Finally, I'm home, said Lucy while she was putting on her pijamas. She was feeling extremely relieved that she was in her cosy house again. She laid on her bed, took a blanket and hugged her pillow. Her heart, her head, her whole body, felt so heavy on the bed.

"I didn't know sorrow can make you like this. I thought it was something much more simple. Now, I know. It isn't just the heart that feels the pain. Heart is the center, from where all things begin. Then, like a disease, pain is spreaded through all your parts. Heart is just start. Then, the whole body suffers." , she thought. And without understanding it, she fell asleep quietly, peacefully. Her eyes closed and finally her face relaxed. She needed this sleep more than anything.

- Goodnight Mirajane-san! See ya tomorrow! Thanks for talking!, Happy said with a cute smile.

- Goodnight, Happy! And don't forget what we discussed!, Mirajane smiled.

"Don't worry, I won't..", Happy thought and winked. He approached Natsu, who couldn't escape from Lisanna and said:

- Natsu! I wanna sleeppp! Let's go home now, pleaaaaseeee...!

Lisanna gave and angry look to Happy, as he interrupted her talking.

- Happy, where are your manners? Can't you see we were talk-" , tried to say furiously, but Natsu interrupted her also:
- Yeah, Happy, I agree, it's late. We should go. See ya Lisanna, Goodnight!"

And both of them left quickly. Lisanna was really angry...

Lucy woke up in the middle of the night. She looked around and realized it was still late at night, a very cold night. A freezing breeze kept spreading throughout her room, making it feel like it was snowing outside. Lucy stood up and closed her window. Then she want back in her bed. "I am really cold" , she thought. "I should make myself a hot coffee or something.." She stood up again and headed to her kitchen. After that, she took a warm blanket, her hot cup of coffee and sat on her desk chair. She took her diary and began to write: "It was a difficult day for me today. Natsu was again with her. He didn't even notice me! What were they talking about all these hours? Why do I keep trying? He wants her. I don't care. Why should I care anyway? He is just a friend. Just a friend. He can be with whoever he wants. I have my life and he has his"

She stopped. She thought about the things she just wrote. A tear ran down her face.

"Why do I keep lying to myself? I care! I know we're nothing more than just friends, but, I feel something more...

I... I am not allowed to feel like this...It is really awful to destroy our friendship because of my stupid feelings. He isn't interested in me anyway. He wants her. But... I would give anything to feel his hot arms around me. To feel his breath on my cheek. To feel his lips on my neck and his fingers in my hair. I would give anything just to feel his sweet embrace during the night and his goodmorning kisses on my forehead. I would die just to have a moment like this with him. To feel his body on mine and his kisses on my neck, my shoulders, my chest. Why does this has to be an imagination, only? I want to live the reast of my life in his arms. He is so close, but yet so far away from me. I want to be his and him to be mine. Too bad...this will only be my not coming true dream..." She fell asleep on her desk, while writing down her feelings. Her pain of that want, was killing her. Her love was really strong.

The sun came up the other day and birds were chirping sweetly. Lucy woke up with a strong headache.

- Goodmorning sunshine! , Mirajane smiled to her while she walked in.

- Morning..., Lucy said in a very tired tone.

- Lucy, what happened to you? Didn't you sleep well last night?, Mirajane asked.
Lucy, didn't make it to answer as Loke showed up and started talking:

- Goodmorning, my beautiful flower! You look sweet as always!, told and gave her a red rose. Why are you so exhausted? Were you writing your diary last night? , Loke winked.

- How the HELL, you know that?, Lucy screamed and attacked him.

- Haha..my dear. Many girls like me, but not all of them are like you! I know you are the one! And I can understand that you want me so bad, that you keep writing a diary every night, talking about your passion about me. Lucy, I don't want you to suffer anymore. Let's be together!

Lucy stood there blinking with a wide open couldn't belive the things she was hearing!

- Sorry Loke, I don't want to. I need some time for myself, she answered.

Then, Natsu and Happy turned up and, next to Natsu was...Lisanna! She was holding Natsu's arm again and talking to him non-stop. When Lucy saw them, her face became plain white, her heart cracked and her eyes were full again.
- My sweetie...What's wrong? Don't cry! I can wipe away all of your tears and make you happy with my love!, Loke said loudly and brought her head so close to his that their lips' in-between distance was bearly visible. His right arm was around her waist while with his left arm was holding her cheek.

"Are they about to kiss?" , Natsu thought and his eyes' balls were burning hate.