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Mother Dearest Chapter 4

My friend looked beyond nervous when she saw me enter her floral shop. Iemitsu turned an interesting shade of red and my friend lost her color. I really felt stupid at the moment. Though this town was big, we only have one flower shop believe it or not. So it should've occurred to me that my best friend, or maybe ex best friend considering if she has a good enough excuse, that she have been selling me out. I mean how else would the flowers gotten there?

"I can't believe you would do this behind my back," I said softly, my face betrayed nothing and that was what scared my friend the most. Even Iemitsu look guarded. "You knew how I felt about him and you betrayed my trust." Believe me I wasn't as angry as I seemed, but that's the beauty of it all, I can really guilt people like this; however sometimes, the rare time I show my anger, I'm throwing stuff all over the place.

I might be overreacting, but I read the manga and though I'm here instead of the real Nana, the story line will shift because of my personality. I don't want kids, I don't want to date and marry Iemitsu, I have somebody else that I like and I'll fight fate, destiny, or whomever, for a chance at life that I didn't get in my first life is it really that selfish of me to want one. A normal life, a little chance of happiness, so far happiness evaded me and I was stuck in the world of limbo in between reality and what could be. I admit that maybe I should give Iemitsu a chance, but it was obvious that Iemitsu had a stubborn streak. It was so obvious in the manga that he refused to come home and he put a hundred and ten percent into his work instead of his family.

"Nana, at least give the man a chance, jeez, what do you have to lose," my friend said. Frankly, I had nothing to lose, didn't have much to being with, I won't die with anything either. That was the most painful thought, if I didn't find anything to live for my life really will be meaningless again. The thought was depressing, so without thinking I left the shop feeling just a tad bit sorry for myself.

I'll admit that I'm afraid of a lot of things, I'm afraid of changes I can't control, I'm scared of being attached to people especially a lover, it's a fear deeply ingrained in me. Maybe the worst fear I have is abandonment. Though my mother in my first life did her best, even I can tell she just wanted to abandon her responsibility. What if I actually do what my mother never had the courage to do? What if…

I felt a heavy hand on my shoulder. I looked back to see it was Iemitsu.

"What do you want?" I asked all out of patience and energy.

"I don't know what I did or when I did it, assuming that I did anything at all," Iemitsu leveled his golden eyes on her. "But I like for you to at least give me a chance."

"Why?"

"Because you're pretty," Iemitsu said in a matter-of-fact way.

I raised an eyebrow, "That's it?"

Iemitsu chuckled. "Well it's not like you're giving me a chance to get to know you. I can't give you a better answer than that."

That was true.

"However, from the time I tried to talk to you, I can tell you're level-head and not easily fooled, you didn't fall for my smile or my charms, you weren't impressed by the flowers, the chocolates or the poetry, and honestly I like the challenge."

I scowled, I knew what he meant, but I had to make it was exactly what I thought he meant. "So this is a game to you?"

Iemitsu eyes sharpened, "I have too much respect for women to play with their feelings."

I stared at him long and hard before walking away. He followed me naturally, so I let him treat me to lunch.