A Child's Pain

WRANING: Not suitable if you have a weak heart for it includes child rape!

Tala's eyes shifted to the sleeping form of the brunette as he sat on the window seat to contemplate his situation in the matter of the males company while they were all alone in the big three story house. Ian's first phone call was by no means short, but it turned out to be extremely effective as it caused a great commotion of tears and whoops of joy from the four remaining men. The redhead let his memory overcome him with various pieces of the day before.

FLASHBACK

"Hey, guys, the Shrimp called and we missed it." Tala said wryly pushing the messages button on the phone. Ian's excitement reached every dark corner of the house and brought tears to everyone's eyes.

"Hi, everyone, its me-Ian. I was just calling to say that I love you Brian and Spencer and I hope that we can get together on the holidays. Kai said we could use the guest house seeing as he and Tyson are going to the Caribbean this winter so that he can drown the unlucky coward." There was a shriek from the said persons and Ian laughed. "Kenny? If you're listening to this Ty put me up in your room- he said you wouldn't mind. Do you miss me yet, Tala? I'm going to draw a wicked, life-sized picture of Kenny wearing nothing but a loincloth so you can smooch him when you go off to bed each night that he isn't with you. He-he-he, not a bad idea. Maybe I'll draw a few of my koibito's so I can do the same. Well I've got to go; I'll call again in a week. I love and miss all of you."

END FLASHBACK

Kenny squirmed in his sleep as Tala climbed into the bed and brought his arms around the lithe form. "Tala?"

"Mm-m-m?"

"What are you doing?" Sapphire eye flew open and stared into deep azure over one shoulder. "Are you alright? You look a little shaken; something the matter?"

"I just want to hold you, Kenny. Please don't send me away? I just want you to hear m out in my own time and on my own turf. Is that all right?" Tears glistened in the redhead's eyes as they stared down the sapphire jewels that belonged to his crush. "Please?" He pleaded. Kenny caved to the reasoning and returned to facing the wall.

"I… Tala, Brian and Spencer have been dropping hints about your dreams, so I know about them already. If you just want to hold me at night then maybe we can make a compromise?"

"How do you mean." Tala silently swore to kill the two mentioned if they dared to interfere again in any way with his life.

"Well you see you're having bad nightmares that drags you into a deeper sleep where no one can reach you and I want to learn more about you so we can…. maybe take …things a little….further?"

"Continue." Tala said- thankful of the way Kenny was back on to him on the bed so that the brunette couldn't see the blush that tickled his face.

"Why don't I just move into the room with you?" The redhead grinned at the 'compromise' Kenny had just come up with. "Tala, what's the verdict?"

"In the morning, koi; we'll discuss it in the morning over breakfast." It was Kenny's turn to be thankful for facing the wall as a bright pink tinge of blush colored his cheeks.

The next morning, Kenny and Tala woke to the smell of fried bacon and deviled eggs with honey coated toast and herbal tea that was thoughtfully left on each side of the bed by the two other occupants of the house. There was also a little note on each one in Brian's clear, neat handwriting. Kenny's said 'We're really glad that you are here. You actually seem to make him smile without realizing it and for that we thank you.' While Tala's own said 'Please don't kill us! We made you breakfast in bed- doesn't that count for anything?'

"Tala, are you really going to kill them after this lovely meal they made for us?" Kenny asked over a mouthful of eggs. Tala shrugged indifferently at the question.

"That depends on if they try to interfere again with my private life."

"They do that a lot I take it?" Kenny mused to the redhead on the other side of the small table.

"You bet they do. Make the best of it; they know it bothers the living Hades out of me." Came the reply through a mouthful of toast.

"Hades? Now there's a change from seven years ago."

"What," Tala asked turning a shade red. "Was that supposed to mean, Kenny?" It was the brunette's turn to redden as the comment was taken the wrong way.

"Well, back in the tournaments," Kenny said as he remembered the past championships they'd been in. "The only time you ever said to anyone was when you were telling Tyson to 'shove it' and 'go to Hell'." Tala laughed nonchalantly at the memory.

"And as I remember, it was you who kept burning his techniques at the dish. At one point you said 'could you be any more careless?'."

"You heard that?"

"Kenny, the whole stadium heard how you burned him that day." Tala pointed out with regal grace.

The rest of the day was spent listening to the sound of Tala crying as he relived his worst- and his best- memories of the abbey; the best being the time that he befriended Kai. Kenny never felt so broken before as he lived every heartbreaking moment with his beloved, seeping into his mind the very pain that was being felt be the redhead.

FLASHBACK

"So talk, I'm here to listen to your story and no matter how gruesome it gets I'll relive every dark moment with you." Tala eyed the other male suspiciously.

"And what's in it for you?"

"A chance to see the side of you that no one else will in this lifetime."

