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I awoke to the sound of birds chirping and singing above me. The sun was beating down on my black uniform, making me sticky with sweat. For a second I panicked, sleep momentarily making me forget where I was. But soon, I could feel the prickly leaves and brush under my hands and legs, my long hair a tangled mess in the twigs. For a moment I felt completely at peace in the quiet woods. Although I was hot, the warmth of the sun radiated all over my body like a protective blanket. The birds and fresh air seemed to lift my tired spirit somewhat. With a groan, I pushed myself up with scratched arms, and that's when I felt something silky underneath my palm. I brought the glistening red material up to my face and inhaled it's warm scent.

Zero…

Even through the iron smell of my own blood, I could smell the richness of the silver haired boy's scent like he was right there. Only he wasn't. The last time I saw him he looked deathly ill, even if Chairman assured me he would be ok, at least for now. At least for now… How long did he have then? How long did I have to try to figure out this mess? I held my head in my hands, rubbing my eyes, trying to keep the weight of everything from coming crashing back on me. It's only been two days and so much has happened, I thought to myself as I stood up, taking a twig with me that was hanging on to my skirt. Thankfully though, my mind was rendered numb from all of the crying, so I didn't think another meltdown was in the near future. Tiredly, I brushed what twigs, leaves, and dirt I could off of me, which wasn't much. I sighed in frustration, knowing full well that I looked like some feral, lost child. My hair was a mess of tangles and leaves, my uniform was practically ruined for the day, and of course I had tons of lovely cuts and scrapes that adorned my face, arms, and legs. Knowing it couldn't be too awfully late, I looked at my watch to find that it was only lunch time. Somehow I wasn't hungry…

"Well, I better go do damage control," I sighed to myself, knowing that Chairman Cross is probably freaking out over my episode. I don't know when I can tell him the truth…I wondered as I tromped through the brush toward the school. I don't know if I can ever tell him…or Zero. Before I went to see Chairman, I wanted more than anything to go see Zero. I wanted to see that he really was ok. Soon I was back on the grassy yard of the school. Thankfully everyone seemed to still be at lunch, which was a great relief to me because the very last thing I needed now was for someone to see me like this. Then they would all think I'm crazy forever, I thought as I tried to hurry over to the boy's dorm, again hoping no one would see me and form rumors. Before long though, I felt a hand on my shoulder. In fear I spun around wildly, only to be face to face with a beautiful girl with long honey brown hair with glistening eyes. She wore a white uniform, which highlighted her porcelain face. My instincts started to scream at me to run. Vampire… I know I was flushing white and probably trembling when the pureblood girl asked,

"Hey, are you ok?" Her voice sounded so sweet and caring, and yet something else was hidden. I just stared. My heart was pounding. I wanted to pull out my father's Bloody Rose and shoot the girl right then and there. But, her face was so genuine and pure. Her touch was so soft and frail, and yet my skin still recoiled. Get it together Kyra, I tried to calm myself. You don't know this girl. You don't know her past or if she has hurt anyone. She looks harmless, but never trust a pureblood.

"Uh, uh yeah. I'm fine," I flatly said.

The girl looked at me, and I could tell she really didn't believe me. "I just saw you coming out of those woods," her soft voice said. "You looked like you might be hurt," she said worriedly. That's funny, I told myself. A pureblood worried over me…

"No, I'm fine," I stoically said. "I just went for a walk and tripped is all," I said, turning my head to stare at the ground in nervousness, which was a mistake because I completely revealed Zero's fang marks in my neck. Before I knew it the girl had her fingers tracing the angry red marks.

"What happened here?" she said with a bit more authority. Instantly I backed away from the cool touch. I just stared dumbly holding my neck, my other hand clutching Zero's tie. I had no idea how to get out of this one. The girl looked at me and then found the tie in my hand and a look of realization seemed to spark in her eyes. "Let me see," she said softly, stepping closer. My trained instincts made me step back defensively. The girl looked at me sadly. "You have been hurt by one of us," she said slowly. I didn't know if she meant Zero or the purebloods. "You or your family has been hurt by a pureblood am I right?" she asked sounding so genuinely caring I almost wanted to believe her. But I didn't.

"We have been hurt by so much more than one of your kind," I almost hissed, but somehow I didn't think the pureblood girl before me deserved all of the acid I could put in my words.

