It had been another month since Amy had woken up and had lost her memory. Amy was doing well physically. She was twenty-seven weeks pregnant and all was well with the pregnancy. She was beginning to get memories of the past six years that she had lost. But just flashes here and there. Ricky visited her everyday. They were slowly introducing her to her memories. He brought pictures and the kids with him. Her parents and Ashley helped a lot cause she remembered them and she trusted them and that had extended out to him mostly cause Amy's parents and sister trusted him so Amy was beginning to trust him too. Tomorrow was a big day for everyone. Amy was coming home for the first time in over a month and Ricky hoped it would help her remember more if she was her in her home with him and their children.
The next morning Ricky drove the kids to the Juergens house and dropped them off so that he could pick up Amy by himself. He thought it might be a little easier that way maybe and then George and Anne would bring the kids by later in the day after Amy was settled in. Ricky drove to the hospital and parked. He went in and made his way to Amy's room. He knocked on the door and heard Amy say come in. He opened the door. She was all packed and dressed to go. Ricky noticed she had put her rings on her right hand instead of her left hand.
Amy noticed as Ricky stared at her rings on the wrong hand. She looked up at him and met his eyes. She felt her heart skip a beat as she stared into his eyes. They were a mystery but she felt like she was looking at something so familiar at the same time. "I thought maybe until I remember us I would put them on that hand. I'll change it back after that. I hope you okay with that. I am... I mean I just want to remember our love and our life together before I am ready to make such a physical symbol of us." Amy said with such innoncence and naive to her voice. It reminded Ricky of when she was fifteen pregnant with John all over again. But he reminded himself that Amy would remember who she was and her life with him and their family together.
"It's okay. Are you already to go then?" Ricky said as he looked at her bag.
"Yeah I think so. " She said as Ricky went over and picked up her suitcase. Then they both left her room and went to the desk where they discharged Amy and then they made their way out to the SUV.
"Wow that's yours?" Amy said admiring the red SUV.
"No actually it's yours. You've had for over five years. I own a prius. But I thought maybe this would be more familiar to you or at least I hoped it would be. Go ahead and get in the passenger seat the door is unlocked. So Amy did as Ricky opened the back door and put her suitcase in the back and then closed the door and got into the drivers seat and started the car. Then he backed out of the stall and made the journey to their apartment. It was a short ride but it was a quiet ride. Amy didn't know what she was supposed to say so she didn't say anything at all. And Ricky kept his mind on the road as they drove to their apartment. He parked her SUV next to his car in their second parking stall. Then Amy got out. She looked around as Ricky came back with her suitcase. Amy felt such fear running through her body when she started at the staircase. She couldn't bring herself to take a step.
Ricky saw the fear in her eyes as she stared at the second story of their apartment building. "It's ok Amy. It's all going to be fine. I know your scared but you will remember in time. I know this is very scary and unfamiliar. But I am here for you. All of our friends and family are here for you. I promise I will protect you as much as I can. I love you so much Amy. You are my whole life." Ricky said as he gave her a smile.
"I just feel like something horrible happened here. I can't shake that feeling off." Amy said as she continued to stare at the staircase.
Then Ricky understood what she meant. She wasn't remembering but yet she was somehow someway deep down inside she knew. She knew that something bad had happened there before. "That's where you fell when you lost your memory. But I won't let you fall again. Here take my hand and I will make sure you get up there safe. I promise." Ricky said as he held out his hand to her. Amy then took his hand and they both climbed the stairs slowly. Then when they reached the top they opened the main door and walked down the hallway. Then Ricky unlocked their apartment front door. He let Amy in first and he followed with her suitcase. Amy stopped as she saw all the pictures and memories waiting for her there.
She stopped and took it all in around her. She saw pictures of their life together for the past six years that she had forgotten. She felt tears roll down her cheeks and she felt weak so she sat down on the couch near her and wiped away the tears that had fallen down.
"I am sorry it's just so much to take in all at once. I mean I want to remember all of it. I want to remember us. But there's just so much I have lost. Time I can't get seem to get back. But I want too."
"It's alright Amy your doctor said just take each moment as it comes and when you have questions ask and we all will try to fill in the blanks as much as we all can. This is will all work out." Ricky said as he gave her smile while still trying to convince himself. It hurt his heart to see her so lost and confused from the Amy he knew she was. But deep down that Amy was inside her and she would come again when she remembered what she had lost.
"I know but it's so not fair. I can't remember my son or my daughter. I can't remember our relationship and the love we shared. And the night we conceived this little one." Amy said as she put her hand on her extended stomach with a loving look on her face.
"You will. You have to be patient. Remember what the doctor said if you get upset and angry you might continue to not remember but if you relax and slowly try to remember you should have a better chance of regaining your memories of the past six years." Ricky said as he sat down her. He picked up her hand and put it up to his lips and kissed the back of her hand.
Then he gently placed his hand on her belly and lovingly caressed her belly. Amy felt uncertain about this. She didn't really know Ricky but yet she felt safe with him. She couldn't explain it but she trusted him. So she relaxed as he continued. Then slowly he placed his lips to the top of her belly and kissed it. Amy could tell that he loved this baby already even before it was born and that must mean that he loved her very much.
Ricky then put his head up and placed his lips gently on Amy's. He kissed her softly at first and then with a more fierce longing and need. He missed her so much. Not being able to hold her, kiss her, and just share a close moment with her was very hard for him. Amy kissed him back at first but then she pulled back and stared at him for a long moment.
"Amy are you ok?" Ricky said as he looked into her eyes.
"I remember we were in my room at my parents house. And we were near each other. It was an awkward moment but you said we were friends and that we could kiss each other and then we kissed a long deep kiss. " Amy said as she was trying to put the pieces together.
FOr "Yes that's right. That was after you had John and some people were saying you were a bad kisser and I offered to help you practice. And you were not and are not a bad kisser. I love the way you kiss." Ricky said with a twinkle in his eye.
"Where was Ben? Did he say that?" Amy asked innocently. Ricky felt another jab at his heart put tried to brush it aside.
"You broke up with Ben and he broke up with you." Ricky told her.
"Where is Ben now? No one talks about him and he hasn't come to visit either." Amy asked again.
"Amy we shouldn't talk about this just yet. Give it some more time and then I will tell you all about it. But it's too soon I think." Ricky said quickly.
"I want to know please tell me?" Amy said with her eyes pleading. Ricky knew he couldn't refuse her when she did that.
"Ben died a while back after he was in a bad car accident. I am sorry. They tried to save him but they just couldn't." Ricky told her quietly.
Amy began crying and crying. Ricky held her in his arms. The loss for Amy was all new again like it had been that day it had happened. While for everyone else they had accepted it and had grieved their loss and moved on but for Amy everything was all new again.