Hey, guys! Sorry I haven updated but my mum just had a baby and I've been helping around the house and then the computer wouldn't work but I got lucky cause my mum and dad got me a laptop, earlier in the month… and my story got deleted…

Chapter 4:

"What just happened?!" Rose screamed. The lights turned off but came back on because of the generator. But why would the lights go off in the first place?

"The lights went off." I said in a 'duh' tone but Rose glared at me. Jasper was just going 'Ohhh' as if it was the funniest thing in the world. However, what would be funny?

"I know the lights went out, ass, but I meant why? The storms here are never so bad that the lights have to go out." Rose replied. Jasper moved from his spot and came to stand over by us, smirking.

"It's Forks. What else do you expect vampires and werewolves to jump out of the shadows…? No, you don't" Jasper said, sarcastically but with a straight face. It's really weird how he can do that. However, as soon as he said that I busted out laughing because, hey, who wouldn't laugh.

" No, Jasper, I did not expect blood suckers and dogs jump out of the shadows. I thought they would burst out laughing because wouldn't that be hilarious. Right, Bella?" Rose said agitated and looking at me, waiting for me to agree. I would have to say something and soon if I wanted to live and I really do value my life, these days.

" Right, Rose. Suurreee… Whatever floats you boat, darling." I replied, with a smirk. Jasper had to laugh at that one.

We were gaining up on Rose and she hated that, so she stormed out of the room with smoking coming out of her ears. Jasper looked at me for a minute then walked out backwards… Backwards? Really?

I shook my head at his antics. I looked around my room for a second, wondering why it was so, god damn, quiet. It's never quiet in this house, with Rose and her constant need to harass me with shopping, Jasper wanting to play songs on his guitar for me, Auntie Hale with her snappy comments, and Hunter with h- HUNTER!

What the hell is wrong with him? He hasn't cried or anything since the power has gone out or when we all screamed. Loudly, I might add.

I quickly walked out of my room to the room next to mine and opened the door to see Hunter in his crib standing up. My baby is growing up fast and he's only almost 3 years old. He looks idly like Him.

He has my brown hair that goes in his eyes, my cheek bones and soon to come clumsiness but he has His

Hazel eyes and nose. Most people would look at him with me and go " Ahhh! He is adorable, looks just like his mother" but what they don't see is the Him in hunter… But I do. And it kills me to look at hunter every day and be reminded of what I left behind and what will be in my future but I have to. I have to for the sake of my baby. I would do anything for that little guy.

He's my whole word.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when I saw Hunter reach out for me. I walked over to his crib and grabbed him, wrapping his legs around my waist, hands around my neck and putting his head in the crook in neck.

" Sing?" My baby said, sleepy. I sang to him when he couldn't sleep and he loved my voice.

I decided to sing a song my mother sung to me when I was 6.

I liked to sing different songs once and a while and Hunter loved ever one of them.

"Life is flying by, the days and did the time go by? the months and lets stop wasting time. Let's laugh and life if way too short, have fun and sun is shining in the sky the stars are shining moon is full and flying high and I'll see you more we get together, together, more we get together the happier we'll your friends are my friends and my friends are your more we get together the happier we'll witty little chats and friends' soirees,I'm having such a blast, wish time could nothing ever last unless you can takeThe time to look around, appreciate."

By the time I had finished singing, my baby was sound asleep.

I went to the rocker in the corner and sat down.

I started to rock us and think.

I hated the fact that Hunter didn't have a dad. I mean when he is older and asks me 'Where's my dad?' am I suppose to say your dad is my step dad or that I was rapped by him? No I am not, gunna say that. I hate that he will have to grow up with no man figure in his life, all because of me. When he wants to play T-play or football or basket ball, how will I be able to practice with him at home because I have no hand-eye coordination.

Do I tell him his mother is freak? If I can't tell him all this then what do I tell him? Ever since I had Hunter I have not gone on dates, not even before Hunter.

I still remember Phil's first words, the first night he came into my room.

Flash back:

I was laying in bed. In just my bra and underwear, with the covers over me. It was dark and I had just climbed into bed, after shutting the window. I couldn't fall asleep because I math test tomorrow, in was worried about.

But just as I was starting to fall into a deep slumber, I heard my door inch open. Only a little bit but it was enough to wake me. I felt like if I moved then something bad was gunna happen so I kept quiet, like I was dead asleep, hoping the person would go away.

But they didn't. My door inched open more… and more… and more… then I heard foot steps coming into my room and my door closing.

I almost sighed in relief, thinking the person was gone. Almost.

But then I heard the 'click' to my door being locked and more footsteps to coming closer to my bed.

My heart was pounding, feeling like it was gunnna jump out of chest. I tried to keep queit but it almost time, before my loud breathing gave me away.

I felt the breath of the person before I saw them. Or heard them. They got close to my ear and breathed in and then out.

" I've been watching you. Walking around the house being a, tease. I can see that you want me, just as much as I want you. Renee hasn't been getting me any lately because your in the house. But know she's at a girl friends tonight, so we could have a little fun." He whispered in my ear.

End of flashback

and as I thought of it, Tears started to come.. And come.. And wouldn't stop. I eventually feel asleep but not without the nightmares that the night brings.

TBC.

Hit or miss??

I'm soooo sorry that it is short but I promise next time it will be longer it's just that I have no idea what to right after that..

I need some Ideas for future chapters and how I should bring in Edward.

I mean, he is a player and on the football team but I need something Juicy.

How do I present Him???!!

I need help, so please review!

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Thank for reading!!