The girl bowed her head, and then looked at me sadly. "I am so sorry that we are such a destructive race," she somberly said. "But, I don't want to be one of them…" she trailed off looking incredibly sad. For a moment I actually felt sorry for her, but my protective instincts soon returned. The beautiful girl looked at me again and softly smiled. "Please forgive me, I haven't even told you my name," she softly said. "How can I expect you to trust me when I haven't even introduced myself. My name is Yuki Kuran," she bowed.

I don't trust you Yuki and I never will…

I didn't know why but that last name sounded so very familiar, but I brushed it aside. "Kyra," was the only thing I said in return.

Her smile slightly dimmed at my shortness. "Kyra, I don't expect you to like me, but I ask that you trust me just this once," she said as she took a step toward me again. "Please," she softly said. My mind screamed at me to flee again, but I was so tired of running. If this girl wanted to kill me, she probably would have already done it.

Although it disgusted me to say it, I mumbled a quick, "Fine." Yuki softly smiled again and came to stand right in front of me. I stared at the ground, unable to look into the face of the beautiful pureblood, but I could still smell her sweet flowery scent. I felt her brush my hair back and place her hand on the angry wounds on my neck. I was shocked at first, but then I could feel the nagging pain start to fade away. Yuki removed her doll like hand and back away far enough for me to be somewhat comfortable again.

"Feel better?" she asked softly. I placed my own hand up to my neck to find the skin silky smooth and completely healed. My eyes widened in surprise.

"Th…thank you," I stammered.

"It's nothing," Yuki smiled as she started to turn away. "Thank you for trusting me," she sweetly said as she started to make her way back to the moon dorms. I only stared in surprise. Halfway across the yard though, Yuki turned and called, "Please tell Zero I said hello." Hearing that, I was shocked even more.

She knows Zero? What on earth would Zero have anything to do with a pureblood vampire?

More questions. Just what I needed, but then thinking of Zero brought back my urgency to see him again, so I stuffed Zero's tie in my shirt pocket and took off at a run toward the boy's dorms once again, pushing all of the nagging questions in my head aside for a moment.

When I got to Zero's room the door was closed, but I couldn't hear anything inside so I gently turned the knob and creaked it open.

"Didn't anyone teach you about knocking," I heard a slightly weak yet back to normal Zero say as I peeked in. My silver haired friend was propped up in bed reading, not bothering to make eye contact with me. I watched him, making myself believe that he really was ok and that this wasn't a dream. "Well, are you going to stand there forever or are you going to barge in like you always do," he said shutting his book and looking at me. Hearing his cocky attitude again gave me relief.

"I plan on barging in like I always do," I mockingly said as I stepped in and closed the door. I saw that Zero still had some remnants of trickled blood on his face. "Didn't anyone teach you how to clean yourself up?" I smirked as I went in the bathroom and got a cloth.

"Didn't anyone teach you how to clean yourself up?" I heard Zero's sarcastic voice call, making me smile.

As I was waiting for the water to get warm, I thought again about what Chairman had said. "You're all he has left." I tried to push the thought away as I wrung the cloth out, but then a new sensation found its way in my chest.

I came back and found Zero once again reading his book, not even paying attention to me. It was perfect for me when I flung the cloth at his face, or so I thought, for he caught it with cat like reflexes. "Hey, what was that…" he started irritated, but I cut in.

"Don't you ever scare me like again!" I demanded with my voice showing way too much worry. I could feel tears once again start to form in my eyes. Why do I do this…

Zero stared at me shocked, and then shifted his eyes away from me as he cleaned the blood from his face. He then sat there, looking away from me. Finally he said, "I know I scared you, I must seem like a monster to you now…devouring you like some kind of…"

I had come over to Zero's bedside and delivered as gentle a slap as I could manage on my friend's depressed face. He stared at me bewildered. I grasped his shoulders and looked into his violet eyes. I couldn't help it. "Darn it Zero," I said through ever pressing tears. "I'm not talking about that. That doesn't bother me at all! I thought you were dying Zero! I thought that I was going to lose you!" I desperately said as I felt a tear finally escape. He blinked at me, his face surprised. "I thought…I thought you were dead…" I whispered as I wiped the runaway tear from my face as I sat beside Zero. Boy did I feel emotionally spent, but I was here with Zero now and I felt a very small weight lifted from me.

