A/N: Hey guys, I'm sorry this took longer than expected I've been busy trying to get ready for my assessment that is happening this weekend. I have started writing chapter 5 but I than realised that I haven't posted up chapter 4. Just to let you know that in this chapter the emotions that Bo is feeling is the emotions that I'm going through at the moment after a girl came into my life and smashed down my wall. Also as you can tell there is a lot of Italics in this so I'll like to explain that at the start of each chapter there will be lyrics and recaps from the last chapter which then focuses on Bo in a bar. In the middle of this chapter Bo then enters into a dream which I won't spoil for you, you lot can check it out. But other than that enjoy the chapter and also I do love some feedback please. Cheers. The Geek.

Carry my soul away into the world
Where beauty meets the darkness of the day

"Before the war everything was great, beautiful but being a prisoner all I could do or think of was living in fear of what would happen next." Her soft hands start rubbing her face as if something was on it. She then move her hands up through her long brown locks and then place them down on the counter as she lets out a deep sigh.

I sat there for hours listening to Lauren's story. I was feeling a wave of emotions from angry, shocked, surprised, and sad as Lauren continues telling me about her life. She told me about her first girlfriend Nadia, and how they were so madly in-love with each other. Nadia was once a Light fae before a Dark fae spirit entered her body and possessed her, which created more harm in breaching certain rules and laws we have with both Light and Dark fae. There were more than several occasions Nadia was forced to harm Lauren but was never able to get close enough to kill her. Soon enough the battle inside Nadia was over killing her in the process leaving Lauren feeling heart broken, hurt and angry. Since Nadia's death she moved around from area to area trying to get away from the painful memories, it wasn't long till she settle down and got a job down here. It wasn't long till the war broke out causing her to move from a normal doctor to a war doctor under the commanders of the human government. It was anything to try and stop the Dark fae from invading sadly it wasn't enough; five months later the Dark fae had orders to invade the medical centre.

"Being a prisoner to the Dark Fae was really scary. A lot of people were tortured for information others were slowly killed while being tortured. I was treated differently from the others, I was beaten daily and raped maybe twice or three times a days just because they knew I dated Nadia. I wanted to die, I wanted to be free, I wanted something to happen anything to stop the pain. Each day brought more and more there were times where I just wanted to kill myself, where I tried to kill myself to end it there and then, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. The only thing that was close to it was injuring myself, harming myself watching the blood slowly pouring out of my body. The only way I could deal with the pain that was brought to me." Suddenly Lauren was quite, I looked into her eyes and all I could see was tears forming in them. It wasn't long till she started crying in my arms, I pulled her close to me and held her tight. Hearing her story just sparked my heart to break, how dare they do harm to a person so innocent, so sweet so caring so…. Beautiful. It was just wrong she doesn't deserves this, no one does. As her tears fell on to my shirt my mind automatically thinks of so many ways to make her feel better however all these thoughts involve something that could only happen after all this has gone away. I know she wasn't ready but I really want to do something. It wasn't long till I picked Lauren up and took her to the bedroom and placed her on the bed pulling the covers over her so she could try and sleep.

"Please don't leave me just yet" She said in a soft sniffily voice. I turned to face her, her eyes were red and puffy, there was no way I was going to leave her like this she needs me. I turned off the light and made my way back to the bed to sit next her.

"I'm not going anywhere Lauren not just yet." I said to her, soon enough she wrapped her arms around me and pulled me closer to her.

"I'm sorry if I'm giving you the impression that I'm a really needy person, I'm not normally like this." Her voice was soft and filled with uncertainty; it was almost as if she was thinking about doing something but what.

"It's alright," I start to say, "you've been though a lot and I got a feeling that you may be a bit confused at this point of time. Whether or not you trust me is another story but never the less I shall be here, I'm not going anywhere."

"You give me your word?" She asked as if she was worried.

"You have my word Lauren." I said as I pulled her close to me and held her tight, to show her I wasn't going to let go or leave her. It wasn't long till she fell asleep in my arms. I let out a long soft sigh as I start to think about the life I lead before all of this. Living in a human world thinking I was human unable to determine who I was, what I am, and what powers do I hold. The anger I have bottled up inside me goes to my mother for abandoning me at a young age and for knowing that she never really loved me. The fear I had when I started to kill people without knowing how or why I did it. Each emotion I felt fear, anger, hurt, hatred, all of them was hitting me like one massive wave and I had no control over it. It wasn't long till my chest started to ache in pain because of the emotions that I was feeling. Soon enough I felt tears running down my face, I wasn't weeping or making a sound. I pulled myself away from Lauren and headed to the bath room, I saw the reflection of myself in the mirror with tears running down my face. The emotional wall that I had, the on that I put up years ago has come tumbling down all that is left of it is emotional rumble. The emotions of my past has come streaming down my body, it wasn't long till I realise that I was vulnerable. I don't like this feeling, I really hate it. But the question I'm asking is now, why now, why does this emotional wall have to come down right now when I'm not ready for this. I turned on both the hot and cold water taps to get a stream of warm water running before I start splashing it on my face. After splashing the water on my face I looked up to the mirror to see my refection, as I look in to the refection I see her there, Lauren was still sound asleep in the same place just where I left her.

It suddenly came to me it clicked in my head, I realise she may be the reason behind this. She may be the cause of my wall to break. I'm slowly trying to let her into my world, the world of Bo where chaos and madness run together like wild fire. Maybe this is why my wall is broken, or is it the reason my wall is broken is to let a total stranger that I just met to come into my world. I tried to leave her room so I can go back to work or at least sort out this problem out but I can't. I just can't because I gave her my god damn word that I would leave her. Well this is just bloody brilliant Bo well done you just put yourself in an emotional trap, well done Bo fucking well done.

