Chapter 4

"Now sleep." His tone filled with anger as he tried to control it. Kagome ran, to hit him on the chest.

"I hate you, just DIE." She whished.

"You will sleep." He grabbed her, throwing her on the bed again.

"If you don't die, then I will." She ran to the balcony of the room and steeped on the ledge. With one graceful step she kept herself perfectly balance. Sesshoumaru walked slowly to her.

"If you come any closer I will jump." She promised.

"Kagome don't be an idiot. Come down from there." Fear over came him. He has never felt fear before. Will he lose her?

"I was an idiot, for healing you when I did. I rather be dead, then serve you for the rest of my life." Tears started to flow down.

"I promise I won't hurt you." He begged, he never begs.

"Not good enough." She looked down to see where she would land. It was a very long way down.

"What do you want?" trying to bargain with her.

"My life back, away from you."

"Kagome, what if I promise not to touch you in an inappropriate way; unless you want me too. You will be free to roam the castle. I will just call you to save the life of my men."

"No deal. Remember our last bargain? You have no intentions to keep this deal." She reminded him. "You're a liar, you scum."

"Look lets talk about this better, just get down from before you fall" he was worried. He lost control of the situation. How could this one girl do this to him?

"NO!"

"Kagome be reasonable."

"I want to go home."

"This is your home." He reminded her.

"No it's not, not with some sex craze maniac like you always trying to rape me." Tears continue to flow. Her words stung him.

"I'm sorry, Kagome, get down from there your scaring me." He admitted. The words shocked him. There was so much truth behind them. She looked at him, and saw the worry in his eyes, and then she turned her attention to the ledge. She was being stupid, what will this solve. She then jumped down gracefully onto the balcony. Sesshoumaru dashed to her side, holding her tight, hugging her, this didn't seem to bother Kagome, she actually enjoyed it, and allowed her self to hug him back, sobbing into his chest, feeling his warm embrace. They stood in each other arms for a few moments, then he looked down at her, anger started to fill him. He shook her vigorously.

"How could you be so stupid? You were so quick to take your life." Kagome just stared at his golden eyes, no knowing what to say. At that moment Sesshoumaru realized that he truly, deeply cared for her, he couldn't imagine his life with out her, and he had came so close to lose her today.

"Can I go home now?" She asked in a sweet honeysuckle voice.

"Kagome, this is your home. Please except that, I cant imagine you not being here with me. I need you here." His voice was soft. Kagome didn't know what to make of his words.

"Now sleep. I will see you in the morning." Whispering the words in her ear.

The Weeks went by as if nothing as ever happen. Sesshoumaru wouldn't even come near Kagome; he left her alone as he promised. It annoyed him, that whenever he came near Kagome, he still felt as if he wanted to rip her clothes off, and take her right there. He never had a girl, as beautiful as she is, stay in his Castle, not sleep with him, and not want him. He couldn't understand it. He cared for her, he figured that much out, but she did not want him. Sesshoumaru spent most of his days in the armory of the Castle, practicing, or just planning his next move on his neighboring Kingdom. Naraku was due for a visit.

Kagome spent most of her time in the garden reading books. She read a new book everyday. The days that it did rain, it restricted her from the garden, so she went strolling about in the Castle. Everyone knew who Kagome was. The kingdom loved her saying, 'she is our savior.' The servants, and guards that lived in the Castle made sure she was happy, giving her gifts and making sure her needs were tended to before she asked for it. Most of the men she healed, on her first visit to the Castle told there family, friends, neighbors, and there local merchant. The news of Kagome spread like wildfire. People came far and wide just to try to touch her. Though no one was to lay a finger on Kagome, Sesshoumaru saw to it, he kept her well protected. Having his own personal guards around the clock, seeing to Kagome's safety. Kagome still missing all of her sister terribly, would fall asleep crying wondering how they were doing, and sorry that her disappearance, probably brought them so much grief.

Naraku was lying in bed with three of his Hand Maidens; the maidens pleasured him, trying to satisfy his every need.

"Sir." One of Naraku's guards called to him. Naraku got up slowly off the bed, completely naked and walked up to the guard, grabbed him by the neck, and lifted him slowly off the ground.

"Now tell me why I shouldn't kill you know." No expression showed on his face, Naraku's dark black eyes stared deeply into the guard, as if searching for his soul. His eyes were of a Demon. The maidens that lay on the bed covered themselves, hugging each other in fear.