Zero stared at me with wide eyes, as if he couldn't believe what I had just said, but then his expression softened, looking defeated. "Don't cry for a monster like me," he gravely said.

I watched the boy in front of me shocked as he looked somberly to the side. "Zero, I don't know how many times I'm going to have to say this, you are not a monster," I said softly. "It's not your fault." I'm the monster Zero, not you…

"Hey," he started again, looking at me with his sad eyes. "I'm uh…sorry again for yelling at you this morning and for…you know," he murmured. I reached up and pretend to slap him again.

"Don't worry about it," I smiled.

"Then, please don't cry anymore," he said softly as he reached up to wipe another stray tear from my face. His soft touch was like warm electricity spreading over my face. I know I blushed, but I placed my own hand over his and held it to my face. It was so warm and alive, when hours before it felt cold and dead. I pulled his hand away, still holding it and smiled at him.

"Well, you feel alive to me so I guess I don't have a reason to cry," I grinned. He kinda smiled for a second, but then his face fell to the usual depressed look, not believing me again. After getting everything off of me and seeing that Zero is ok, I went back into care taker mode. I flipped his pale hand over and placed my two fingers over the blue, branching veins in his wrist, bringing my other arm up to see my watch. I counted his pulse for fifteen seconds and quickly multiplied by four, to find his pulse was almost back normal.

"Well doctor, am I dead?" he asked, in a heavy voice that was straining to try to be somewhat lighter.

I released his arm and smiled, "Nope, sorry, you're still alive so you still have to deal with me."

I thought I saw a faint smirk cross my friend's face, but it turned serious when he grasped my own arm, which was a mess of cuts and scrapes. "What happened?" he demanded. Now that the emotional high was over, Zero finally got to see the mess I was.

"I uh, fell in…the woods," I stammered. I wasn't technically lying, but I wasn't telling the truth either.

"Bull crap," Zero mumbled as he picked a leaf out of my hair. He ran his cool fingers over a scratch under my eye, making me blush again. "You're cut to pieces," he said as he brushed my hair out of my eyes. "You freaked out didn't you?" he asked seriously as he came to look me in the eyes again.

I did Zero, but it wasn't why you think I did. Your life is in my hands now, but these hands are tainted with innocent blood.

"Maybe," I mumbled, embarrassed. I guess Zero knew not to push things, or it was probably because he understood himself.

"Well, did you beat whatever it was that you were fighting out there?" he asked in his usual sarcastic voice.

No…no I didn't…

"Yep," I answered him, feeling the mood lighten again. "It was a bear."

"I think it was a squirrel and I think it won," he smirked.

"It was too a bear."

"Yeah I bet it was," he responded, rolling his eyes. I scoffed in mock irritation. I then felt the sheets underneath me shuffle as Zero attempted to get out of bed, that is before I caught him and forced him back down. "Hey, what are you…" he started irritated.

"Where are you going?" I demanded as I let him go. I felt awkward pinning a boy a barely knew down, and I know my face burned red yet again. But still, I was too much my mother's child. "Nobody who just recovered from practically going into unexplained shock should be walking around," I huffed.

What is with men…seriously?

"I was going to get you some band aids or something," he grumped. "You look like crap."

I couldn't help but laugh on the inside at seeing his old self again. "I can take care of myself thank you," I smirked. "And you're not so pretty either."

"You can be very annoying," he muttered.

"I try my best," I said pretending to bow. After laughing, I got serious and said quietly, "You know Zero, you really should have gone to a hospital." I thought about how seriously ill he had just been and how any human would have instantly have been whisked off to the nearest emergency room. "But I guess…um,"

"They wouldn't know what to do with a blood thirsty vampire in the midst of all of their sick humans," Zero somberly said.

"Well, I was just gonna say they wouldn't know what to do with a vampire, but whatever floats your boat," I said trying to get him to lighten up. His eyes seemed to brighten somewhat.

"Yeah well, how is your um…neck," Zero asked quietly, his eyes serious.

