A/N Sorry this has taken me so long to update. This summer has been crazy! Hopefully things will calm down in the fall. Thanks to everyone who had read and reviewed.
Brian realized that Justin needed a break from the tension and so did he. He immediately suggested that they go out to dinner and then dancing. Brian had missed just being with Justin and he needed to get out of the hotel room and just hang out with Justin.
Justin was happy to go out for dinner with Brian. He was starving and he really wanted to just stop thinking and enjoy the time that he had with Brian. Brian being Brian had picked out a restaurant and had already made a reservation.
"Come on, Justin let's get going." Brian said, somewhat impatiently.
Justin sighed, dramatically and hurried to follow Brian out the door.
The pair went downstairs and got into a waiting cab. Brian gave the cabbie the name of the restaurant and they headed out to the restaurant. Brian had chosen an expensive French restaurant called DB Bistro Moderne. The restaurant had a modern feel to it and the food smelled incredible.
"Well, what do you think? Does this restaurant live up to your culinary standards?" Brian teased Justin, who would, and usually did, eat anything.
"Yeah, I think that I'll be able to find something to my liking here." Justin replied with a smile. He was starting to relax and the Jim Beam that he was drinking was helping with this.
Brian, sticking to his no carbs after 7:00 merely ordered a bowl of soup and a mixed green salad. Justin just smiled to himself when he heard Brian order and ordered the lobster salad and the Hudson Valley duck. He was sure that he would end up sharing his meal with Brian as Brian didn't count the carbs he ate off of Justin's plate.
The two sat in companionable silence as they waited for their food to arrive. Neither man wanted to get into an emotional discussion. Both men were happy to be together again and they couldn't help smiling and staring at each other. Soon the food arrived and the two began eating the delicious food.
Brian's soup came at the same time as Justin's salad and as predicted Brian helped himself to some of Justin's. The food was delicious. Soon the main courses arrived and they were incredible. Brian ate almost half of Justin's food which in turn led Justin to order dessert, which Brian ate some of as well.
After dinner the boys decided to go out dancing at a club called Electric, which Justin had heard of but hadn't been to yet. The club was only a short cab ride away. From the outside the club looked fairly non-descript but inside the club was alive with lights and the pulsing beat of music, and of course a lot of new hot guys.
As soon as the boys walked in they headed toward the bar. Brian ordered Jim Beam for both of them. They drank their Beam and stared out at the dance floor. Justin assumed that Brian was scouting for a trick to take into the back room and was surprised when Brian grabbed his hand and whispered "dance with me" into his ear. Justin beamed at Brian and nodded. Brian quickly led Justin onto the crowded dance floor.
Justin loved dancing with Brian. He always had and he was sure that he always would. It felt so good to be close to Brian. Justin got lost in the music and in Brian. They danced for a long time.
"Let's go back to the hotel" Brian whispered into Justin's ear.
"What? Don't you want to fuck some guy in the back room?" Justin asked feeling shocked as he realized that Brian hadn't left his side since they had arrived.
Brian sighed heavily "no Justin I don't want to fuck some random guy, I only want to fuck you. So can we please just go back to the hotel?" Brian saw the worried look on Justin's face and knew that there would have to be more conversation once they arrived back in Brian's room.
"Yeah, I guess" Justin answered feeling unsettled by this turn of events. Part of him just wanted to stay at the club so that he could keep dancing with Brian and not have to think about their relationship and whether or not he wanted to move back to Pittsburgh, but the logical part of his brain wanted to figure things out so that he would be able to make a decision.
Seeing all of the emotions running across Justin's face Brian was unable to accurately gauge Justin's feelings. "Did you want to fuck some guy in the back room?" Brian asked trying to hide how much he would hate it if Justin said yes, but knowing he would have to put up with it.
"Huh?" Justin asked feeling somewhat perplexed, then seeing the concern on his partners face he quickly reassured the other man. "No, of course not, let's go back to your hotel room."
Thank God, Brian thought to himself and he quickly grabbed Justin's hand and headed for the exit. Once outside Brian spotted a line-up of cabs and quickly led Justin toward the one had the head of the line. Brian gave the cabbie the name and address of the hotel and they quickly headed back to the W.
Once back in the hotel the two men were immediately awkward and uncomfortable with each other. Both of them knowing that they needed to talk but neither of them willing to start the conversation; they were sitting on the couch in the living area of the suite both staring straight ahead but each glancing at the other surreptitiously. Finally Justin couldn't take he silence anymore.
"Why now, Brian?" he asked quietly.
"Mel" Brian answered, knowing that this would lead to more questions but feeling more at ease now that Justin was leading the talk. He could handle answering questions more easily than trying to explain everything on his own.
"What about Mel? Brian you guys don't even like each other. Is there something going on with Gus that I don't know about? Are Mel and Lindz okay?" Justin asked more confused than ever.
"Whoa there Sunshine, one question at a time, Gus is fine as far as I know. I think that Mel and Lindz are okay, but who the hell can figure out lesbians. Sure as hell, not me! Mel called me the other day. She told me that she had seen you recently in New York and that you seemed unhappy, so I came to see for myself." Brian answered with a shrug, as though flying to New York to check on Justin and ask him to move back to Pittsburgh was the most natural thing in the world.
"So let me get this straight. Mel told you that I was unhappy and that was all it took to get your ass on a plane?" Justin asked incredulously.
"Yep" Brian replied.
Justin stood up and started to pace around the hotel room. "You are fucking unbelievable, do you know that?"
"Yes, I've heard that before." Brian replied with a smirk, remembering that Justin had used that same line when he had first brought Justin to Britin.
"What the fuck do you want Brian?" Justin asked not even trying to hide his frustration with this situation.
"I want you to be happy, Justin" Brian started.
"No Brian I don't want to hear what you want for me. I want to know what you want." Justin stated emphatically.
"I want you, Justin." Brian whispered, his eyes imploring Justin to understand and accept this.