《 Hello lovelies. I hope you are all doing well, thank you all for the reviews! It's appreciated. About the last chapter...I deliberately wanted the readers to think for themselves that it might be Jakob-also how much do we hate him? Uuggg》
《ENJOY》
Georg has been pacing around Maria's office for the past ten minutes-mumbling to himself while cover his face with his hands. Maria just observed. Her eyes following him all the way.
Finally he spoke.
"I told myself I shouldn't have gone to Vienna. I asked 'why do I have to go to Vienna?' I didn't feel like going to Vienna, told you I was going to Vienna. At first I didn't want to go to Vienna, all you had to say was you don't have to go to Vienna...WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME I DIDN'T HAVE TO GO TO VIENNA!."
Maria wasn't certain what caused his outburst but he seemed really upset about his trip to Vienna.
"It wasn't my place to stop you." Said Maria ever so calmly.
"You mean if I felt like going over to that window right now and jumping out you wouldn't stop me?"
"Vienna is not jumping out of a window."
"It's practically the same thing!"
"Practically is not fatal."
Maria looked him up and down.
"Why don't you lie down again?" Was her simple request.
Georg went to lie down but as soon as his head hit the pillow he shot back up.
"I don't feel like lying down, what do you think about that?"
"Ok."
Rocking his body backwards and forwards again and again. It was obvious that the longer he stayed in her office the angrier he got.
"I would just like to call this whole session to an end right now."
"It's your 40 minutes."
"Your damn right it is." He picked up his keys from the table and mockingly jingled in her face. "It's over."
He stood up and was out her office just like that.
Smiling to herself, Maria got up from her chair and slowly went over to the door where she opened it and found him standing in front of her.
"You left your coat and glasses."
"I know that." He mumbled
"Well would you like to come and get them?" She asked as she put her hand on her hip.
On his way to the door he mumbled something about Vienna and never seeing her again.
"I'll see you next week."
"I don't think so!" was his strong reply as he made his way to the exit.
Closing the door Maria couldn't help but smile and shake her head.
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[A few weeks later]
|| Maria's notes ||
- It was obvious that for some time to come it would be Georg the child that I would have to deal with. He was much worse.
The Vienna episode was an regressive experience. Before Vienna he had been emotionally stagnant, now he was embolized-frozen.
He calls me at all hours of the night. His nightmares are worse. His depression lingering. Whatever happened in Vienna made him a victim of his own mind. He seemed guilty and indecisive.
More often than not I could tell that he hadn't had a nightmare but simply wanted someone to talk to. Georg VonTrapp was lonely.
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"It's getting worse. I'm getting worse. I can't sleep, I can't eat. I don't wish to go to anything. It's like I don't know myself anymore-like I'm not in control."
Maria couldn't help but feel sorry for Georg. It was obvious that he was fighting a losing battle.
"Do you often have suicidal thoughts ?"
He was quick to reply but suddenly closed his eyes again.
"I have yes but not often. Only on days when it's almost unbearable. Like her birthday or our anniversary."
"I understand that perfectly. It almost feels like you are stuck in a loop of love and loss."
Suddenly noise like thunder extended but worse...it was coming from below.
"God, it gets so bad! It feels like I'm in an earthquake."
"You are in an earthquake!"
"I am in an earthquake...earthquake!" As if being drowned in a cold bath Georg shot up from the sofa and started moving around hysterically.
The lights swung violently from the ceiling. Cracks appeared on the wall. Fear and panic filled them both.
"Georg Georg, ah ah relax." Exclaimed Maria as she went to him. Gripping his arms tightly.
"What do you mean relax? We're on the tenth floor."
The earth gave another rattle and Maria and Georg fell to the side. Steadying themselves by holding on to one another.
The noise started to calm.
"It's alright, its over." said Maria.
"Sure that one's over but what about the next one. We have to get out of here! Come on."
"Well you go right ahead I've got things to do." Said Maria as she walked to her desk.
"Oh sure and you think I'm going to leave you in here?"
Another shake.
"Okay maybe just for a little bit." Panic filled Georg.
Maria immediately went to him.
"Come on now, breathe and come lie down."
"I'm sorry. I wouldn't have gotten like that if it wasn't for all that has happened...Suicide, Elsa, Vienna, Jakob and then the earthquake."
Maria's head shot up when she heard her fiancé's name. She wanted to ask but decided against it. After all he could just be confused from the shock.