"I… have… word… Sess… houmaru…" The guard coughed out. Naraku released the man.

"Speak then." Naraku walked back over to the bed having his long black hair fall into place. The guard coughed up blood into his hand, making sure it didn't fall on the floor; the man believed that Naraku wouldn't hesitate to kill him if it did.

"Sesshoumaru has come across a girl…" Naraku cut him off.

"You disturb me for that? I come across many girls. There are three in my bed now. Tell me why I shouldn't kill you were you stand."

"There is more. This girl can heal; it is rumored that she can take away all injuries as if they were never there. His men call her the savior, they feel as if they are unstoppable with there new addition to the army."

"So this is a rumor?" Staring at the guard with his ominous black eyes, that brought fear in to the man.

"Yes, but I believe it to be true."

Naraku got up once again, patted the mans head lightly, and then snapped his neck. The guard stood dead on the floor.

"Leave me." Naraku ordered the girls, and they were all too happy to obey. He got his robes and sat by the bed thinking of what the dead guard had just told him.

'If this is true, and not a rumor, then she would be… I need her for myself. I just hope Sesshoumaru doesn't know what he has.' He thought to himself. He needed a plan, a plan to get the girl; he needed to penetrate Sesshoumaru's forces. He also needed to know where he was keeping her. He had a spy from the inside. He needed to extract whatever bit of information they had.

"Hey Cathullu" Kagome said in her cheerful voice as usual. She brought so much light into a room.

"Yes." Sesshoumaru's personal guard responded back to her. They had grown to like her. She was kind, funny and beautiful.

"Can I call you kitty?" she giggled as she spoke.

"Kitty?" Kura was laughing. Kagome came up with the weirdest names for people.

"Umm… Why do you want to calling me Kitty?" he asked, perplexed by her.

"Well your name is Cathullu, but its too long to say, and your name when I shorten it is Cat, so I think it would be cute to call you kitty." She tried to explain. He didn't really understand her theory on it, but would agree anyway to make her happy.

"Sure." He said in a bored tone.

"Really, cool, thanks kitty." She was very cheerful. Sesshoumaru was watching her from the Castle window. Seeing her happy. He felt angry that it wasn't him making her smile like that. He had avoided her long enough.

"You may leave." Sesshoumaru said, as he waked up from behind the guards.

"Yes My Lord." They both said in unison.

"Bye Kitty, bye Kura." Kagome waved, they just smiled back at her.

"How are you enjoying your stay? Is everyone treating you well here?" Sesshoumaru asked her in a soft voice. Kagome actually missed him. She felt sad that he didn't visit her, but then she was pleased she didn't have any attacks on her chastity. She felt comfortable around him, but couldn't explain why. Her feeling for him grow. Though she couldn't explain it to herself, she new there was something different about him, something she wanted to explore more of. She could feel his warm body even with the distance that was between them.

"Everyone has been great. So what brings you here? I haven't seen you in weeks."

"Busy." Was his only answer to her. There silence, it was awkward. They just stared at each other. His golden eyes meeting her bright blue eyes. She broke the silence first.

"I read the book you told me to read. I didn't understand it."

"Innocence of War?" he verified. "What was there not to understand?"

"Well one why did he kill his family. Why would anyone do such a horrible thing? The man said how much he loved his family, and would do anything for them and then he killed them with his own sword." She grimaced at the thought.

"The army he served, wanted to take the village, where the mans family was in. His wife was going to be sold into slavery, and when she out lived her use, they would kill her. His daughter was going to be sold into prostitution. He felt that death was better solution." Sesshoumaru explained.

"I still didn't like the book. I think the actions he took were uncalled for. There where other actions he could have taken. If he truly loved his family, then he should have saved them."

"He believed he did save them. A life worst then death."

"Do you agree with him?" She looked at him with concern.

"No. I agree with you, but he still felt as if that was his only options."

"What would you have done?" her eyes looked at his, not losing any contact. She enjoyed talking to him, as if they were normal. At that moment she realized that Sesshoumaru was very gorgeous, his golden eyes looked warm, and she allowed herself to continue staring at them. His body was perfect. She remembered his strength. Though he had frightened her, he never hurt her physically. She wanted him to hold her, like he did the last time they saw each other.

