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Chapter 4: Regret!

Bella's POV

I woke up the next morning with a pounding headache, and feeling exceptionally sorry for myself. I groaned and rolled onto my back, before sitting up, expecting to see my door, but instead I was staring at Jaspers bed. Not only was my door open, but so was Jaspers. I had the perfect view of his sleeping form. I looked at the time and it was just after 10 in the morning. I groaned and threw my head back into my pillow, then gasped when the headache worsened. Memories of the night before came rushing back, along with the awkward and stupid move I made, and then the rejection.

Tears started to form in my eyes once again as I thought of my one sided feelings. I wished so desperately that Jasper felt the same way, and I almost thought maybe he did, but then last night, the way he turned away, made me think I was so totally wrong. I buried my face into my pillow, trying not to scream in frustration. When I felt a tap on my shoulder. I jumped and bolted up, and there was Jasper with a bottle of water and 2 Tylenol. "Thanks Jasper." I said in a small voice, his hair was matted, and he still looked half asleep. He nodded and sat down on my bed. I took a deep breath, knowing I needed to clear the air, or move the hell out. "Listen… umm- about last night, I'm really sorry I threw myself at you. I - I don't know what I was thinking, I am absolutely humiliated by my actions… please forgive me Jasper." I looked up at him, begging him with my eyes.

Jasper nodded and opened his mouth to speak, but we heard a door swing open. Jasper bolted from my room so fast I didn't even see him leave. "Bella, wakey wakey." screamed Alice. I was surprised she was showing up before noon. I pushed my night to the back of my head, and waited for Alice to jump on me and show me her ring. Seconds later she was laying beside me, holding her hand in front of us both. Her ring was shining brightly. "Isn't it beautiful?" Alice asked in a dreamy voice.

Tears started to form in my eyes and I choked them back. "Its perfect for you Alice." I said. Wishing that it was this easy for me. That I could care for someone else as much as I cared for Jasper, and having them care just as much back. Alice's head snapped towards mine when she heard my strained voice. I smiled as best I could.

"What's wrong Bella, something isn't right." Alice stated matter of factly. I shook my head and looked at her with pleading eyes, knowing I couldn't speak. Damn my sensitive nature.

"No worries Alice, I want you to worry about you and only you, and your beautiful ring." I said calmly as I got my emotions in check. Alice looked at me with sad eyes, but nodded knowing it was not the right time to talk about it. I got up and went to the kitchen with Alice. She talked animatedly about the proposal, she had told me the night before, but I didn't mind her telling me again, I was truly happy for her.

I started cooking a big breakfast for everyone, since Alice was in such a hurry to get home, they skipped there's. I made eggs, bacon, hash browns, sausages, and toast. Everyone sat around and ate. Alice and Edward talked animatedly about there night, while Jasper and I both sat quite silently. "So how was your guys night." Asked Alice, innocently. I stiffened and Jasper got up quickly, bringing his plate to the sink.

"Umm it was fine, we had a Bar B Q and had some drinks… your Dad tried teaching me how to play his guitar, but I failed miserably." I said with a nervous laugh.

Alice's eyes went wide. "you weren't too bad for your first time Bella." Said Jasper as he turned and leaned against the counter. I nodded and looked down at my plate, my nerves refusing to let me eat anymore.

"Wow Dad I haven't heard you play in so long, that's awesome that you took it out. Bella consider yourself very special he doesn't just take that guitar out for anyone." Said Alice with a smirk. I rolled my eyes and stood up, dumping the rest of my food in the garbage.

"I dunno about that…" I said quietly. "But I think I am going to lay down for a bit longer, try to get rid of my self induced headache. I walked away without waiting for anyone's response and closed my door and locked it, before throwing myself on the bed.

Alice's POV

I watched Bella leave the kitchen, with a solemn look, and whipped my head around to stare at my Father. He was watching Bella's form with regret in his eyes. "What did you do Dad?" I questioned and glared. His eyes widened and he looked down.

"I did not mean to betray you Alice, you are my Daughter and I will always put you first, I didn't mean to let it get that far, but I stopped it before it could get carried away." He was talking quickly, his eyes were panicked. I groaned and covered my face.

"You turned her down didn't you?" I asked quietly. "I should have been more blunt with you I guess… the whole your both consenting adults, didn't seem to get through to you." I huffed angry, both with myself and my clueless father in front of me. "I never pegged you to be so clueless Dad." I said in a stern no nonsense tone. His eyes widened with disbelief, then I could see the wheels turning, puzzle pieces clicking into place.

"Fuck I feel like a moron Alice." He said quietly. Putting his face in his hands and turning around. "You should have come right out and said something, I should have come out and said something." He shook his head and stared out the window. "I need to walk, get some fresh air… be back later." He said before walking out the door. I felt bad for my Dad, but at least now, they could figure the rest out on there own… maybe.

