Here's another chapter! I can't write all serious things all the time so I have to throw in something ridiculous or silly every once in a while.
For the record, I still own nothing that's ever mentioned in the story.
I hope you enjoy!
Beca's classes ended for the day and she started her journey back to her dorm thinking about all that's transpired during the day. Her roommate is a ninja, Lilly is bound to stink bomb half the student body any minute now, Chloe can't seem to stand up for herself and throw Tom to the curb, and she has a date set with a pizza tonight.
She realized that Kimmy Jin will be expecting an answer about her conversation with Chloe and it certainly did not go as planned… Shit, shit, shit! What the hell am I going to do? It's not like Kimmy Jin could do anything to her anyways, but that woman is damn scary. The brunette took a big breath and continued her path home preparing to face hurricane Kimmy Jin.
She opens the door to her room and finds Kimmy Jin rocking out with whatever song is in her headphones and lip-synching while using her hairbrush as a microphone. Beca considers this to be utterly ridiculous by Kimmy Jin's standards, maybe even her own for that matter. Regardless, she stands in the doorway in awe of the other woman who seems to be completely unaware of her presence as she whips her hair back and forth and jumps around on her bed. The brunette smirks and almost down right laughs out loud when the other woman throws down her hairbrush and gets on her knees to play an air guitar solo with her eyes still clamped shut. It was then Beca realized that she was wearing one of her many pairs of headphones. She didn't really care in that moment, they were the ones she left out anyways and the other woman has had to put up with her and her crazy friends coming over this year.
Kimmy Jin's ninja powers must have kicked in and felt Beca's presence as her eyes snapped open and saw Beca standing there. She quickly threw the headphones off where Beca could hear the rest of Highway To Hell by AC/DC playing. She smirked and raised her eyebrow at Kimmy Jin who by that time got over her shock and had schooled her features. "My, my Kimmy Jin, I didn't take you for a rocker girl. Trying to be the next Angus Young?" The other woman just stared at her making Beca uncomfortable. "Okay, okay I get it. I love AC/DC too ya know, along with Queen, Led Zeppelin and all of those bands. So if you want we can rock out whenever. Or you can just borrow my headphones anytime, it's cool." Kimmy Jin still didn't say anything and continued to stare at her, so Beca took that as her cue to sit at her desk and start something, anything.
"Did you talk to Chloe?" Beca swiveled around in her chair and had her turn to stare at the other woman for a minute. "I just caught you jamming out and playing an air guitar solo and all you have to say to me is if I talked to Chloe?" Kimmy Jin raised her eyebrow and Beca let out a sigh and rolled her eyes. "I did talk to her…" "And?" Beca's nails became extremely fascinating at this moment. "And… Well it didn't go as planned." Kimmy Jin clicked her tongue and tilted her head to the side even though the brunette couldn't see her. "What's that supposed to mean?"
Beca looked up at Kimmy Jin with a forlorn expression on her face. "It means that I saw her get back together with Tom from across the quad and when I talked to her afterwards she was adamant to give that guy another chance no matter what I said."
Kimmy Jin frowned and looked at Beca thoughtfully, "Did you tell her how you feel?" Beca let out a forced chuckle and gave her an incredulous look, "Did I tell her? No I didn't tell her! She was busy telling me how she basically doesn't care that this guy treats her like shit even though I told her she should be with someone who would give her the goddamn world! So no, I didn't have time to tell her because by that point I was so damn angry I couldn't see straight! Okay?"
Kimmy Jin softened her expression from her meticulously practiced stone face. This girl couldn't seem to catch a break with the red head. "Well, the chances of him doing something stupid again are pretty good, right?" Beca snorted and shook her head. "Given his track record, yeah a pretty good chance. But that doesn't mean she won't take him back once again."
"You don't know that."
"Really Kimmy Jin? She's taken him back and been putting up with his dumb ass at least four times since the beginning of the school year and I'm sure even more before then."
Kimmy Jin pursed her lips. What's with this red head that's making her stay with this idiot? "Well you just have to keep what you're doing and jump on the opportunity. Maybe even tell her you like her before he messes up. You can't just give up, Beca."
"I'm not giving up! I just… I can't do this all the time ya know? It sucks."
"Well the only way you're going to change it is if you tell her."
