, I don't want him to stop, never. But it does, I feel him pull back, his tongue leaving me. I whimper and he chuckles, tugging at my hair lightly. He doesn't pull back very far though, just far enough so our lips are barely touching. I look into his blue eyes and I don't really find it odd that he's not wearing his mask. But now that he's spoiled me, I don't want him to stop. Now that I've seen his blue pools, I never want to stop seeing them; he's going to have to get used to not wearing his mask more often.

Robin smirks; bringing me back and I realize that I'm breathing heavy, my adrenaline running high. Man, that's another thing, kissing, gets ya going. His hands leave my body and find mine, tangling his fingers with my own. I lean back away form him and he fallows, leaning over me.

"Come on," he whispers, feeling my body shake from the cold, "it's getting late and it's freaking cold up here,"

I find him pulling me by my hand as we walk back to the stairway, wanting to get inside. I smile, in some ways, the beast was right, but he was most defiantly wrong about this one. I laugh to myself and smile at Robin,

"Dude! You're cold? What about me?" I exclaim and right before he go inside, he pulls me close and places a soft kiss on my temple,

"Well, we'll just have to fix that then,"

Oh yeah, the beast was WAY wrong about this one.

AH! Aww! Cuteness! Don't worry guess, the story isn't going to be as dark for awhile. Actually, I think I may even give the Titans a break from crime fighting and go on a vacation! Even though...there hasn't been much crime fighting in this...heh...heh... anyway! Thanks for reading and please review!