So he was gay, he knew that much, and he could accept that much, but liking Draco? Sure he was hot, he'd even heard Hermione admit that much, but he was still Draco. Had it really been Harry's fault that had caused all of this fighting? Ignoring Draco's background, and the natural order of things that had set them against each other so many times, if Harry had given him a chance on that first day would hit have all been different.
He threw his head into the pillow and groaned. Why hadn't he just walked away from Draco. That same morning he'd liked girls, had a girlfriend and an enemy. Now he everything was very nearly flipped, he'd kissed that enemy and couldn't be in the same room as that girlfriend!
"What's up with you?" Ron asked making harry jump up and for some reason he felt oddly guilty.
"Nothing really, just thinking.! He said honestly, Ron looked at him curiously for a moment making Harry's insides twist, there was no way he could know what had been running through Harry's mind just moments before but the look was far from reassuring.
"Yeah I wanted to talk to you about that." Ron said Harry nearly fell of the bed.
"Talk to me about what?" He asked a little to quickly.
"Oh sorry, I thought it was obvious, I want to talk about Ginny." Harry bit back his sigh of relief for fear Ron might get suspicious and settled for a nod, waving a hand to indicate that Ron should take a seat on his bed.
"What's up?" Harry prompted which was apparently not the way Ron wanted him to broach the topic.
"What's up? You mean apart from my heartbroken sister who's been crying to Hermione about you leaving the room every time she walks in. She's been trying to talk to you since breakfast but apparently you haven't given her half a chance!"
"I'm sorry but I really haven't been in the mood for it today, I was pretty sure we'd both said all there was to say at breakfast and your attitude seems to have changed, or are we pretending that conversation we had earlier never happened at all?"
"That was before I knew the full story, she stopped you fighting with Malfoy in the great hall you went mad at her? Really Harry you should have been bloody thanking her! She probably saved you a week of detention, but you go and break up with her for it!"
"Hey she suggested breaking up, not me!"
"Yeah but she wasn't serious! She said it was a heat of the moment thing, not a forever thing!"
"Well I'm sorry Ron but I was serious, I just don't like her like that anymore, I'm sick of the arguing and then the madly in love, it makes me dizzy. I cant keep up with her mood swings and quite frankly I don't see why I should have to!" Not to mention the fact that I'm now certain that I'm gay, he added to himself and wondered for a moment how Ron would react if he told him like that, or if he ever told him. Then there was the first guy he'd ever kissed being Draco, well that would go down perfectly! He really had messed everything up in just one day.
"Fine if that's how you really feel!" Ron snapped jumping up and glaring at Harry who just shrugged.
"It is." Ron stormed out of the dorm room slamming the door as he went, but Harry didn't get much peace, he heard Ron yelling on the staircase and not even a minute after he'd left the door opened again and Hermione came in slowly.
"Come to tell me how upset Ginny is and how mean I am for breaking it off?" He asked looking over at her.
"No, I've come to tell you that I'm here for you Harry." She met his eyes steadily and once again he found himself unnerved, but he didn't put it past Hermione to have sussed more than Ron. After a moment of watching him carefully she gave the slightest of smiles to herself and perched on the edge of his bed. "Ginny really isn't bothered that it's over between you, to be quite honest she's just being a bitch and making out that she is to Ron. Eloise heard her laughing about it in the girls bathrooms."
"And what else?" Harry said seeing straight through Hermione's confused look, "Oh come off it, the one thing you could never learn was how to lie, well that an divinations but..." He laughed as she punched him playfully in the arm.
"And one thing you were never good at Harry was hiding your emotions, well that and following rules!"
"At least my rule breaking is practical" He said still laughing. "But why do you say I'm no good at hiding my emotions?" He asked trying to mask his worry with laughter.
"Oh come off it Harry, you were never as into your relationship as Ginny was. She knew it just as well as I did, she knew it would end eventually but what she didn't know was why." Hermione raised an eyebrow and examined Harry.
"You're being very cryptic." Harry said deciding his best and probably only really option was to play dumb.
