This is starting to get dark by the end. Warning now of implied violence and homophobic actions/words.
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Blaine's POV
I just watched as Kurt walked away. How could I be so mean to him? This was all killing me. I just wanted to be his friend again, if not more.
"Wes..I-I'm not allowed to be around Kurt anymore. That's why I'm being mean to him. This is killing me so much but I figured I could just make him hate me and then I would be the only one to suffer. I really care about Kurt and I care enough that I don't want him to get physically hurt because of me." I was close to tears admitting what was going on.
"Blaine, what on earth are you talking about? What do you mean you're not allowed to be around Kurt anymore?" Wes looked utterly confused.
"Wes, my father found out that I was spending all my time with Kurt. He told m-me that if I continued to associate with him that I would be sorry and that I wouldn't wa-want any-anything t-t-to h-h-happen to his pr-pr-pretty f-f-face." I answered him finally letting all of the anguish out and started crying.
Wes walked over to me and gave me a big hug. We stayed in the embrace until I finally stopped crying. I opened my mouth to say something when music started playing in the auditorium. Wes turned around and we all started to walk toward the room.
We entered through the back and Kurt was on the stage playing the piano. He looked like he was crying. My heart instantly broke. Then Kurt started singing so beautifully but looked so broken.
If anyone asks I'll tell them we both just moved one
When people all stare, I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk.
Whenever I see you, I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all, act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really
Cry Cry
Kurt was crying profusely but the chorus. He turned to look into the audience and saw all of us but continued away.
If anyone asks I'll tell them we just grew apart.
What do I care, if they believe me or not.
Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart.
I pretend I'm okay with it all, act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really
Cry Cry
I'm talking in circles,
I'm lying they know it
Why won't this just all go away
There was a sudden silence when Kurt stopped playing and walked to the end of the stage. He looked directly at me while he finished the song.
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really
Cry Cry Cry..
There was a chocked sob then Wes ran up to the stage to hold Kurt in his arms and give him comfort. Why wasn't I doing that? I care about Kurt so much it hurts. Instead of going up and comforting him, I turned and started to walk away. I knew how to make Kurt hate me, so I turned and called out "Lady, maybe if you weren't acting like such a FAG no one would've ever hurt you and you would probably be normal. You're just a disgrace to human kind." Then I turned away and never expected to look back at Kurt Hummel again.
But then Kurt called out after me "You do realize when you say anything offensive like that you are not just talking about me? You're talking about yourself too Blaine. It's kinda sad to watch you retract into the closet like a scared little boy because you can't handle being unaccepted anymore." Kurt had so much hurt in his voice that I almost dropped the whole act and told him everything.
"The thing is Kurt. I am accepted. Even your old friends like me more than they did you. Do you realize that no one, and I mean no one, talks about you in glee. They don't miss you. I have a feeling that they are actually happy you're gone. Now just make everyone else happy and just disappear." I answered back. I have never heard myself sound so cold and upright mean to anyone in my life.
Kurt walked down the aisle and stood in front of me and replied with just one word. "Fine". Then he pushed past me and left the auditorium. I turned back to Wes and the other Warblers, needless to say they looked shocked. Wes walked down the aisle after Kurt but didn't look at me or say another word as he walked past me.
Soon the other Warblers followed Wes and Kurt and left. No one said anything to me as they left. After everyone was gone, I dropped to the ground and started crying. I stayed on the ground sobbing until I heard Finn yelling for me.
I got up and wiped my eyes. I walked out of the auditorium to see Finn standing there. "Dude. Blaine are you alright? You look like you've been crying for hours."
"I'm fine Finn. At least I hope I will be. Don't worry about me. Go home and call Kurt, he needs you more than I do trust me and when you find out what happened please don't kill me." I walked away from Finn and over to Rachel. She gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek. I gave her a weak smile that told her I didn't want to talk about what had happened.
When I got home that night my father asked how I was doing at McKinley and I told him everything about Rachel and the New Directions and how much I miss Dalton. He just shrugged and left the room. This is something I hate about my family, they never really care how I feel about anything.
I went to bed early that night and just cried myself to sleep. I cried because I finally realized I was in love with Kurt and I just had to push him away with the nastiest words to come out of anyone's mouth and I knew everything was now my fault. I wish I hadn't pushed him away but just told him the truth. I miss my best friend, the only friend who knew what it was like to get thrown into lockers everyday for a year and have no one care one bit. I miss the Warblers. They were my real family and now they hated me as much as I hated myself.
I woke up the next day to my father yelling at someone to never come onto our property ever again. I got up and walked down stairs to see Kurt in our living room. He looked really uncomfortable and he looked really pale as if he hadn't slept last night.
"What are you doing here?" I asked him a little colder then I meant to.
He turned to me and gave me his famous glare "You left all of this crap in my dorm and I don't want it so I'm giving it back, Anderson." Kurt spat the words out at me as if they were poison.
I was a little shocked to hear Kurt refer to me by my sir name. I walked over and grabbed the box of my stuff from Kurt and put it down on the table in the middle of the room. I turned to him "Well now it looks like you delivered my stuff but if you happen to find anything else please don't bother to show up yourself and send it over with Wes. I wouldn't want to get infected or anything."
He calmly walked over to me and leaned in close and whispered "It's a little late for that don't you think Blaine, considering oh I don't know, you're GAY!" He said the last part loud enough for my father to hear it.
My father walked over to Kurt and shoved him into the wall and yelled "GET OUT OF MY HOUSE YOU FREAK OF NATURE!"
I ran up to my room and locked myself inside until it was time for dinner. I went through the motions of feeling alright but my parents knew something was off but of course they didn't ask. After dinner I retreated to my room and pulled my phone out to call Wes.
Hello?
Wes can you please help me?
I don't know if I can do that Blaine. I don't like the person you have become and you should have seen Kurt when he came back to Dalton today. He didn't talk to anyone and he looks like he is about to be sick every single time someone asks if he is okay. Blaine, he's acting like he was when he first came to Dalton and it scaring all of us and it's your fault.
Wes, I know. I need to apologize to Kurt.
Blaine how can we- Wes was cut off by some screaming for him. He rushed out of his dorm room to see Nick and Jeff yelling for help. They were outside Kurt's dorm room banging on the door. All you could hear was screaming from behind the door.
Oh no! Poor Kurt. I hate doing this to him. He's strong and he'll pull through.
Until next chapter :)