Dear Readers

Sorry this is so late Since I last pdated, I have been so busy with school, extra curriculars, and sorting out the rather interesting applied forms of tragedy that my friends call life that I have had little time to write. Also, ive been lazy : ( Over the past few days, however, I finally had time to work on this story to my hearts content. I was a few hundred words away from completion when suddenly… my motherboard gets shorted. So… here it is. The new chapter.

Chapter 4: Heart Station

Demyx entered the room, unsure of what to expect but knowing that whatever he found, it was sure to be something rather unpleasant, like… something not horrific, not terrifying, but… that combination of disappointment, unrest, and sorrow that comes from knowing that you give a damn about somebody and knowing that that person could not be made to see that until all of the pain and heartbreak had been suffered through. When it came to Xion, however, this took on a whole new meaning. Xion… ever since she died, she… had change. In order for her to come back from the dead, she had to regurgitate every single memory that she had inherited from Sora at the same time, experience them as vividly as he had when the memories were formed simultaneously, causing Sora's heart to react with a rather strong force. This is where Newtonian Physics comes into play. For every reaction, there is an equal and opposite reaction, and since reactions are caused by forces, it can be concluded that for every force, there is an equal and opposite force. Now, this is only a general sketch of things, as the exact opposite force depends on the exact situation, and even the equality of it comes into question as forces do not have to be in equilibrium, in fact, it is only when they are out of equilibrium that things actually happen. However, for this case, let it be given that the forces were in equilibrium, equilibrium being total balance between two forces (force x = force y).

Now, the force that Xion's memory binge fired at Sora's heart was the Mental force, or the force that keeps Nobodies going. Its opposite in all but a few cases is the Force of the Heart, or what keeps the heartless living. In naturally existing things that are still living, however, these forces are in equilibrium. Thus, when Xion's mental outburst reached Sora's heart, it responded in kind with a burst of Heart force equal in strength, yet totally opposite. However, since the heart force was coming from a living thing, it also carried life with it. Life, however, is not a force, as it has no opposite. It is more like an object with momentum, going continually forward in the direction it wants to until acted upon by a force. The opposite of life is the lack of life, not anti life. The beam of Heart force that Sora fired back at Xion was a force that acted on some of Sora's life momentum, redirecting it towards Xion. Thus, when the Heart force hit Xion back with all the strength of the Mental force she had sent at Sora, the life with in it, being momentum, traveled forward until it was acted on by namely the Mental force that gave Xion shape (lacking a physical frame, Xion kept in existence by unconsciously exerting Mental force in directions around her center of consciousness, keeping equilibrium with the forces pressing in around her. However, she gained such control over her mind during this time that she gained the ability to very slightly throw herself out of equilibrium, making the mental force pushing out ever so slightly stronger than the forces pushing in on her, meaning that when the life arrived, it encountered a force that acted upon it, causing it to accelerate in the relatively negative direction to the extent that by the time it was on her center of consciousness, it was also at rest).

Thus, she was infused with life again, and came back into being in Castle Oblivion, her birth place. Except, she wasn't exactly herself. By the time she had die, she had been introduced to all but one type of love. The love that was friendship she was well versed in and Roxas had taught her well of that special kind of friendship based love that existed between siblings. Her knowledge of romance came from some select experiences with Riku and Axel, as well as memories inherited from Sora of him and Kairi and the feelings that Sora held for her. The one brand she had not experienced, however, was that seemingly required love that existed between parent and child. All of the loves she had previously encountered were voluntary, while the love between a parent and child is more just… there. It doesn't form, like all these other brands of love. Instead, it exists from the very first moments between parent and child. While this is all very fine and good for the parent and the child, when it is introduced to someone like Xion via a very intense series of memories, who had before this point never even considered the concept that some loves are required, it can be life shattering. Deep within her, so mind bogglingly deep within her memory that Namine had no clue they even existed within Xion, lay a few memories of Sora and his parent, starting from birth and going up to the what Sora felt for them on that fateful day that the Destiny islands was torn to shreds by the heartless, with a few random occurrences of the absolute unfairness of life in that one has to love ones parents even during the times when one absolutely hates their guts. They, however, came to light with the rest of Sora's memories during the process of rebirth.

When Xion experienced these memories, the idea that love can be an involuntary, required thing shook her to the core and in a very subtle way, forced doubt into her entire life. Did her friends love her as a friend because they wanted to, or because they had to? What about her feelings for her friends? Did she have a choice in those? Or is that too involuntary? At first, no one noticed the changes in her, the slight lack of confidence, the unwillingness to go against a friend in an argument, small stuff like that. Eventually, however, as this new and strange idea became more and more pervasive throughout her thoughts, until it came to the point that her sanity became at risk. Without anything to be sure of in the present, her mental state changed in two quite fascinating, and heartbreaking, ways. The first way she majorly changed is that her actions became a bit more random, except… they didn't. Though her actions appeared random, they were all designed towards one goal: to inflict the worse emotional pain possible upon herself, to gauge her own reactions in terms of love to other people, to test whether it was required or not, to see after how much abuse she would stop loving people. Thus, she acted on her whims, and kissed Axel. Secondly, she discovered that the only place she could truly have confidence in her friends and in herself was in her memories from before she died. Thus, more and more, when she was herself and her subconscious, which was what controlled her random behavior, was not causing her to do something random to attract attention from Axel so that he would hate her and destroy her emotionally, she got lost in her memories, using them as a barrier between her and the pain that her actions brought her. Despite their often tear jerking content, they were the only things to give her hope, the only things to make her feel even a bit better, as she had begun to doubt whether her friends tried to comfort her because they wanted to, or because they were required to, and thus all their attempts at soothing failed her. She was almost entirely without hope, without anything except this sense of doubt about everything. She anticipated the day when she would slip into that final oblivion of nonexistence that would accompany her second death, her true death, as to set her friends free from being required to love her as a friend.

Or so Demyx theorized over the course of the weeks and months following Xion's rebirth. He could be wrong, but for some reason, he had a feeling that that wasn't the case, that he was right on about was plaguing his friend. And thus… he began to form a plan to help her, a plan that, if enacted perfectly, would not only free Xion from this torment and assure her that her friends were her friends by choice, nut It would also bring her and Axel together as a couple. It was obvious to him the feelings that existed between the two, and he was more than willing to play cupid for them. They deserved each other.

As he prepared himself to enter the corridor and put his plan into motion, he thought for a moment about the existence of true love. Then, he entered the corridor.

Done : )

I don't know what else to say but this. No idea when next chapter will be up, so don't ask. Be thankful I got this one up : )

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Till next time, my friends, adios.