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Shattered by: Trading Yesterday

Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding

Fall into your sunlight

The future's open wide beyond believing

To know why hope dies

Losing what was found, a world so hollow

Suspended in a compromise

The silence of this sound is soon to follow

Somehow sundown

And finding answers

Is forgetting all of the questions we call home

Passing the graves of the unknown

As reason clouds my eyes, with splendor fading

Illusions of the sunlight

And the reflection of a lie will keep me waiting

Love gone for so long

This day's ending is the proof of time killing all the faith I know

Knowing that faith is all I hold

And I've lost who I am

And I can't understand

Why my heart is so broken

Rejecting your love

Without love gone wrong

Life

Less words

Carry on

But I know

All I know

Is that the ends beginning

Who I am from the start

Take me home to my heart

Let me go

And I will run

I will not be silenced

All this time spent in vain

Wasted years

Wasted gain

All is lost

Hope remains

And this war's not over

There's a light

There's the sun

Taking all the shattered ones

To the place we belong

And his love will conquer

And I've lost who I am

And I can't understand

Why my heart is so broken

Rejecting your love

Without love gone wrong

Life

Less words

Carry on

But I know

All I know

Is that the ends beginning

Who I am from the start

Take me home to my heart

Let me go

And I will run

I will not be silenced

All this time spent in vain

Wasted years

Wasted gain

All is lost

Hope remains

And this war's not over

There's a light

There's the sun

Taking all the shattered ones

To the place we belong

And his love will conquer all

Yes his love will conquer all

Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding

Fall into your sunlight

~X…x…X~

How can one thing always make life seem so easy, or so hard? It seems impossible to do but then it goes against belief and shows you just how wrong you were. That's exactly what happened between my best friend and I. And now while I try to forget that ever happened I stare out into the sunset only to see the illusions of what could possibly be all that's left in my memory of Noah. I wish I could just fall into that light and forget this ever happened and go back to the way it was before.

Because now I've lost who I am, and I can't understand why my heart is so broken. I can't understand how I can feel this way just because one person who I loved is gone. I rejected every chance you gave me and now I'm paying the price as I look around at the graves of people I never got to know fully.

~X…x…X~

Noah's bright hazel eyes look into mine as he turns around to face me. His voice is close to breaking as he talks, but I don't listen. I never listen to him when he's like this; angry, troubled and so horribly lost. I just can't stand to hear him talk like that, because he usually accuses me of being too harsh or not being there. But what brings me back to the present, out of my daydream, is a sharp pain in my jaw. I glare at Noah as he continues speaking, but I still don't pay attention; I can't pay any attention now because of what he just did. Trying to hurt me to bring me back to earth, selfish; just trying to make me listen.

But finally, three words bring me out of my reverie. "You're a liar."

"Don't you dare call me that when you're the one who keeps secrets from me Noah! You never tell me what you think, you don't care," I snap at him.

Noah just stands there with no expression on his face for a moment; looking as if he was frozen in time for a short time. Then a small laugh breaks from his lips and he shakes his head. "I never tell you what I think? Are you serious? You're the one who never tells me anything Lance. You don't care. And I'm starting to think you never cared."

And with that, I returned the punch that he gave me earlier with a hard hit to his head, sending him stumbling backward before he could regain his balance. "Just shut up and get out."

Noah glares over at me, the golden sunlight in his eyes was gone now and replaced by the coldness of the moon. "This isn't over Lance. You know we have to talk about this, you can't avoid it forever. But if you do, it'll just be worse." And with that he pushed past me, making sure not to look back as he walked out before I could even think about replying to what he said.

~X…x…X~

"I won't be silenced," I say to myself as I stand absolutely still in the middle of my room; trying to convince myself of what I'm staying. "Come on Lance, this isn't over. This war between us isn't over."

But doubt clouds my mind and my reasoning begins to fade. All I can think about is the worst, the worst that could happen, and the worst that what was going on between Noah and I could come to and what could happen if this didn't get fixed. But I can't let any of that into my mind, I can't even let the thought cloud up my decisions. Because this issue is going to be resolved and everything will fall back into the lovely dream that the world had given me in the first place. All this time, all this time Noah and I spent together will not be wasted because there's still hope. There still is a spark of light that could grow back into the sun to light the world again.

Once again though, hope was fading as I walked toward the beach where Noah most likely was. The fiery orange sun threw shades of pink and yellow across the horizon as I scanned the very still sands of the beach. Right by the pier stood a small figure that seemed even smaller compared to the structure he walked by. I wish life held less words and more understanding at this moment as I made my way toward him. When I got close enough to see his face I saw the small faded trails on his face that were caused by tears, and I knew they had to be from me. Because, who else would make my sunshine cry but me? But even I don't know why I would imagine even wanting to make him cry.

I wish I could go closer, I so wish I could've. Because I know I could've made things better, but I didn't ever close that distance between us on that beach. He never saw me with that horribly apologetic look on my face to know I was sorry, to know that I wanted to make it better.

I didn't close that distance because I thought he wouldn't understand. I thought that he would silence my pleas, that he would end this war with the final blow that would cause the world to end. And I can't understand why my heart is so broken just from rejecting his love. Now the future is opened wide, beyond what I could even believe because that chance was gone and I would never get a new one. Sundown came and the light faded from my world for good. I wish I could lose what I found earlier; love.

~X…x…X~

The next day came and the sun failed to show up. It felt like the moon was to stay in the sky forever with the silence that filled my day. All those years were in vain, wasted my time, and wasted my breath on nothing that mattered anymore. I wish that sun would appear and take me home, take me to my heart. Because without it I feel horribly lost and shattered. Without Noah beside me anymore I could feel the sun drain from the sky, I could feel the night grow colder.

No one ever told me how it happened, I just found a grave marked with his name when I was walking past to get to the beach. His name and the date, it was marked with the dates of his birth and of his death. And the date displayed for his death was today.

Right then, I realized what a big mistake I had made not closing that final distance between us yesterday night before that beautiful sun set into the water. And I noticed that he had fallen into the suns light and taken it with him. I promised myself that I would never look at another sunset because of what I did. Because I wasn't brave enough to make things right and change the past.

Only a few weeks later though, that promise to never look at the sunset again crumbled; and I'm glad it did. Because I found my closure. I saw the final rays of sunlight throwing beautiful colors across the sky and I saw Noah reflected in that scene. I saw the sunlight in his eyes that blocked out all harshness of the moon, I saw that he wasn't gone. He had only fallen into the sunlight.