I almost forgot about it, now that it was healed. I wasn't sure how he would react if he knew a vampire had healed it, but apparently he knew Yuki from somewhere. "Oh yeah, ah, Yuki um…Kuran healed it for me. She said to tell you she said hello," I cautiously said. At the sound of the girl's name Zero's eyes filled with a mixture of anger, sadness, and so much more. He grew completely cold and rigid, his jaw set tightly. His fists clenched the bed sheets in a chokehold. Seeing the reaction I feared I asked, "Are you ok Zero…"

"You need to leave," he sharply said before I could finish. He wasn't looking at me now and I felt whatever connection we had at the moment had been shut off for good at the moment.

"Zero, what's…?" I tried to ask, confused at his rage. I knew he hated vampires like I did but still…

What is going on? Why did this girl's name cause such a reaction?

"I said you need to leave," he growled at me.

I knew I wasn't going to reach him at all now. He was shutting down, but why? Silently, with my face burning, I stood up and walked out of the cold room without a glance back. I kept walking straight to Chairman's office. For some reason, I felt my heart hurt a lot more than it should have for knowing someone only for two days. But no matter what I said to myself, I couldn't erase the sting of Zero's cutting coldness. Feeling even more tired and run down than ever, I knocked on the door of chairman's office.

"Come in," I heard Chairman's light voice call.

Slowly I opened the massive door and drug myself inside. I don't know if it was because of the earlier events or because of my haggard appearance, but as soon as Chairman saw me he jumped up and had me in his arms in no time. Once again in his protective arms, I wanted to fall into a dreamless sleep for a long time. I didn't know what I would do if I didn't have my friend Chairman Cross to run to. He was the only father I had left. As much as I wanted to, I knew I couldn't tell Chairman about my sister. About my failure. I knew I wouldn't get into trouble, the Hunter Association was heavily involved with my parents' research and they understand the reality of these tragedies. No, I couldn't tell Chairman Cross because that would take away his hope…and Zero's hope. I will not take something so precious away from another soul that I love…not again.

"I'm sorry for acting like a child earlier," I tiredly muttered in Chairman's coat.

"No Kyra, I'm sorry for putting all of this on you so soon," he said as he stroked my hair. He led me to large, cushiony chair and sat me down with a blanket. He went and retrieved me a mug of hot chocolate and sat in the leather chair next to me. "I had really hoped I could have offered you some peace here, at least for a little while," he sadly revealed to me. "But, I guess I blew that huh?" he asked trying to smile.

I didn't want Chairman blaming himself, nothing was his fault anyway. I knew whose fault everything was…

Purebloods…we are all in this awful mess because of the purebloods…

"No you didn't Mr…I mean um…Chairman Cross," I grinned exhaustedly. "My family has a job to do, my parents spent every waking minute trying to heal people…and I just run away," I softly said. "But…but I can't do that anymore," I whispered, more to myself than to Chairman. My heart felt twisted and contorted in so many directions, but I knew one thing. I looked into Chairman's face with all seriousness. "I can't promise anything, but…but I promise to do all that I can for Zero," I said as my chest felt a massive weight inside it. Chairman rose and pulled me into his arms again. I could have sworn I felt a tear hit the side of my face.

"Thank you so much Kyra," he said like someone who hasn't eaten in days who has finally gotten a piece of bread. "Thank you so much my dear girl," he said again as he pulled away and smoothed my hair. I tried to smile a real smile as best I could, but I don't know if it worked. Seeing how tired I looked Chairman told me I could take the day off, but I knew I shouldn't miss school this early in the year. "Well, if you insist," he softly said as he led me to the door. "At least go get a nice hot shower and some clean clothes," he said with a smile. I smiled and thanked him agreement as I stepped out. I had thought about asking him about Zero's strange behavior, but somehow I just didn't have the desire anymore. Before I left though, I hugged Chairman one last time and thanked him for all that he had done for me. As I was sprinting to my dorm I heard him call out, "have a good rest of the day Kyra!"

I had managed to clean myself up and get to the rest of my afternoon classes. Of course I was met with strange glances and whisperings, but I was too tired to care at the moment. Yori ran up to me after the last class. "Kyra, my gosh are you ok?" she asked genuinely worried as she saw my fresh cuts and the angry scrapes on my knees.

"Oh, uh…yeah," I faked a smile. "I just um, tripped and scraped my knees, I'm a klutz," I grinned. Once again I knew she didn't buy it, but she decided not to press that matter.