I start to back away from the mirror, I just couldn't deal with the reflection staring back at me it was just too much. I backed myself up into a wall as I bumped my back into the wall I started slowly sliding down the wall to sit with my knees close to my chest. Soon enough more tears start to stream down my face. How did this happen, how did this get out of my control, hang on why isn't my secondary wall working. What the hell is going on, come on brain work, activate the secondary wall. Fine brain be stubborn but note this I hate these feelings.

"Bo.." This is weird I'm hearing a voice that is calling me in the distance.

"Bo where are you?" it almost sounded like a female was calling for me. I open my eyes to find myself somewhere else, not anywhere on the plane. I looked around the area to see where I was.

"Bo come back." Ok where is that voice coming from? I realised that I was surrounded by bush land, as I turned around I see a house, it almost looks like the one I grew up in. Hang on what's going on here?

"There you are honey, I've been looking all over the place for you." I turned around to see this women standing behind me. She came up to me and warped her arms around me and pulled me close to her.

"What are you doing out here all by yourself babe?" Hang on did she just call me babe?

"I'm just thinking on how we got here after everything, all that we've been through and yet I still can't believe it." Did those words just come out of my mouth.

"Bo…" I swear this must be a dream because this doesn't seem to be real to me.

"I'm glad that you and your team saved me all those years ago I don't know what would happen.."

"Bo wake up!" If that's a call from the outside world why in hell aren't I waking up.

"You got to stop thanking me because now you got what you wanted, you can now live the life that you deserve." I tell her in a sweet and loving voice. It's only now I realise that her hair was the same blonde hair as Lauren's and her eyes was the same brown as hers.

"With you Bo, a life with you beside me is the life I'm living now." I felt my lips moved into a form of a soft warm smile.

"Of course a life with you and I together." I said to her in a soft and loving voice as I moved in closer to close the space between our lips.

"Bo! Are you alright?" I woke up to Lauren's face in mine, checking if I had any injuries I guess.

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine why do you ask?" I replied as I try to get up from the floor but as I got onto my feet I fell back on to the ground.

"Well last time I checked I left you on the bed and not on the floor of the bath room. Secondly don't try standing up to fast because I got to admit you don't look so good." She stated. It almost sound like the doctor might be back to herself, either that or she's showing that she cares. I shake my head before rubbing my face with my hands.

"What was the last thing you remember before falling asleep or passing out?" Lauren asked as she grabbed a glass from the cupboard.

"Umm… A wave of emotions hitting me, pain in my chest and tears streaming down my face." I replied as I watched her walk over to the sink and filling the glass up with water.

"What else happened?" she asked as she approached me to give me the glass of water.

"I walked over to the bath room to wash my face with warm water I notice that tears were still streaming down my face than I started walking backwards till I hit the wall which I then slid down to the ground. Then I woke up to you checking on me." I stated in a soft voice as I grabbed the glass of water and start drinking it.

"I thought you may be dehydrated so I thought you might want a glass of water. These emotions that you said you were feeling what were the emotions?"

"What are you a psychologist now?"

"Just answer the god damn question Bo." I went quiet for a while, soon enough a puff of air past my lips as I start to tell her how I feel.

"I felt lost, angry hate, hurt, pain, scared and afraid. It was almost as if I didn't know what to do." My voice was soft, I was claim, I appeared to be fine but inside there is a battle with in me and I don't know what to do. I softly sighed before looking at her again. How did this happen? How did I let this happen? It just doesn't make sense to me.

"Bo please stop thinking I can hear your thoughts from here." I was startled out of my thoughts when Lauren had said that. I knew it was a joke but maybe she's right I must be thinking about this way too much. I start to get up from the ground, and at the same time I see Lauren doing the same thing it was almost as if she knew that it was my next step.

"Could the commander of this plane please report to the operations room. Thank you" Kenzi called on the P.A system.

"I have to go now," I said to Lauren, "if you want you could come with me and hear what the guys have found or you could stay her and get some rest which I got a feeling you may need."

"No I'll stay here, you go on with your briefing and we shall continue this conversation later." She replied.

"Alright, again if you need anything or something please call one of us." I said to her as I pulled her in for a hug than start to leave slowly.

"I will, good night Bo."

"Goodnight Lauren." I said as I closed the door behind me and made my way to the operations room. My mind is still racing with thoughts and emotions that just can't come to a halt. What has happened to me? How on earth has this happen? I was never like this before so why am I starting now? It's not like something can happen after meeting someone new right? It wasn't long till I realise I was hungry and I needed to feed sometime soon. Clearly this isn't my day today. I start to question how I felt about this and how today played out. It was almost as if this was supposed to play out, like it was almost planned or maybe I'm just being a bi paranoid about this. I mean in all of our missions we haven't come across a beautiful, sweet, caring doctor who just happen to be human.

Not even one that we would come across that I would develop emotions for. Hang on do I have feelings for Lauren? No, no it's too soon I mean really I only just met her today I saved her today. How in hell does that work it just doesn't work like that. Or does it?

"Hey Bo." I jumped as Kenzi surprised me from behind which caused me to be startled from outside my thoughts.

"Kenzi what have I told you about sneaking up on me!" I growled.

"I'm sorry boss I didn't mean to scare you." Kenzi stated in a voice that I could tell that she was worried on what was going on in my head.

"It doesn't matter anymore, are Tamsin and Dyson back yet?"

"Yes and they got some stuff that you should see." I followed Kenzi to the operation room to find it covered in paper works, files, and samples. I looked up to Dyson and Tamsin.

"You're not going to like this Bo." Tamsin stated.