Beca shook her head. "I can't. It'll change our friendship, she's my best friend and I can't lose her." Kimmy Jin really wanted to help the girl for her sake. Plus Lilly always told her how cute the two were together at practice, even though they both seemed oblivious to the fact.
"She's going on a date with him tomorrow anyways. So it's not like I can do anything." The brunet paused and frowned. "Can we not talk about this anymore though? I just want to clear my head." Beca went back to picking at her fingers hoping the other woman would drop the subject. Kimmy Jin just nodded and turned around in her chair towards her computer to signal that the conversation was done.
Beca nodded slightly and went to go open up a mix she's been working on, but sitting there for a few moments and staring at the screen she decided she wasn't going to be able to do anything and started to browse the internet. She turned around in her chair to face Kimmy Jin, "Want to listen to Thunderstruck?" Kimmy Jin turned slightly with a smirk on her face and nodded her head once before turning around again. Beca grinned widely before playing the song and both girls began bobbing their heads.
Beca arrived at Cynthia Rose's place promptly at 7pm with a fresh pepperoni pizza and knocked on the door. Denise opened it with an enthusiastic "Hey!" Beca genuinely smiled at the other girl and walked in, Cynthia Rose was sitting at her desk finishing up an assignment and swiveled around, "Hey girl! Mmm that pizza smells delicious!" Beca laughed, "I know, I'm starving! I was super tempted to eat a piece on the way here."
Cynthia Rose chuckled "So, you ready to finish this show?" She got up to sit on her bed next to Denise and gave her leg a squeeze. Denise looked at her adoringly and put her hand over the other girls. None of the Bella's besides Beca knew of their relationship just yet, they wanted to make sure it was something that wasn't going to blow up before they announced it to everyone. The only reason Beca knew is because she walked in to the two making out when her and Cynthia Rose were supposed to be hanging out, which resulted in Beca swearing to keep their secret and the three having countless pizza nights together, so a win for everyone. "Hell yeah, I am! I want to see Pennsyltucky go down!" Denise and Cynthia Rose laughed "I still can't believe that we got you to watch a tv show." Beca grinned, "Well it's movies that I mostly hate, it's the same thing over and over in a two hour span. But this is actually a good show. I mean a show about women in prison that's actually hilarious? How could you not like it? Just don't tell anyone my secret."
"I know, I just can't believe we actually talked you into it in the first place." Beca grinned, "Well Alex is pretty damn hot, so you didn't have to try too hard. The whole dark hair and glasses thing is really working for me. Although I really liked her with red hair too, I kind of have a thing for red heads." Cynthia Rose and Denise just look at each other knowingly. Cynthia Rose raised her eyebrow at the shorter girl, "Of course you like red hair. It wouldn't have anything to do with a certain red head that we all know, would it?" Beca gaped at her. She hasn't gotten around to telling anyone about her hardcore crush on Chloe, these two just happened to find out one night when the three of them attempted to tackle a half-gallon of vodka. Needless to say, they didn't make it all the way and Beca was spilling her guts about Chloe, to which she of course has no recollection. "I have no idea what you're talking about." Cynthia Rose shook her head. "Of course you don't, you keep saying that."
"Whatever" Beca grumbled. "Let's just watch the show, ya? I also want to see if Larry is still being a little bitch about everything." The other two girls agreed and Cynthia Rose navigated her Xbox to get next episode of Orange Is The New Black up on the screen while Denise grabbed some soda and Beca popped open the pizza lid.
The three were in the middle of watching their second episode of the night when Beca practically breathes out, "Holy shit, she's so right." Cynthia Rose sitting right next to her looks over to see the stunned expression on the Beca's face and pauses the show. "Who's right" Beca snapped out of her trance and shook her head. "Nothing, nevermind." "No way, girl. That wasn't a face that said no big deal, nevermind, or whatever. Spill it." Beca looked thoughtfully at the screen for a minute. "Well… Alex. Never fall in love with a straight girl. She's so fucking right. It's just waiting for disaster to happen, how could I have been so stupid?" She turns to the other two girls with a defeated look on her face. "I totally did that, didn't I?"