"So um…what happened with Kiryu?" she quietly asked as we heard the screaming fan girls start to fight to get outside for the class switch over.

There was no way I could tell her everything. "He um…he was sick so I made sure he was ok," I said with as much of a convincing voice as possible. "It's in my blood to take care of the sick," I laughed. Yori managed a small chuckle, but I knew I could never lie to this girl. She knew something else was going on, but she was caring enough not to stick her nose in everything. "I don't think Zero will be here to help you, so I can help with guard duties again if you would like," I offered as we shoved our way toward the growing mob outside of the moon dorm's gates.

"As if he ever helps," Yori sighed. "Thanks Kyra, you really help me out," she smiled as we both started to haul over excited fan girls back into line. Once again there was a lot of kicking, shoving, pulling, and cussing, but Yori and I finally got the girls to stand in some semblance of order. Not long afterwards, we heard the massive wooden doors begin to creak open and before us was the perfect and beautiful night class. At this sight, the girls began to start screaming their love interest's names.

"Here comes my Wild!"

"Takuma, my darling!"

"Aidou!"

The girls really went into fits as the class drew near. It was all Yori and I could do to keep them in line when the one named Aidou started blowing the girls kisses. I was desperately trying to push one girl back into line after she tried to run to Aidou when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned to stare into the beautiful green eyes of a handsome blond vampire. My skin crawled under his touch, but the genuine cheerful gleam in his eyes dampened the raging fire of my hate.

"Excuse me miss," he addressed the obstinate girl as he gently pushed me aside. "But it is very rude to be shoving our new student around like this," he finished with a polite grin.

The girl stopped immediately and bowed her head in shame. "Yes, please forgive me Takuma, Kyra," she said as she bowed to each of us in apology. Then, she retreated into the line with tiny tears of embarrassment springing from her eyes. I stared baffled at the blond vampire before me.

"I do apologize for Aidou's provocation of these girls," he smiled sweetly. He wasn't a pureblood, but he was still a noble. I couldn't trust him, but he didn't seem to be hiding any sinister intentions.

"Umm…thank you," I stammered out breathless from the struggle with the girl. He flashed me another huge smile before turning to join the class of vampires again.

"No problem!" he called back. He also said hey to Yori and she smiled and waved back to him. I was starting to think that maybe these vampires might be different when I saw the immaculate couple bringing up the rear. Yuki waved to me and smiled as soon as she saw me, and of course I waved back with a small smile. I still couldn't help but wonder why her name made Zero so upset. It was the look of her partner though, that sent shivers up my spine. His too perfect face and too perfect, sly grin made me shudder, but he only glanced at me for a second before returning to whispering to Yuki. Finally all of the night class was out and headed to the school as the massive wooden gates slammed closed. The fan girls dissipated until only Yori and I remained.

"Phew, glad that's finally over once again," Yori said as she straightened her ribbon yet again.

"Yeah, it amazes me how crazy they are," I said as we started heading back to our own dorm. I had thought about checking in on Zero again, but I figured the cons would outweigh the pros.

It wasn't long before we heard Chairman's voice up ahead. We saw him yelling, pointing, and even running after something, but we couldn't tell what. Then we saw something black running around him with something green trailing behind it.

"What in the world?" Yori sighed as we sprinted to see what was going on. I couldn't believe it when we got to the scene. A huge black dog with tan points was darting and running around Chairman with his scarf in it's mouth. The dog would get close and bow, it's tailless butt wiggling in the air with playfulness. Just as Chairman would get close, the dog would take off again. Suddenly recognition ringed in my head. I knew those crazy antics of the massive Rottweiler that was tormenting Chairman.

"Katja!" I called just as Chairman dove for the scarf. The huge dog stopped and whipped it's head toward me and right as Chairman grabbed for the dog's collar it took off toward us.

"Kyra, that dog is coming right for us!" Yori fearfully said as she took a step back. The ominous giant of a dog came bounding in a full run right toward me. Yori screamed as the black monster jumped on top of me.

"Katja stop it," I laughed as the massive pink tongue drenched my face in dog slobber. I finally pushed my oversized dog off of me and sat petting and ruffling her oversized head as she shoved her nose under my hands forcing me to lavish her. "You are quite the trouble maker," I said as I stood up patting my slobbering Rottweiler. Yori's face was ashen.

