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Chapter 5: A Disillusioning Discovery

Riza Hawkeye rolled her neck, smiling as it cracked. She stretched her arms into the air and sighed contentedly. She felt rather relaxed, considering the fact that someone had just found out her deepest secret. She sat back in her chair and looked out the window. Like the day before, it was still gloomy, the sky a foreboding gray, but she didn't think anything of it. She knew that if she were to walk into the office like any other day, Roy would be sitting behind his desk grumbling about the weather.

She smiled at the thought, which scared her. Sighing, she grabbed her book off the side-table and flipped through it. Derrik had gone to the neighbors house, giving her some time to sit back and relax a bit. She found her page a frowned, realizing someone had torn the page after it out. She sighed as she flipped back and forth, watching the numbers. 32, 33, 36, 37... Riza hated vandals.

She tossed the book lightly onto the table and looked around. Due to the weather, she knew there would be nothing worth going out for. She didn't feel like shopping and she obviously wasn't going to the park. The house was almost spotless, the way she liked it. So, other then reading, there wasn't much else to do.

She closed her eyes, trying to think of what to do until she heard a light knock on the door. Curious, she got to her feet and walked over and opened it.

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"Damn you, Full Metal." Roy muttered under his breath as he knocked on the door. "Why do I have to pick up your damn son from his damn play-date?" He asked, waiting for someone to answer. Growing impatient quickly, he lifted his fist to knock again, only to see it swing open as he hit it.

He looked as a pretty young woman with beautiful blonde hair and deep amber eyes opened the door. At first, he simply stared at her longingly, missing the one he loved as he eyed widened and she gripped the door knob. She gasped and stared at him, ever muscle in her body tense as she waited for him to respond.

Roy blinked, suddenly coming to his senses. "Excuse me… I'm uh…" He shook his head in disbelief. "Um, you're R-Riza…" He shook his head again, unable to comprehend what he was seeing. "R-Riza Hawkeye." He murmured quietly.

She nodded stiffly, trying to swallow the lump in her throat. "Yeah. I am. And you're Roy Mustang." Suddenly, as she spoke she felt his arms suddenly wrap around her, holding her body close to his chest. "Roy..?" Riza tried to pull away softly, only to realize he was shaking.

"Roy.. Roy, are you alright?" She asked, lifting her hand to touch his cheek. At her touch, Roy jumped back and shook his head. "No, I'm not alright. I swear to God, you were dead. But now you're not. Either that, or the devil is a cruel son of a bitch to give me dreams like this." He said, his jaw clenched. "You were dead. I saw you. Why are you still here?" He asked,coming towards her again.

She lifted her hand and put a finger on his lips to silence him. As he watched her in disbelief, she felt her eyes welling up. "Roy, I'm sorry. I wasn't dead… I'm not dead." She murmured, looked at him with dull eyes. Roy shook his head. "If you weren't then…" He pulled back stiffly and stared at her in disgust. "Then you left me. Just up and left me. No good bye. Nothing. Is that how it is?" He asked, his eyes glimmering with pain.

Hawkeye shook her head and looked up at him, ashamed. " No, I didn't leave you. Roy, I loved you." "Loved!" Roy snorted. "Loved. Loved, loved, loved. Well guess what, I still love you." Roy said, glancing down at his feet. "I still do, too, Roy." Riza murmured.

She felt sick. Sick and tired of having to explain herself. Sick and tired of deceiving the ones she cared about. Sick and tired of hiding. But mostly, she was sick and tired of being accused. "Roy…" She whispered, feeling the first tear slid gently down her cheek. "Roy, I'm sorry."

Roy grabbed her arm roughly and used his other hand to lift her chin. She closed her eyes and struggled weakly. "Riza, look at me. Look at me and explain to me how you can possibly love me through all this." When she didn't move, he shook her slightly. "Tell me, God dammit!" He shouted.

She flinched, several more tears streaming down her cheeks. She felt his grip loosen and she opened her eyes hesitantly. She saw Roy walked back and forth between the door and her, shaking his head slowly. "Riza, why did you do this?" He asked quietly. "Why did you kill yourself. Why did you l-l… Why did you lie to me?" Riza could tell Roy was getting choked up by the way he was stumbling over his words. She could feel the emotional turmoil radiating off him and she would sense the betrayal he felt, but she couldn't bring herself to say anything. She merely watched as he tormented himself, trying to find the answer only she knew.

Though she waited for when his anger would fade, in the back of her mind she wished he would stay mad at her forever, to hate her like she deserved. But, she knew he wouldn't. After several long moments, Roy looked up at her with teary eyes. "Riza, what happened."

Finally, Riza bit her lip and answered. "Roy, I had to." "Had to what?!" He exploded, walking towards her. "I had to leave." She muttered. "Why?" He demanded, grabbing her shoulders and looking down at her. She smiled up at him weakly. "Something happened. I had to leave. I had to protect us." She whispered, her eyes shining. Roy stared at her in confusion. "What happened, Riza?" Roy asked, shaking her.

Hawkeye suddenly felt tired, exhausted, and felt herself going limp in his arms. He moved to steady her and gently led her to the couch. "Riza, what's wrong?" He asked. She shook her head. "Nothing is. Not anymore." She murmured, laying down on the couch slowly. Roy's eyes widened slowly and he looked down at her affectionately. Hesitantly, he grabbed her hand gently and sat down on the edge of the couch next to her. "Riza…" He murmured, using his free hand to brush her bangs out of her face carefully.

"I'm sorry, sir." She whispered, closing her eyes. Roy bowed his head and smiled slowly, feeling whole for the first time in four years.

Egh. Made of fail, I know. I'm pretty much ashamed of this chapter, due to the fact that I had no idea how I wanted Roy to react to finding her. And yeah, Ed sooo set him up. XD Told you he was a trick little Ed-o. Anyway, this is it. It pretty much sucks but yeah. They are finally re-united. Since this story is pretty short chapter wise, I'll have some chapters that are recap. Sound exciting, right? Ha, not really. ;D

By the way, AJAX-Avatar, the answer to THAT question lies in a very different Fanfic. Sorry xD