Cynthia Rose and Denise looked at Beca and contemplated their words carefully. They know the girl never opens up to anyone about things like this and her expression made both of their hearts drop. Beca turned back to look into her lap. "I totally fell in love with the straight girl…" Cynthia Rose finally spoke up "You know, you don't know if she's totally straight or not. My bet would be that Red isn't the straightest board in the bunch. Way too touchy feely with all the girls for that, mostly with you of course, but still." Denise nodded her agreement. "You know I always thought I was straight till I met Cynthia Rose. I dated a few guys and everything." Cynthia Rose chimed in, "She's totally right. I fell head over heels for her when I was sure she was a straight girl. It's not always black and white, ya know."
Beca sighed "I know it's not. But I mean, she's my best friend and I would know, wouldn't I? She's totally straight, I mean she's with Tom." Cynthia Rose shook her head "Really? That's what you're going with? Red might not even know what she's feeling yet, let alone ready to tell you about it. I mean, does she even know you're gay?" Beca paused her thumb twirling and looked up at the two "Well… No. I mean it never came up or anything and I didn't want to make our friendship weird by telling her." Cynthia Rose and Denise gave her an incredulous look. "Are you joking me?" Denise spit out suddenly. "You mean to tell me that she's your best friend but you never told her that you were gay?" "I didn't want things to get weird…" Cynthia Rose sighed, "Beca, she's your best friend, she cares about you. Plus Chloe is one of the most open people I've ever met." Beca ran her hand through her brown wavy hair and sighed. "I know, I know. It's just… What if she thinks that I'm into her just because I'm gay? I've been through that before where girls just thought I wanted in their pants because I'm gay and they have a vagina. I like her, like actually like her and I don't want her to get weird."
Cynthia Rose put her hand on the brunette's knee, "Beca, this is Chloe we're talking about. She's not going to get weird, you know that." Denise turned her whole body to the other girls and crossed her legs. "Cynthia Rose is right. Plus, what if she likes you too but thinks you're straight and is just using Tom as a distraction? Maybe she just hasn't said anything because she thinks you might get weird. Then you're both in the same boat, yet you're both being weird about it." Beca groaned, "Why does this have to be so haaaarrrddd?" Cynthia Rose gave Beca's knee a squeeze. "She's your best friend, right? She should know anyways. I know you haven't told anyone here and the only reason we know is cause we can figure out these things easy, but give the girl some credit."
The brunette shrugged her shoulders and let out a puff of air. "I know I should. I feel bad for not telling her, I just had a bad experience one time and because of that I'm so scared that I'll lose her. I've never been so close to anyone till I had the Bella's, but Chloe and I just clicked from the start. You know what I mean?" Cynthia Rose and Denise looked at each knowingly and smiled before nodding their heads. "I know she's better than that and deserves to know, so I'm going to figure out a way to tell her. Cynthia Rose grinned, "There ya go! You know it's okay to be scared, but you just have to remember that Chloe loves you just as much. Any one of us can see that." Denise nodded her agreement.
Beca finally smiled since her whole revelation but soon cocked her head to the side and made a contemplating face. "Can I ask you two a question? You don't have to answer if you don't want to." "Sure thing lil B." Beca smirked at the nickname that Cynthia Rose always threw out. "Well okay… Uhm, why don't you want the other Bella's to know you're dating? You're a great couple, I don't see why you think it would change anything." Both Denise and Cynthia Rose sighed and looked at each other before Denise nodded at Cynthia Rose to begin. "Well… We want to tell everyone but we're also scared. I know that's a bit hypocritical to say, but hear us out first." Beca raised her eyebrow at the two but nodded to let them continue.
"Okay well… of course no one here knows this but, Denise and I went to high school together and dated for two years." At this Beca shot both eyebrows up and her jaw dropped in astonishment. Cynthia Rose smirked a little at the reaction, "I know. She was the straight girl I pinned after since the beginning of high school. We became best friends and eventually girlfriends." Denise and Cynthia Rose looked at each other smiling and remembering the day they first got together. "It was great for a good while, we never really told anyone though because the town we're from isn't particularly open to same sex relationships or interracial ones for that matter. So Cynthia Rose and I had to keep it on the down low. Our parents knew and that was it. They were all cool with it of course but they knew other people would freak out if they knew." At this Denise grabbed Cynthia Rose's hand and gave it a squeeze. "I would always get made fun of because I'm a black lesbian in a predominantly white town, so I didn't want to drag Denise into that. It was bad enough that people knew we were best friends." Cynthia Rose paused "We always went into the city as far away from town as possible to go on dates and things like that and no one ever paid us any attention. I guess one time though, someone from our town saw us in a quick kiss and it spread like wildfire through the whole town. We got harassed all the time for months on end. I got beat up by a few guys accusing me of turning Denise gay and she had these guys one time telling her they were going to get the gay out of her." Denise gasped at the memory and Cynthia Rose put her arm around her waist and pulled her closer. "I don't know what would have happened if Cynthia Rose didn't come in and save me from them."
