A/N I hope everyone had a happy holiday. And to my wonderful reviewers, thank you dolls, I really appreciate it.

The rest of the day was normal. Jasper slipped into the car after Alice and the two sat in the back beaming at each other. I sat in the front flipping through Edward's newest CDs.

"Britney?" I looked at him. He took the CD to examine it.

"I picked that one out!!" Alice chirped. Edward shot her an annoyed look. "What?! You guys always get to choose! Some of us are tired of listening to depressing classical hits of the

1880's, now put it in!"

Jasper glared at us. It was never a good idea to make Alice mad. If she was mad, Jasper was mad. And if Jasper was upset. Everyone near him was in for it.

Edward sigh and put the CD in. "Fine"

Womanizer started playing. Alice screamed.

Edward whispered to me, "You should see her when we do karaoke night. She even has a blond wig."

I smiled at the thought of Alice dressing up to sing karaoke. Though she probably would put any gorgeous celebrity to shame. Any of the Cullens would. They were all so lovely, like images in a dream. I was so plain next to them. Edward deserves someone perfect. I thought of all the insanely beautiful female vampires we'd in-countered. He should be with some one like them. Glamorous and graceful. I began to feel very insecure.

Jasper tilted his head and looked at me.

I felt angry, sad, and oddly excited. Thinking about how I could let these emotions out once I got home. Alice's face went blank. The car skid to a stop.

Edward turned towards me. "BELLA!!"

I froze.

"BELLA! HOW COULD YOU...you're" he reached for my shoulder, Jasper grabbed his hand first.

"You need to calm yourself, Edward." He jerked his hand away and gripped the steering wheel.

"How am I suppose to remain calm when Alice just saw Bella.."Edward swallowed in disgust "destroying her own self"

Jasper looked at me both curiously and horrified. Alice winced.

"Alice, how long have you been keeping this from me?" Alice looked at Edward apologetically. "I see" he whispered as he started up the engine again.

Alice and Jasper suddenly jumped out and disappeared in the trees.

"Where are they going!" I gasped.

"They're taking the long way home."

"Why?!"

"Because we have to go to your house. I want to figure out the severity of the situation."

"What? Edward, theres no situation. This is none of your concern."

"I think, the love of life trying to kill herself, is my concern." he cringed at the words.

"IM NOT SUICIDAL!! I DON'T WANT YOU INVOLVED IN THIS!!"

"Bella" he sighed.

"No" I buried my head in my hands.

"How long have you.."

"A couple of months, and no, it has nothing to do with you or your family!" I snapped. I started getting out of the car, he was suddenly there to help me out. I pulled away from him.

"Dont fight me Bella, my patience is running low at the moment."

"Then go home! I can take care of myself!"

"Im not leaving." He grabbed my elbow and started dragging me towards the front door. "You're hurting inside, I don't why I didn't see it before, but im going to help you, Bella. So help

me, I wont lose you by your own hand."

".suicidal"

"At the moment." he opened the door and lead me inside.