I do not claim New Moon as my own. This is SM's genius work, I'm just touching it up, and switching around the point of view. Credit goes to SM as well as me. Some parts are copied word for word from NM just to give you the full effect.
Chapter 3: The Long Goodbye
The hours had never passed so quickly. School was over, in what seemed like minutes after it started. The school bells only reminded me of what was to come- the long goodbye.
Soon, even evening came, and it was time. The time I'd been dreading the most had come. I wanted so much to pretend like everything was going to stay the same, rather than hide under the wings of a false reality, but I had my task set out for me. "It was best for Bella," were the only words that prevented me from losing my mind.
I had come to Bella's house, welcomed, and I sat down on the couch. The surroundings didn't seem appropriate. I didn't want to sour her taste to her own living room. "Come for a walk with me." I said.
I could feel Bella's hands shaking slightly as I led her out of the house, onto the path into the forest. I could see her face had gotten pale, and the blush of her cheeks had vanished. I could see the pleading in her eyes, and the anxiety of what was to come.
I took a few steps, until we were shaded by the trees, and turned to face her. I suppose it wasn't much of a walk, but atleast we had made it outside.
"Okay, let's talk." Bella said. I suppose it was easier if she made the first move. I took a deep breath.
"Bella, we're leaving." There. It was said, done.
"Why now? Another year-" I could hear the confusion in her voice.
"Bella, it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty, and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."
Bella stared at me, still rather confused. And suddenly, I understood. Her next word confirmed my thoughts.
"When you saw we-," she whispered. I couldn't stand it. She had thought I meant her too. How I wished that was the case.
"I mean my family and myself". I must have looked like I actually meant what I was saying, because the confusion that was in Bella's eyes turned to sheer horror.
"Okay," she said. "I'll come with you." No, Bella, no. Don't make this harder on me.
"You can't, Bella." I said, my voice cold and hard. "Where we're going…it's not the right place for you."
"Where you are is the right place for me."
"I'm no good for you, Bella." That realization hit home.
"Don't be ridiculous."
"My world is not for you." Of course it was! My world was her.
"What happened with Jasper- that was nothing, Edward! Nothing!"
"You're right," I agreed grimly. "It was exactly what was to be expected."
"You promised! In Phoenix, you promised that you would stay-"
"As long as that was best for you," I interrupted.
"No! This is about my soul, isn't it?" She shouted.
"Bella." Stop, Bella.
"Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't care! You can have my soul. I don't want it without you!"
"Bella." Please, Bella.
"It's yours already!"
"Bella." I couldn't. I could not say this. But I had to. "I don't want you to come with me." I could not believe I had said those words. I didn't mean them. I didn't mean them Bella!
She looked at me, and what I saw back in her eyes shocked me.
She believed me.
"You…don't…want me?" Of course I do, Bella! Don't believe it. Please don't, Bella.
I looked down. There were a few more last threads I had to cut.
"No." I do, Bella! I do want you!
"Well, that changes things." I was surprised at how calm she sounded. She did believe it. She really thought I didn't want her. Didn't she know me enough to understand that I loved her? That I can't live without her?
I looked away. I could not speak to her to her face, anymore. I was ashamed. "I'll always love you…in a way. But what happened he other night made me realize that it's time for a change. Because I'm…tired of pretending to be something I'm not, Bella. I am not human. I've let this go on much too long, Bella. I'm sorry for that."
"Don't." she cried. Bella. I wouldn't if I didn't have to.
"Don't do this."
It was too late, though.
I already had.
"Well…if that's what you want." She said. Every fiber of my being wanted to hold on to her. To keep her near me for the rest of our lives. I nodded in agreement, breaking the last thread of our relationship, and therefore the last thread of my sanity.
I felt guilty for asking her a favor, but, putting my morals aside, I did. "Don't do anything reckless." I watched as Bella used all her energy on a simple nod. It killed me inside to watch her suffer. "I'll make you a promise in return," I continued. "I promise that this will be the last time you see me. I won't come back." I longed too, though.
I smiled, putting on a façade of fake happiness. "Don't worry. You're human. Time heals all wounds of your kind." I only wished it was the same for me.
"Goodbye, Bella," I said. I was leaving my life, my soul, here in Forks.
"Wait!" she pleaded.
"Take care of yourself." I turned, and walked away, out of my Bella's life.
It was then that the tears of my soul poured down.
It was over.