I AM SOOOO SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED! I've had bad writers block.

Most of this chapter will be in Logan's POV :)

Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush. But would I own them if I kidnapped them? …. Hypothetically of course…

READ BEFORE STARTING:

Okay, so this is Logan's point of view for this chapter. The next chapter is going to be Kendall's point of view of this chapter. :D

*Kendall's POV*

'Was this ever going to end?' I held Logan tightly. Tears flowing from Logan's eyes. It was heartbreaking to see him like this. I felt a tear go down my cheek. 'Man up Kendall! Be strong for Logan.' I sucked up my tears and just held him. Eventually the heavy breathing and the tears stopped as Logan slowly fell asleep. I slowly fell asleep after. Swallowing my tears as I entered the bliss of dream world.

*Logan's POV*

*Time Skip-3 am.*

I woke up, with a groggy feeling. I looked to where Kendall was when I fell asleep. He wasn't there. 'Where's Kendall? What time is it? So. Tired' I looked at my clock 'Where the fuck is Kendall at 3 in the morning!' That's when I heard a noise from the living room. I went to go grab my pepper spray and a baseball bat, when I realized that the noise was somebody sobbing. I went to put the items down 'Logan, take the fucking pepper spray. It could be a trap. Traps are baaaadd.' I crept out of my room into the living room. I dropped the pepper spray and ran to the couch as soon as I saw who was crying there.

"Kendall, what's wrong?"

Silence.

"Kenny, baby what's wrong?"

Kendall is never one to cry. I was getting worried.

"E-everything is my f-fault."

'What are you talking about Kendall?"

"All of the ridicule. T-T-The hurt. I'm supposed to protect y-you!"

"Kendall, it's not your fault that people aren't accepting or loving. And we protect each other!"

"IT"S ALL MY FAULT!" Kendall shook me hard. Kendall never snapped at me like that. Kendall's eyes where filled with rage. I must of looked terrified because Kendall loosened his gripped and started sobbing again. It was rare for Kendall to break down. So, I just held him there. Eventually, he got up and walked to the bedroom. I soon followed. But, I was scared for Kendall. He never broke down. Ever.

*Logan's POV*

*Time Skip-11:00 am*

*Setting Change-Rocque Records*

"Hey Kelly!" I said. I've always liked Kelly.

"Hey guys. So Gustavo is having another breakdown. He just heard news that Hawk made a girl band. Nothing to worry about, but Gustavo thinks it's the end of the world" "But he is always one to, over react to everything."

"So what do you want us to do?" Kendall asked annoyed.

"Do we get to go bungee jumping!" Carlos seemed very excited about the idea we just proposed.

"Um no. Well, actually you can do whatever you want today. Since Gustavo is in no condition to try and record you guys, you get the day off"

'Damnit. I wanted to get AWAY from the Palm Woods'

"Wooh-hoo!" Carlos yelled directly in my ear. I cringed. Carlos yells to loud for his own good.

When we got back to the palm woods I went straight to apartment. To avoid all the haters. But, they can never be avoided. I was met with laughter and insults. Which just made me walk faster. When I got back to the apartment I ran to the couch. It was nice to be in the comfort of my own home. I didn't even notice Kendall walk in.

"Hey Kendo-" I was met with a pair of lips attached to mine, before I could even finish the sentence.

"Um Hi, Kendork" I slightly chuckled.

"Hey Logie-bear' That worried me. He always complained when I called him Kendork.

He kissed me again, but more passionately.

"I've got to go, I promised I would bring Katie to the mall. Love you." Kendall kissed me again, and left. It was like this for the next 2 weeks. Where Kendall would kiss me, then come up with some phony excuse, so he could leave. 'Was he mad at me, Does he not wanna be with me, is he cheating on me?" I gulped at the thought of the last one. I had to confront him.

*Time Skip-12:10 am*

I was sitting on my bed. Waiting for Kendall to enter. I needed to confront him. The door creaked open. Kendall came over to kiss me, but I pushed him away.

"Why didn't you let me kiss you?"

"Because you're just gonna leave again!"

"Logan, Where am I to go? It's midnight."

He had a point, but I didn't care.

"You always leave right after you kiss me! Are you mad at me?" I was surprisingly calm.

"No." Kendall's monotone answer annoyed me

"Are you cheating on me!" I was yelling.

"NO!"

"Do you, not want to be with me anymore?"

Silence

"Do. You. Not. Want. To. Be. With. Me?" My voice was no longer filled with anger, but sadness.

Kendall whispered something. But I didn't catch it.

"K-Kendall?" I was crying

"Yes." I could feel my heart shattering. 'Is he breaking up with me?'

"Are you breaking up with me?"

"Yes." Kendall's voice came out in a whisper

"Why? You're lying!"

"No. I'm not. I don't have feelings for you anymore. I only see you as a friend. I'm not gay. It was just hormones.""LIES!"

"I'm not lying!"

"Yes you are!"

"I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE!" As soon as those words where out of his mouth I broke down. I stared at him. The tears where flowing freely. I ran. I didn't know where I was going, I didn't care. Kendall was my everything. And he broke my heart.

This broke my heart to write this.

Will we find out why Kendall broke up with Logan

What will Logan do to himself?

Find out next time :)