Beca was silent with her eyes downcast and her mouth open like she wanted to say something but just shook her head. She looked up at the pair to see them both looking at each other encouragingly. Cynthia Rose looked back at Beca to continue her story. "I didn't want to care about what anyone said about us, our parents and families still supported us and that's all that mattered. Prom was coming up so I asked Denise to be my date of course and we went. It was that night that kind of changed everything. We got there and had comments and names thrown at us by everyone there. We got pushed around, punch thrown on us putting a stain on my dress and many other things in the short time we were there. We were soon escorted out for causing a disturbance. That's when a five guys followed us on the way to the car." Cynthia Rose paused once again, swallowing a lump in her throat and clenching her jaw. "These guys pinned us to the car while another threw punches and kicks all over before throwing us to the ground and trying to rip our clothes off. We were so lucky that a cop car came on a routine drive around and scared them so they ran off." Beca's jaw was hanging once again. How people could stoop to such a level was beyond her rational line of thinking.
Denise took a slow and deep breath before starting, "After that I just wasn't strong enough to keep everything going with how much we were getting harassed, so I broke up with Cynthia Rose before graduation. I was already set to go to Barden in the fall and both of us didn't get harassed as much after word of our break up went around. We didn't really talk anymore after that" Cynthia Rose sighed and frowned, "I was all set to go to GSU which is close to Barden, but after Denise broke up with me I kind of went into a depression and withdrew from going. I took the year off and got in a bad place where I started drinking and gambling all the time. The gambling became the big problem, but after a while I realized I was just miserable without her so I made a plan on coming here this year and finding her to work it out." Cynthia Rose smirked and shook her head. "I know it doesn't sound like a great plan to just show up looking for her, but it was all I had going for me. I didn't know how to find her, but I knew I would eventually. We both auditioned for the Bella's not knowing that the other had auditioned till initiation night." Denise finally smiled at that. "I never knew what was going on with Cynthia Rose that year. So when we got to talking again, she really opened up to me and we both confessed that we were miserable without each other. We got back together a short while after and her gambling pretty much stopped. We've kept it quiet while we got used to being together again, even though it's better and everyone is more open here. But with all that happened back home in the back of our minds, it's been hard to come out and tell everyone again."
"Right." Cynthia Rose added, "It's not like we don't trust the Bella's or don't think they'll be accepting or anything, it's just hard knowing what could happen." She sighed and looked up at Beca, "I know what we told you to do about Chloe and our own fears about telling everyone seem hypocritical." Beca smiled and shook her head "It doesn't. I totally understand. We're all afraid for similar reasons, yours being a hell of a lot better than mine, but I understand." All three girls smiled at each other and fell in a comfortable silence before Beca spoke up again. "What if we all faced our fears though? What if we told all of the Bella's together some time?" Cynthia Rose raised her eyebrows and looked at Denise who looked contemplative and nodded her head at the other two girls, which lead the other two to start nodding their heads as well.
"But you gotta tell Chloe before anyone else, lil B." The brunette took her bottom lip in her mouth and chewed it before nodding slowly. "Yeah… I know." Denise sighed and clapped her hands. "Good! We totally need to break this little funk we got into though. How about finishing the show and some ice cream?" Beca and Cynthia Rose grinned and excitedly nodded. "Good we only have chocolate and vanilla though, is that alright?" Beca laughed hard for a second while the other two stared at her. She stopped laughing and grinned before doing a little dance pointing at Denise and CR, "Chocolate and vanilla swiiiirrrrll, swiiiirrrrll." All three girls broke out laughing as Denise went to fetch the tubs of ice cream and the trio sat back to began their show once again.
At the end of the episode Beca turned to the other two again and grinned, "For the record, I'm glad you two are together. You're pretty damn cute."