Jasper's POV

I felt horrible, Alice was right, that was a big assed hint she gave me, and I should have caught on. Maybe part of me already did, but I was too afraid to admit it. I walked around the forest of trees in my yard, enjoying the smell of the wood. I needed to talk to Bella, I knew that, but how would I bring it up to her. The last thing I wanted to do was hurt her more. After several hours I made it back to the house, feeling just as fucked up as I did when I left. Alice and Edward were in the living room cuddled up on the couch. I walked down the hall and opened my bedroom door, and grabbed some clothing. I walked across the hall to the bathroom door and opened it, I took two steps in before looking up, and realizing that it was already occupied. There in front of me was Bella shaving her legs, with her headphones on. She was facing away from me. And it took several seconds for me to remove my eyes from the creamy skin of her shoulders. I cursed the bubbles and closed the door quietly, walking back to my room.

I threw myself onto my bed, feeling beyond frustrated, wishing I could kiss the skin of her neck. After 20 minutes, Bella walked out in a short white sundress, with cherry blossom flower print, all over it. The dress barely hit mid thigh, and I was hard in an instant. She looked over and smiled shyly at me. I nodded to her and picked up my clothing. I walked right up to her and kissed her forehead lightly. "You look beautiful…" Her face turned red as I pulled away. I figured that would be a start, I hoped we had time later, to talk alone. My erection was painful as I got into the shower, but I thought of unflattering things and washed myself quickly. Hoping to make yesterday right, or at least a little better.

"… maybe that's why he pulled away Bella, I think he cares more than you know." I could hear Alice talking in the living room.

"Listen Alice, I know you want to help, but I would rather not talk about it…. Ever again, I would like to forget all about it." Bella said firmly. The guilt washed over me, and I needed to do damage control, before it was permanent.

"Fine if you say so Bella, but I think you should listen to me!" Alice exclaimed. "Anyway, Edward and I are going to his parents, to tell them the good news, we might be back tonight, or we might not… either way, I will call you and let you know, love you." I could hear Alice getting up and I walked into the kitchen, so she couldn't spot me. "Hey Dad.." Alice said now walking in the kitchen. "Me and Edward are taking off… but you already know that, you lil eaves dropper you." Alice giggled, and my face actually turned red. "Oh Dad, its fine, just fix it…. Soon." I nodded my head and leaned down so my daughter could kiss my cheek, before walking away.

I scrubbed my face with my hands, trying to think of what to say. I didn't know how to go about it. I had never had so much on the line before. I literally had one more chance, and I knew that if I screwed up that would be it, she would never give me another chance.

I walked into the living room, and the sight in front of me almost blew me off my feet. There was Bella, in her little sundress, with my guitar on her lap. She just sat there and was starring at the chords. Like she was trying to remember the 2 second lesson from the previous night. "Would you like another lesson?" I asked in a teasing, yet serious tone. Bella's eyes wide, she looked up at me, and that was when I realized she had been crying. Her eyes were blood shot and puffy. "Are you okay, Bella?" I asked not wanting to see her upset.. Ever.

She nodded and stood up, placing my guitar in the corner, where I had sat it the night before. "I'm fine." She said in a detached voice. I closed my eyes feeling frustrated. When I opened them she was staring right at me.

"I'm sorry about last night Bella. Pushing you away was not something I wanted to do, it was something I thought I had to do." The words flew out before I could even think about them. Bella's eyebrows furrowed and she started to look angry.

"Just stop Jasper, okay… I really don't want to hear it, I put myself on the line, and you don't feel the same way. I get it, but I don't want it to keep getting brought up." She said forcefully. I scoffed and shook my head.

"Do you really believe I don't feel the same way? Do you really think I don't care about you in the way I really shouldn't. You are my Daughters best friend. The last thing I wanted to do, was sacrifice my relationship with my daughter, no matter what I feel for you… she said something to me, before she left yesterday, and I didn't get it. I should have got it, but the thought of being with you, I always thought that would be one sided, I never imagined you would return those feelings." I was practically whispering at the end, feeling at a loss. Pissed at myself for turning her down so abruptly the night before.

Bella stood there silent, looking at her feet. So I walked over to her, and placed a finger under her chin, lifting her so I could look in her eyes. Tears escaped them, and I quickly wiped them away with the pads of my thumbs. "Please don't cry." I said moving my face closer to her. I searched her eyes hoping she wouldn't push me away, out lips were so close, our breath mingled with each other. "I am sorry for hurting you Bella, that was never my intention." I whispered against her lips, before kissing her lightly. Bella moved her hands up my arms and clung to my wrists my hands still on her face. I kissed her once more, before moving back, and searching her eyes once again. "I have wanted to do that, for so long." I breathed a sigh of relief.

Bella smiled lightly, and removed her hands from my wrists, only to grab the front of my t-shirt in her small fists. She pulled me closer and leaned up, kissing me more deeply. I groaned as her tongue peeked out and ran across my bottom lip. I wrapped my arms around her, and pulled her closer, her arms wrapped around my neck. We stood there, exploring each others mouths for a while. Kissing, nibbling, and sucking. I finally pulled away, before I carried her off to my room, and had my way with her. That was not the way I wanted it to go….. At least not yet. I stared down at her, swollen lips, flushed cheeks. She was so beautiful. I leaned down kissing her once more, just because I could, and grabbed her hand, pulling her out of the living room. "Where are we going." Asked Bella, in an amused tone.