"I understand, it must've scared the life out of you." Reassured Maria.
"Uh, it scared the shi...weren't you scared?"
"Yes I was." Maria gave a sigh of relief and put her hand to her chest. Her other hand still touching his arm in comfort.
"Hey, how about lying down and putting your feet up? Come on."
"Okay, I'll make a deal with you. I'll put my feel up but if we get one little tremble I'm out of here."
Georg did as he said and lied down. Bending his head to the side he couldn't help but notice something. The shake had caused a closet with mirrors attached to shook. The door popped open...he swallowed hard.
He could see up her dress.
As fast as a rocket he was up again. Alarmed Maria looked over at him.
"What is it?"
"I don't feel like associating anymore today. Can we just talk?"
"Okay."
She could sense the change in his mood instantly.
"Have you and Jakob been together long?"
Why he chose to ask that he would never know.
"About 4 years."
"That's long for a young couple like you. How did you meet?"
"His father knew my family."
"Are you excited about getting married?"
"I was...I am!" She corrected in a haste.
"Do you plan to have any children?"
"Well, I haven't thought of it." She was lying and she knew it.
"Listen, I don't mind discussing my personal life up to a point but I think if we go any further it would be inappropriate." Said Maria, her walls built up again.
"I'm sorry; it's just that some people like to get to know the people they tell everything to."
"That's okay, it's understandable."
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In the weeks that followed Maria couldn't believe the progress that Georg had made.
His depression obviously didn't just disappear over night but he was happier. He had a will to live again. He told jokes, gave generous smiles and even called her up and asked her to chat. The chats would last forever.
Unfortunately she could sense that something was still not right-he was hiding something.
She had to admit she tried tricking him into admitting what had happened but he had no intention of letting go of whatever was so obviously bothering him. Maybe when the time is right he would tell her.
Maria decided that the best option would be to talk Allan. Hopefully he could give her some insight into Georg's peculiar behavior. Allan has been Maria's physiologist for little over six years now and she trusted him with everything. It was like having a best friend but it always stayed professional. He's also never shy to say exactly what he thinks.
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"I'll admit it...Georg on the prowl, Georg resurrected makes me really uncomfortable." voiced Maria.
"Jealous?"
"Oh no Allan. Just the terrible inability to understand this transformation. I mean one day he is a helpless, depressed and angry child and the next he's as happy as he can be and I don't have the slightest clue as to what caused it." Explained Maria.
"Perhaps you did?" Said Allan as he handed Maria her glass of water.
"Me?" There was no mistaking the surprise in Maria's voice.
Allan merely shrugged.
"Oh I don't know. I mean for the past week all I've done is dish water. The brightest thing I've said to him was good morning. The brightest thing that I thought was that he has such soulful eyes...no for sure not me. I thought it maybe had something to do with the earthquake."
"You mean like an aphrodisiac. Does he possess those qualities." asked Allan almost judgingly.
"Besides the initial panic he seemed more fascinated with what was happening than afraid."
"Could he be in some self limiting depression rather than chronic pain caused from the loss of his late wife?"
Allan always has the most interesting approach to things.
"Well that's not characteristic judging from his clinical history. He doesn't have that background."
"You did something to your hair." Remarked Allan, pointing his pen in her direction.
"Oh yes I...changed it a little."
"How did you feel during the earthquake?" Asked Allan.
"Well...I was tempted to say: 'Georg...move over. I am not the rock of Gibraltar nor the salt of the earth nor the Lord's shining light. Hold me and we'll both be alright.' "
"Perhaps you got to him there? Made him feel strong and urgent, unleashed. Almost like a husband protecting his wife. Perhaps you made him feel potent." Said Allan with great confidence.
"If I did then we have a cure-the first on record." said Maria raising her glass to him which he didn't return.
"I'd keep that notion to myself or they will lock you up."
"Yes...magic isn't much respect in our profession. Said a chuckling Maria.
"Neither is sleeping with your patient."
Maria's head shot up, her eyes widened then softened.
"Even if you're in love with him?" was her solemn reply.
"Then be his lover. Not his doctor."
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《 Well? I hope you all liked this chapter! A little shorter than usual but I felt like this was a great place to stop. Also: a lot of the plot and some dialect were taken from: Blake Edwards 'The Man who Loved Women.'》
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