"Ok, I'll go ahead and spell it out for you if you want?" She waited just looking at Harry who remained silent, "Well lets see, the arguing might be and excuse to break up, but something else has happened since, I saw the fight outside the great hall Harry, it wasn't the worst and you both walked away looking pretty bad about it."
"That's no less cryptic Hermione." Harry said biting back on what he really wanted to ask, if she'd seen them fight what else had she seen.
"Fine, but the problem is I'm not sure how much you know yourself so this is..."
"Just tell mw what your thinking Hermione" She spent another moment just looking at him before nodding with a sigh.
"Well if you want." She said pulling her legs up to her chest and turning on the bed to face Harry properly "So this morning it was any other fight, break up now make up ten minutes later, but before you had a chance to make up something happened. It was your conversation with Ron earlier though that really got me thinking." So she'd been there to, Harry was beginning to wonder if he was being stalked. "There was something about you that was distant, the things that Ron said meant one thing for him but I could tell that you were relating them to something. That's when I guessed that there was someone else, but I found it strange that you had suddenly realised you liked someone else so suddenly when you seemed fine with Ginny that same morning. Then I remembered why it had surprised me that you and Ginny were ever fine, why I'd told her to look at other guys not long before you got together because really I didn't think she had a chance with you. I'd thought that you were... well playing for the other team? When you got with Ginny I figured I must have been wrong but then this. Harry are you...?"
Harry didn't know how to answer, the obvious thing to say would be yes but he couldn't bring himself to say it, he knew that if he did he would start retelling the day and then he would tell her about Draco and the confusion and how his head was still spinning, even he was having trouble with that never mind her. Thankfully she nodded for him.
"Harry its ok." That he had to answer to.
"Oh Hermione you have no idea how much it isn't ok." He said throwing himself back into his pillow and covering his face with his hands so he didn't say more.
"It is Harry, believe me, I know why you think it isn't and I still say it is." Harry lifted his head and peaked through his fingers suspiciously. "Please, your lack of trust hurts me!" She laughed "for you to realise that your gay there'd have to be a guy involved Harry, from what I can tell, unless you've been making out up here with Seamus, the only other guy you've been alone with today is MAlfoy, and you seemed more reluctant than ever to attend that detention."
Harry suddenly flung his arms out and let out a sigh of relief, it was like a huge weight had just been obliterated and he lead grinning at his canopy. "I'm insane though right?" He said lifting his head to look at Hermione but still grinning like a Cheshire cat "I mean he's Malfoy, I hate him and he hates me" Again he sighed and his smile faded slightly into more of a grin to himself "But I don't hate him Hermione, is that bad?"
"do you believe in all that 'fine line between love and hate stuff'?" Harry shook his head, "No neither do I, I think you've liked each other all along and just made it into hate to save yourselves from potential embarrassment, if you like him it's not bad Harry, you could definitely pick worse than the Slytherin sex god."
"The what?" Harry sat upright looking at Hermione questioningly.
"It's a thing among girls, Draco is the Slytherin sex God, and you're actually the Hogwarts sex God." Harry raised his eyebrows.
"Hermione I've never..."
"Oh I know that's not the point, all it means is that given the choice of anyone the majority of girls would pick you over anyone else, if it had to be a Slytherin most would pick Draco, Huffelpuff is Cedric and Ravenclaw's is Roger Davies, the Gryffindor not including you is Oliver Wood." Harrys eyebrow raised still further.
"Oh I see, so girls, who say that guys are mean and stereotypical and chauvinistic, have a list of 'sex God's' that they would like to sleep with, can I ask the criteria for this list miss Granger." She shoved Harry playfully.
"Shut up, we need some fun! And don't you go telling people you know about this, its one of the best kept secrets at Hogwarts!"
"Right, after the chamber of secrets itself of course, oh and the fact that Hagrid was hiding a Dragon in his hut, and that time when Lord Voldemort himself was hanging around Hogwarts stuck on the back of a teacher's head , the fact that the whomping willow was built to hide a werewolf or..."
"Ok shut up" they both laughed for a while and Harry was Happy just to sit and be smile because it made everything seem normal and it made him realise for the first time in what was shaping up to be a very long day, that everything was still normal, more normal even! And that was good.