"Fine, I'll talk." There was an intake of breath as he started his story. "I was four when my step-father moved in with us; his name was Leroy Quinn. He was nice enough at first, yet I always thought that there was something wrong with him so I stayed away from him. After a while, my mother learned of my suspicions and set it up so that I had to stay home with Leroy while she went shopping. I agreed to be good and listen to him while she was away because I loved her so much and didn't want to make her angry. Redheads really do have a short span of patients you know.

We sat in the living room where he asked if I wanted to watch a movie and, out of spite and love for mama, I agreed. The idea was as good as the deal we made: he would watch one of my movies and then I would watch one of his. Now you tell me how a child of four years is supposed to know that not all adult movies are for children too?

After watching Kimba the White Lion we sat down again the movie stared out all right but something was different. Soon enough, I started seeing the men in the movie doing things I didn't know how to explain back then to the women. Three men against one woman situations were wrong so I spoke up.

'This is wrong,' I told him. 'Why are they hurting the pretty ladies like that?'

'Look at her face, Tala. She loves it so they're giving her more of it.' I saw something white shoot out of one of the men and asked tentatively:

'What's that?' He laughed and unzipped his pants before hauling out his own 'shooter' as he called them and started to rub it gently.

'Its milk that comes from men- women love it, see?' I looked at the screen to see the young woman licking it off the man's 'shooter' and I grimaced. Milk that came from a man? Was there such a thing as that? I soon found out that yes there was a such thing as 'male milk' as he let a stream of it all over mama's new love seat. 'Come here, Tala, or do you want to make your mama angry that you didn't listen to me? Come here and I'll show you something cool, but you can't tell anyone about it.'

'A secret? OK, I can keep a secret.' I replied as I slid off the arm chair and into his lap. Mama and I always told each other secrets so I was use to it. What I was not ready for was the things he did to me.

'You have to take your pants off for this secret, little one.' I wasn't sure I liked the new secret, but I listened to him anyway and stripped from my waist down. He closed his big hand around my little 'shooter' and began the same rhythmic motion he'd done with his own. I could feel the pressure build in my stomach as he pumped harder and I winced as my own little stream shot out of me. 'Now, now, Tala, don't move away yet; there's still more to come.'" Tears slid down Tala's eyes and Kenny produced a tissue from the box beside them.

"I was told to sit still as he blindfolded me and put tape over my mouth to keep me silent, but I was confused as to why. That's when I felt it; the sharp, stinging pain of his 'shooter' pushing into my backside and I tried to scream for mommy but the tape did its work beautifully." Kenny gasped as if feeling the intrusion with the little Tala; choking back a sob as tears streamed down his face.

"Later in the day I was in my room sleeping when I heard mama in the kitchen talking to someone that didn't sound like Leroy at all so I went to investigate the best I could because my buttocks still hurt from the pain of the mornings activities.

When I got the kitchen, I say mama talking to two uniformed men with badges. 'Mama, can I have a cookie?' I asked sweetly. Trying not to wince in pain was inevitable as one of the men picked me up and put me on his lap. I screamed and kicked until he put me down asking me what was wrong. Something was wrong and I knew it as mama began to cry.

'Tala sweetie, what happened today while momma was gone- you can trust me? Leroy said you hurt yourself outside playing, is that true, honey?' The men seemed to be genuinely interested in what was going on inside their tea cups so I told her what happened.

'Leroy wanted to watch movies so I listened to him like you said, but he put on a bad movie where there were men shooting milk all over a woman. I didn't go outside, mommy, because I didn't want to get my new suit all dirty and make you mad at me.' She cried harder and that made me cry.

'What then, Tala? What did he do to you?'

'H-he told me n-not to t-tell anyone, Mommy. H-he sa-said it was a se-secret.'

'Tala, some secrets are good- like the ones I tell you- but some secrets are bad so I need you to tell mommy Tala: what did Leroy do to you, baby?'

'He made me take off my pants and he touched me until I made the milk too.' She screamed, falling to the floor in a weeping heap. The man who picked me up patted her on the back making shushing sounds and I suddenly knew who they were- the Russian Elite Military. I knew because momma always let me watch the news with her- they always took the bad guy to jail and now they were here for Leroy.

'Son, you need to tell us the rest of it so we can punish the bad man.' I heard the one at the table say.

'He put tape on my mouth and something over my eyes so I couldn't see what he was doing but I felt him hurt me inside my bum.' That day a team of Police came to search the house and found Leroy hanging from the rafters in the basement with a large stack of dirty videos and magazines."

Tala finished his first part of the story with a triumphant smile. Hand in hand with Kenny, they sat on his bed and cried together because of what had been done to the four year old in Tala's mind.

Sorry it took so long- I was wringing Gothika's neck for some gruesome ideas, but Dragon Heart did it for me. So now I have one less muse to deal with (puts wilting white rose on muse Gothika's grave)

DH: She will not be missed.