"Well, I figured we could go out for supper, you know like a date." I turned to see Bella blushing, and smirked. "now Darlin what kind of gentleman would I be, if I didn't take you out on a date, before wooing you?" I asked while stopping to grab my keys and kiss her chastely again.

" Oh Mr. Whitlock, I think the wooing has already happened." She said in a sexy as hell tone. I growled and pulled her tightly against me, deepening our kiss.

We pulled away after a few minutes. "That's Jasper, to you Sugar." I breathed against her lips. She giggled lightly and then we left to go on our first date.

Bella sat close to me in my truck, and held onto my arm. I felt my chest swell with all of the emotions running through me. We went to a small diner, considering there were only 2 in town.

The moment we walked in there, all eyes were on us. We were holding hands, and not even 5 minutes there, I was feeling ashamed, and like a dirty old man. Bella sat close to me, and gave my hand reassuring squeezes. But by the time our food was there, I wanted to hide in a hole. When we finally decided to show our feelings, we forgot about one thing, we lived in a small town and every single person knew who we were. I was Alice's father, and Bella was Alice's best friend. This looked all kinds of wrong to small minded people. She might as well have been 16 years old.

We left, with our heaping amount of leftovers, and the drive home was silent. I could feel myself pulling away, even before we started. "Don't let them bother you Jasper, I am far from a child, and what we are doing, is not wrong." Said Bella beside me. She moved forward trying to catch my eyes with her own, but I just stared ahead. I nodded to her and grunted in response. When we got back, Bella jumped out right away, and I just sat there. I felt sick. I was a dirty pervert. I knew Bella wasn't a child, but our age difference was tremendous. Why did I think, even for a second, that this would be alright.

My phone started to ring and I picked it up, knowing it would be Alice. "Hey Baby girl." I said, sounding depressed even to my own ears.

"Oh Dad, I got like 3 different calls already, people thinking you two are sneaking around behind my back." She sounded frustrated. "Damn small town crap." She mumbled. I could hear Edward in the background trying to calm her. "Listen, tomorrow night all four of us will go out, then everyone will know, that there are no secrets."

"I don't know if this is such a good idea Alice." I told her honestly. "I feel like a dirty old man, like this is wrong." I could hear Alice let out a angry sigh.

"Damn it Daddy, that's it? One thing happens and you decide to throw in the towel? Maybe your right, maybe I was wrong, here I thought you cared deeply for her."

I could feel myself getting angry, and the last thing I wanted to do was lash out at my Daughter. "You know what Alice, I do care deeply for her, but it doesn't make it right, it has never made it right. She is the age of my child." I stressed to her.

"Oh Dad, age is not the most important thing in the world, it shouldn't stop two people from living a life together. Don't give up, you wont only hurt yourself, you will hurt Bella too, and I know you don't want to do that." I groaned and jumped out of my truck, knowing she was right.

"Fine, fine, I need to go talk to Bella." With that I hung up and walked inside.

Bella's POV

I felt like everything was against us. I knew he wanted me, as soon as he kissed me in the living room, I felt the emotions pouring out of him, his passion for me, in his kisses. But the horrible date, people whispering about him being an old man, a cradle robber. It made me sick that they would say that about him. I was no child, I hadn't been for a long time.

I sat in the kitchen, watching Jasper sit in his truck, I knew he needed to be alone, I knew he felt ashamed. I didn't want him to feel dirty or wrong. I wanted him to feel good about us. He finally got out of his truck and got off his phone, who I knew was Alice, she had text me, and told me she got phone calls, and to hang in there.

Jasper walked into the dark kitchen and right up to me, wrapping his arms around my stomach, his stomach flush against my back. I could feel his lips against my hair on the top of my head. We stayed like that, in silence for what felt like hours, only our breathing to be heard. Finally Jasper spoke, and her sounded so lost. "I want to be with you so badly, but the one thing I didn't take into account, was other people looking in. I feel like a dirty old man Bella, I feel like I'm taking advantage of you." Jasper took a deep breath and blew it out.

I turned around so I was facing him, and smushed my face in his chest. "Please don't give up already. I want you just as bad as you want me, and I am not a child, yes our age difference is big, but we are two consenting adults Jasper, no one has the right to judge us." I wrapped my arms tight around Jasper's mid section, praying that he wouldn't pull away, and he didn't. He quietly agreed, and held me tighter.

There is another one! Now this story is not going to be very long!! I just have to get my Jasper fix out so I can keep writing the rest of my 2 James/Bella stories!! I do very much want to do more Jasper/Bella stories, but for now I really just need to get him out of my system, so I can get back to my others!! Lol

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