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A/N: Guys, I've been having writer's blocks although I'm not really one. But yeah you got the point. Sorry for being slow. Peace ;3

Chapter 4: Pride Complicates Love

Edward's POV

"Edward, I'm not your rag doll."

"Edward, get a life! I'm not your mother, hell you don't even listen to her."

The pain is excruciating. How do you cope when the one person who's been your whole world suddenly stopped being your world? I sound too emotional. Fuck. I'm freaking out. I don't know what to feel, what to say. All along I thought I was doing the right thing. I was under the impression that she understood how significant she is for me. I should've figured out she couldn't breathe. I should've done better, should've been better. In this case there's only one salvation I could think about. I need to get drunk, literally, severely drunk. Definitely drinking.

I found myself in a small corner beside the place where I was ditched, dumped however you want to call it. I am bizarrely wasted. Right, emo. Laugh all you want. You aren't the one hurt. It wasn't you who didn't know that making someone feel extra special is a sin. And it was never you who loves someone the way I do.

"My, my look what we have in here."

"Go, hiccup, away, Tanya."

Bella's POV

Edward isn't home yet. I wonder what happened. Bella, you sucker obviously he's hurt. He might have wandered drinking. He won't do that, he doesn't drink. Well, he's a boy. That's what boys do. This is what romantic movies do to you Bella.

"Bella, it's Alice." I heard her knocking ripping my wandering mind from Edward's whereabouts.

"If this is about Edward, I'm not coming clean but hell I know he deserved that!"

"Look Bella," Alice said opening the door. Fuck. Lesson learned: lock the door when you're in the midst of excessive tantrums. "I'm not in the position to say this but this isn't entirely Edward's fault."

"Alice, I don't expect you to take my side but I don't see how the other percent belongs to somebody else." I replied almost asking.

"Bella, hear me out. Edward made you feel special; he did everything for you, absolutely everything."

"Yeah, including living my life."

"What I'm trying to say is, you took part in his being that way. Bella, you knew all along that he loves you too much but you never said anything. You knew he was overreacting but you just let it passed. Why are you being unnecessarily difficult?"

"I don't know Alice. Maybe this is for the better. Maybe, not being his rag doll anymore would make it easier for the both of us."

"Don't you love him, even just a little?" Alice asked whispering as if asking herself. "You know it'd kill him to let you go."

"Damn Alice! This isn't about letting go! I don't want him to go, but I want to know what we are to each other, what we're going to be. I hate sitting around waiting until he finally tells me how he feels. I'm not a psycho. I can't tell what he's showing when he's just so stubborn about spitting it out."

"So you do love him? And after all those thirteen freaking years; all you wanted was to hear him say it?"

"Need I say the obvious?"

"Well, it isn't obvious for my brother, neither for me nor for anyone."

"You know what Alice? I need to see your brother." I heard Alice giggle while I was walking away praying he's just out there waiting for me like he usually did.

Flashback

We were thirteen. I told him I'm going to buy us some ice cream, chocolate brownie his favorite. I insisted my buying this time since it's my birthday. The rain started pouring so I assumed he'd go somewhere he won't get wet. I ran back to the playground where I left him.

"Oh my fucking god, Edward Cullen, you're a dead man! What the fuck were you trying to do? This isn't a bloody movie. When it rains everyone's supposed to run under roofs. What the fuck?"

He drew near me and I knew what was coming. I closed my eyes and succumbed to that wet sex hair, deep green eyes and perfect face. Gently, he nibbled on my lower lip as if emphasizing how mad he was for missing me. I opened my mouth to grant him access and then that tongue that always tasted like strawberries and honey. Wait Bella. This isn't the time to give in. When I wanted to pull away and strangle him for being an idiot, he wrapped his arms around me and whispered.

"You didn't allow me to buy you a gift so I figured I'd do whatever you asked me. It started to rain and I wanted to look for you but you said, "Stay there Edward and not go anywhere."" He said trying to mimic how I said it. It's funny though, his voice was too velvety it wasn't even close. "So I thought you'd get mad if you come back and not see me here. Forgive me Bella. Please?"

Who the hell would be able to resist this idiot yet lovable sweetheart? I don't have the right, no? That's the boy I instantly fell for. It still amazes me how he keeps me falling over and over again.

End of Flashback

I went back to school to see if he's still there. We never know, right?

And then I ran through all the bars that might have attracted the idiot in him. I heard thunders warning me to dash and reclaim him. Just when I thought I hit jackpot, the rain poured heavily and the darkness around me embraced me even more, thunders kept booming as if laughing at me secretly yet loud enough to suffocate me.

I wish I didn't go. I wish I didn't bother. I just wish the ground eats me right where I'm standing. Screw you, Edward Cullen. Damn you, Tanya Denali.

Tanya's POV

I can't believe my eyes. Edward Fucking Cullen. Although he doesn't look really well at the moment, might as well take this one chance.

"Hey Cullen, is it your little princess? I heard you got dumped." Everybody in school knows who to kill whenever needed. The bitch doesn't know what she did.

"What's in it, hiccup, for, hiccup, you?" He really is wasted. That girl's stupid. Who the hell would ditch the perfect Prince Cullen? Right, she would.

I neared his perfect face, slowly ran a finger on his pearly cheeks. Oh my god, he's really a god. No way in hell I'm not gonna kiss those lips. I swear they're begging to be replenished. Wait, Tanya. How long are you going to be okay after being discarded twenty times in a row? Seriously, this guy is taken. He'll never be yours so just don't push your luck. You've been into so much pain more than desirable so just grow yourself some pride.

"Whatever Cullen, let me take you home." Against my will of course, honey.

Edward lost balance and oops.

Edward's POV

I need Bella. I want to see her brown eyes: those eyes that haunted me ever since I saw them, those eyes that were always in my head. I suddenly felt my lips being crushed against warmth, warmth I knew wasn't Bella's.

"What the fuck, you aren't Bella!"

"Excuse me, Mr. Oh-so-perfect-whatever-I-presume-is-always-right, may I tell you that you were the one who lost balance and stumbled on me. Seriously?"

I looked away trying to retrieve my logic. Fuck my head's killing me. And then I saw a flicker of what seemed like Bella's figure through the sliding glass door. I could easily see her. She stumbles and trips whenever she's not exerting all her effort not to fall. In a millisecond, I sealed my lips with Tanya's. Look at me Bella. Look at what you did to me. If you aren't my rag doll anymore, forget the perfect Cullen.

A/N: Sorry for making the story quite long. It's all the drama :D