JPOV
Ever since yesterday when he bumped into Bella he was on a high even if she didn't know who he was, just a glimpse of her up close was enough. Work was going well, as well as wedding portraits he got some side jobs and he went on a nature hike; the pictures he had was amazing. Every day he went home to an empty house even though he still called Alice everyday it was still lonely so Alice suggested he start going on dates get a dating profile, all that sounded good but he didn't want to go through all that trouble to find someone that wasn't Bella he wished he could talk to her but didn't know how to approach her. He would have to get to know her more but how? He needed a plan
Bella
Ever since that episode she had rose thought it best for her to work from home or take a break, go on vacation but she couldn't leave her job it was what she lived for what kept her sane. Emmet said she needed to go out like on a date but she didn't like it, after what happened to her she didn't nessecarily trust men that much just her dad and emmet she wouldn't go through all that pain again,the reminder of it made her stronger in a way she didn't need a man to live her life but emmet insisted
"come on bella not all men are like that" emmet said. She shook her head
"how do you know? I really don't want to find out"
" it wont hurt you to try" she stared at him hard
" you know what I mean, just go on one date and see"
" I cant take that risk again emmet" she said. " I promised myself that"
" life is about taking risk, you need it"
" he's right b" rose said. Bella looked at her in disbelief
" I know bella and I wish I can take away the pain and erase your past but that's just it, I cant and it's the present now time to start living it" she walked over to her " b just think about it please, you don't have to go out and find a boyfriend just befriend a man atleast you cant be afraid all your life"
" Ok I'll think about it" . truthfully she was scared it was a long way from her comfort zone, she always shyed away from being near any men with the exception of close friends and relatives and they weren't many, se would go out her way to walk past any she saw outside or even at work she always had to have somebody with her she never got that close with a stranger except she thinks the other day when she bumped into the man with the honey eyes usually being that close triggers memories and she goes into panic mode but strangely she didn't mind it. That was just one of the reason she didn't date and the other was she couldn't find anyone that would want her for anything other than her looks it was all about looks and come to think of it it was a factor in her past relationship with david he said she was beautiful but she didn't feel like it and he never treated her like she was to her beauty was a curse.
But the truth was her soul was bare
Battered and bruised emotionally
And on the inside everything died
And if you would look inside her eyes
You would see the pain and sadness reflected
But they always looked past it
Focusing on her looks
They way her body looked
Bella
The past days are filled up with work shes been getting more clients lately and working harder than before rose suggests she take a break and it comes in the form of an wedding invitation.
"who is it from?" rose asks
" Jessica and tyler". Rose looks confused
"" I say
" Oh her" she says " didn't like her much"
" you don't even know her" I laugh
" but I can tell she seems conceited" she says
" and you don't act that way"
" but I have a reason" she says flippantly.
" I don't know if I should go"
" why not bella" rose says
" well, for one it will be a lot of men there and I don't know if I can deal" rose sighs
" bella we talked about this, anyway just go and after you can leave it would be rude to not go"
" fine but you're going with me"
" Nope You're doing this on your own"
The thought is scary being alone around strange men but she's right I have to try, I guess this is a new beginning for me.