"You know this dog?" she stammered out.

"Yeah, she's my dog from home," I smiled as I wiped dog spit off of my face. "I don't know how she got there though."

"I could slap you a good one," Yori slightly laughed. "I thought you were dog food."

"No, Katja isn't vicious, she's just too big," I chuckled as I bent down to rub Katja's belly as she rolled around on her back with her tongue lolling out.

Before long a tired Chairman Cross made his way over to where we were, a ruined, slobbery scarf in his hand. "That dog…ate…my scarf," he said pointing to my relaxing dog.

"I'll get you a new one Chairman," I smiled.

"No worries," he sighed with a tired grin. "I was trying to find you. Your aunt got word that this dog was found at your house and that it belonged to you. She didn't have room to keep it at her house. I thought that maybe I could give you a little happiness if you had your dog with you. She can stay with me if she's house broken, if not she can stay at the stables."

"Wow, thank you Chairman," I said as I gave him a huge hug.

"Just teach her not to eat people's clothes please," he chuckled as he turned to go. I laughed and said that I would try. Yori still looked petrified of the animal, so I got her to come over and play fetch with her in the yard. Soon the two were good friends.

"Do you think we could use her to keep the fan girls in line?" Yori laughed as we made our way to the dorms.

"I don't see why not. She's just a big teddy bear, but she sure looks like she could do some damage," I laughed as I patted Katja's head which reached my hip. When we got to the dorm I told Yori I would meet her for dinner after I put Katja up for the night and went to the library to get some books to study. After making arrangements with Chairman, Katja got her own spare room with an old quilt for a bed. He was caring enough to have gotten food for her and even a few large bones for her to chew on, I guess it was his way of trying to make my life more bearable after the near impossible task he asked me to do. I sat for awhile with my long lost friend. She was curled up with her head in my lap as I stroked her velvet fur as I was thinking of memories of home. After, I headed to the day class library to try to find some books to start my research. After a lot of searching, I came up with a few good ones on basic human chemistry, anatomy, and physiology, but I knew after these I would have to search else where for more in depth sources.

Yori and I had a nice dinner of some simple sandwiches since neither of us was overly hungry. We went and talked with a few other girls before lights out and sat talking for some time before we each went to bed. I was really starting to open up to Yori, I hadn't had the companionship of a friend in such a long while. Before long both of our eyes were starting to droop in drowsiness.

"Are ready to turn in?' Yori yawned.

More than anything…but I can't…I thought as I looked at my stack of books. "I have some studying to do," I tiredly grinned, wanted more than anything to curl up on my bed and cash out. "But, you can go ahead and get some sleep if you want."

"Kyra you look exhausted," Yori worriedly said.

"I'm fine, really," I protested as I grabbed one of the heavy books and my notebook.

"If you say so, just don't stay up too long," Yori sighed as she snuggled under her blankets and went to sleep.

I can't sleep…not when Zero's life is now in my hands…I told myself as I began to read every page of the first textbook and take notes. I have to find a way to save Zero…no matter what…no matter what…

I don't know how long I was up reading and writing before my body forced me to give in to sleep, but it was short lived as I was once again plagued by nightmares, although I wasn't screaming this time and Yori was still asleep. Before I knew it, I could see the sun starting to peak out from the darkness. I was halfway through the first massive book, my notebook a swarm of drawings and notes. I myself was exhausted as I laid back down to rest for the final hour before we had to get up for school.

What's wrong Zero? I wondered as my eyes closed and I pulled Zero's tie out from my pocket and nestled my face in his scent once again. I don't know what to do. I want to help you Zero, more than anything, but I don't want to fail you. There are so many unanswered questions about you…and yet somehow I am still drawn to you. I'm afraid Zero…I'm afraid of hurting you, and yet I can't stop worrying about you. Let me help you Zero…

Sooo...why is Zero acting strange? :) That's for me to know and for y'all to find out although i bet most of you can guess lol. I had to put the Rottweiler in there because they are German and i miss mine so very much...R.I.P. Annie. So, Katja is going to be our comic relief lol Please review! P.S...Yes, yes, yes there will a kiss, but idk when so i guess y'all will just have to keep reading to find out lol