"I would have hid my wife and daughter, come back when the cost was clear to take them away from harm, but I would not have gone with them. If the army new what I had done they would search for my family and kill them slowly in front of me. So I would go back to the army and just hope they made it safe somewhere else." He wanted her; he needed to feel her body. He used all his power was to restrain himself. "Let me walk you back to you room."

"But we were just talking. I really enjoyed it. Please can we stay here a little longer." He wanted to make her happy, but if he didn't take her to her room he wouldn't be able to control himself for long.

"We can't."

"But why? Weren't you enjoying yourself here too?" She gave him such a sad look. He actually hurt him. He wanted to make her laugh, smile.

"I can't control myself around you. When I am here, I want you. And I don't want you to have you trying to, jump out of windows anymore." He admitted to her.

"It wasn't a window, it was a balcony. And I won't do that again." She felt as if she wanted him. To kiss him again. The first kiss was so enjoyable but, had woken her up and had scared her so she didn't really feel as much as she wished. Kagome never been around men, just her sisters, so the feelings she felt where new to her. She wanted to explore them more.

"Kagome, you don't seem to understand, I want you. With your clothes off in my bed, but I also don't want to scare you away. I… " He couldn't finish the rest of his sentence. Kagome moved closer to him, the heat from his body was intense. She felt safe and warm.

"Kagome, if you do this I will not control myself. Do you understand." He warned her. She simply nodded in agreement.

Sesshoumaru not controlling himself any longer took her body closer to him. She was cold and fragile. Kissing her with such passion. The kiss was soft at first, then Kagome increased the intensity. Putting both hands around his neck, bringing him closer to her. He parted her lips tasting her. She followed he's movements. He went down to kiss her neck gently. She escaped a slight moan, which drove Sesshoumaru wild. Kagome scratching his back fiercely. He enjoyed every bit of it. This once small lamb, now became a tiger. He didn't want to take her here, he wanted her in his bed. Soon to be there bed. He picked her up in his arms kissing her soft lips, while he walked her to his room. Then placing her softly on the bed. He took off his shirt to show his smooth skin and rippling muscles. Kagome's hand felt his body. So strong and soft, he then took off her dress, she had nothing covering her chest. He stoked the side of her breast, making her shiver. Kissing her softly on the neck making its way down her breast. Her nipples where hard to his touch. He teased her reddish nipples, licking them, and nibbling on them. Kagome's moans increased. He moans sounded lyrical, her soft voice made it seem as if her moans where a lovely song. Sesshoumaru lips made it's was down to her belly. Her body responded to every movement he made. He then stopped, and moved away from her.

"We can't continue this. I will take you to your room." She was shock by his word, still breathing heavy lying half naked in his bed.

"I don't understand. As soon as I come into the house you wanted me, and now when I want you, you push me away?" she felt hurt, rejected. Then she remembered what she told him. 'If you take me I will lose my powers.' "Is it because of me losing my abilities?"

"No, I'm not taking you, because you deserve better. You need some to love you, with such passion, to treat you like the treasure you are. And I am not that man." He cared for her yes, but did he love her? He wasn't sure. "Dress yourself." He ordered. She did as she was told. Kagome didn't know what to tell him. She did have a strong desire for him, but she didn't love him. Was this just lust? She wanted him to lover her, she wanted to love him in return. After Kagome dressed, Sesshoumaru's guard walked in.

"My Lord, we have a spy in the Castle. He was relaying information to Naraku himself. Sorry Lady Kagome if I startled you." The guard was out of breath. He had run for two days to warn his King.

"What was spoken?" Sesshoumaru was angry. Kagome though she actually saw his eyes glow red. The guard looked at Kagome them spoke.

"He seemed interested about Lady Kagome, asking him where she stayed, if she really can heal, and if he knew any other abilities she had. The traitor is Cathullu." When he spoke the traitor's name, Kagome gasped.

"Kitty?" Sesshoumaru and the guard looked at Kagome perplexed.

"What of Kura, is he in on it?" Sesshoumaru continue to ask.

"No."

"You will tell this to no one. Kagome will stay in my room and we will act as if this never occurred." Sesshoumaru ordered. The guard just bowed in agreement and left.

"I'm staying here because Kitty, I mean Cathullu guards my room?" Kagome asked with a sad look in her eyes.

"Yes."

"What do you think he would do to me?"

"Nothing as long as I'm around." He assured her.

"So where going to sleep in the same bed." She gave Sesshoumaru a wicked grin.

"Yes."

'This is going to be fun' Kagome thought to herself.