The passenger cabin of the small space transport was rather cold once they got into space. Ahsoka sat alone in one of the passenger seats, hugging her legs to her chest for warmth. She never did get used to the temperature changes of space travel. She was also glad to be alone for the moment because it gave her space to think.
Using her Jedi training, she tried clearing her mind of all the thoughts from the oncoming mission. While she never had trouble in the past, this time was very different. She just couldn't clear her mind of Anakin. She kept thinking of how he looked towards the Senator, and the genuine smile that was painted across his face. Though she knew she should feel differently, she was angry. She was angry because she wished she was the one who brought that happiness to him, not Padme. And while she was very good friends with the senator, she could feel herself pulling away from that friendship.
She was always taught at the temple that anger was the worst emotion of all. It was the emotion that fueled the Sith. Now it was the emotion she carried with her and she wished it didn't exist. How was she supposed to look past this when the emotion was so powerful? Ahsoka wished that her feelings would go away, but she wished more than anything that she could find the answers she needed from her Master.
As she was contemplating the best way to forget about her feelings, she failed to notice that she no longer was alone in the passenger cabin.
"You seem troubled, young one." She heard. Ahsoka was instantly startled. When she looked up she saw Master Obi-wan standing before her with his arms crossed over his chest.
"No, not troubled." She lied. "Just thinking."
Obi-wan sat down next to her. He could sense her emotions all over the place. "About anything important?" He asked.
"No." Ahsoka wished he would leave. Master Kenobi was a great Master and had helped her a lot through her training, but she didn't want to be under his scrutinizing eyes at the moment.
They sat in silence for a while. Obi-wan sat very still next to Ahsoka, testing her patience. Ahsoka could feel herself ready to burst. She wanted to ask Obi-wan about controlling her emotions, but at the same time she didn't. She held her breath till it all came out. "How do you stop feeling emotions?" She blurted out.
Obi-wan looked surprised by her outburst. Not because of her urgency for an answer, but on the subject. He found it quite absurd to want to stop feeling. "One doesn't stop feeling, Ahsoka." He began carefully. "Emotions are what make us human, it's the very thing that gives us morals. We can't forget about them, but we must put others needs in front of our own. Therefore we must look past our emotions."
"I hear that all the time. How am I supposed to look past my emotions when they feel so powerful?" She asked.
Obi-wan chuckled and brought his hand up to his beard. "It's not supposed to be easy." They sat together in silence for yet another moment. It was Obi-wan this time that broke the silence. "Have you brought this up to Anakin at all?" He asked.
Ahsoka's face instantly brightened up at the mention of her Master. "No, I haven't." She said. "I'm afraid to."
Obi-wan looked surprised. "Afraid to? He's not going to hurt you. In fact I'm sure Anakin would be the perfect person to talk to. As my padawan he struggled with keeping his emotions under control as well. Restraint was never his strong suit."
"Perhaps you are right."
Padme stood above a moved floor tile in one of the halls of the transport. Beneath her she could see the many wires and mechanical parts that kept the ship working. Anakin was crouched down in the small crawl space, tools in hand, tinkering with the foreign workings of the ship. It was when he was working on a droid or ship that Padme thought he looked most like that little boy she knew on Tatooine. The war had changed him, but she knew the Ani she loved still resided.
Without looking up Anakin called out. "R2, can you get that power coupling I threw up there earlier?" The droid rolled itself over to the spare part and picked it up with it's mechanical appendage. Padme walked over and took it from the droid. She bent over and handed it to her husband. He looked up, his piercing blue eyes shining through the grime on his face. He smiled as he took the part from Padme's hand. "Thanks R2."
"May I?" Padme said as she gestured to climb down into the space with him. Anakin nodded and Padme worked herself into the tight crawlspace beneath the ship's floors. Her body was pressed up against Anakin's. His strong arms reached around her to continue working on the ship. "What exactly are you working on?" She asked trying to learn more about the ship.
"The shield generator." He said breathing into her hair. He was so close that each breath he took she could feel against the skin of her neck. It brought shivers to her spine. "This part here is what gives power to the shields, assuming its installed correctly." He said before planting a kiss on her neck.
The kiss made her skin tingle with excitement. "I'm assuming you know how to install it correctly." She said humoring him.
"Even with all the distractions." He said. He let one of his hands free of the ships parts and had it gently graze padme's thigh. The small touch was driving her wild. She was ready to turn around and take advantage of the handsome Jedi.
Before she could manage the maneuver, they both heard the clearing of someone's throat. When they looked up they saw Obi-wan standing above them. Padme quickly climbed out of the crawlspace and made her way to the passenger cabin. Obi-wan stood silently over Anakin.
"I was teaching her about shield generators." Anakin explained. Obi-wan just nodded which further frustrated Anakin. He never liked when his Master shut him out. He never knew what Obi-wan was thinking.
"Have you spoken to your padawan lately?" Obi-wan asked. Anakin was surprised that Obi-wan didn't lecture him but instead inquired about something completely different.
"I saw her when I got on the ship." He said cluelessly.
"She seems to be struggling with her emotions. I talked to her and she seems confused on keeping her emotions in control."
"I'll talk to her." Anakin said before returning to his work.
"And one other thing that concerns me. She said she was afraid to bring this problem up to you."
Anakin stopped his work and looked confused. "Why would she be afraid of me? That doesn't make sense."
Obi-wan shrugged. "I don't know. But whatever the reason, she is troubled." Obi-wan watched Anakin go back to working on the ship. "What are you working on anyway?" He asked.
Anakin smiled. "A surprise for the blockade."
"You can never sit still, can you?" Obi-wan said.
Anakin just smiled at his remark.
