If you don't like any of the themes below (see Warnings), then click the magical button in the corner called a back arrow! I OWN NOTHING EXCEPT FOR THE STORY AND MY BRAIN! EVERYTHING ELSE GOES TO THEIR RESPECTED OWNERS!

Warnings: Yaoi, Anxiety, Character Names, OOC, Abuse *Mental, Verbal, Physical*, Cheating

Pairing: MelloxNear, MelloxMatt

Summary: Mello has a secret, Near is oblivious. Stress and tensions rise in Mello until it bubbles over and his personalities split. Now there's two sides to Mello for Near, the gentle man he married and the ruthless mafia boss. How far can Mello stretch his mind until he breaks completely? How long can Near allow the abuse to continue? Warnings inside. MelloxNear.

"If I died, you would." Mello opened the door to the shop for Near. "You can get anything."

"What if I died?" He looked at him

"If you died..? You wouldn't have to wait long for me, I'd kill myself as soon as I knew."

"... I'd do the same thing." He smiled to the blonde.

"I wouldn't want you to do that." He pulled the albino inside and began to look around a bit. "I'd want you to live as long as you can."

"Exactly, what I thought. That is the way I felt when you told me you would kill yourself." He smiled and looked around, moving farther into the store.

"What do you mean? Nate, besides your happiness there isn't a reason for me to live. If I died, I'd want you to find happiness, more than what I give you."

"...Mello you are the only one who makes me feel such way." The boy takes Mello to the back, so he could kiss him deeply.

The blonde smiled softly when he realized the others intentions and pulled him into a passionate kiss. "I love you," he whispered against the others lips.

Near shivered and blushed red, "I love you too, my sweet Mihael." He whispered back.

Mello bites Near's lower lip softly then pulled back. "Lets find you some new toys, da?"

Near felt a little turned on and he looked away, blushing red. "Yes, of course." He twirled his hair trying to calm his racing heart as he moved into the store once more.

Mello ruffled Near's hair. "Good. Go look. I need to make a quick call, a check up, then I'll be back. Find anything you want." Near nodded and remained silent, his cheeks were still red. Mello left the store to make the call, allowing Near to look as he pleased. The albino looked around, though as time passed he could feel his legs starting to hurt. He soon picked up a small robot he wanted Mello to buy and sat down, waiting for his Mihi to return. The blonde returned soon after Nate sat down, his demeanor changed and slightly off from normal. "Did you find anything, sweety?" Near nodded, holding the small toy robot in his hand up for Mello to see. "Come on, lets buy it and go, If that's all you want. It'll be dark soon, I don't want you to get scared."

"Scared..?" He looked up at him. Near wasn't afraid of the dark at all, infact he liked it. With that thought, he clumsily got up, a little hunched over as he hugged the toy.

"May I have the toy to go buy it? I promise I won't destroy it on my way." Mello rolled his eyes as he reached out a hand, wanting the toy. Near shook his head, he wanted the toy with him until they reached the register so he hunched over the toy more, restricting Mello from taking it. Mello sighed and started towards the front. "Come on, Near. It's getting late." Near walked with him until they reached the cashier, he gave the toy to the female.

The girl smiled and complimented Near, "You're so cute! And adorable!"

Mello huffed slightly at her comments and paid for the toy. "He's mine, bitch. Come on, Near. Lets get home before it gets dark."

The lady glared. "That's rude, asshole!" She yelled as the two got outside.

Near stared at the other. "Mello..?"

He sighed softly and flipped the lady off before walking away from the shop, the sun already beginning to set. "What is it?"

Near hides behind a tree so the sun wont gleam at him. "Are you.. alright?"

"I'm fine. Come on, lets go home, it'll be dark soon."

"I like the dark.." He whispered and sighed, obeying Mello's request.

"Good boy. You can be in the dark when we get home, perhaps it'll be fun. We can play a game, sheepy."

Near narrowed his eyes. He knew Mello was back, not his sweet Mihael. "Perhaps, Mello. However, I want to know what game you have in mind.."

"You'll see. I'm sure you'll enjoy it." He smirked to himself and walked slightly faster. "In fact, I know you will. However, the games will never stop for you, your such a weakling...Learn to play the advantages your given."

Near smirked. "We will see.." He also liked Mello because he could challenge him at times, and he would feel pain because of him. Having said that, he was secretly into pain and blood.

"Do you doubt my skills? I will see you cry, sheepy, one way or another. Even if I have to kill you." Mello laughed softly. "You'd enjoy that, I bet, being driven to the edge of death...

"I do not doubt you.." They soon reached their house and Near opened their door. Once he did, he kissed Mello then ran to their room, locking the door.

Mello smirked and walked to the door, taking his time. He forced his voice to be soft and sweet, thought the sadistic smirk stayed. "Nate? What's wrong, sweety? Open the door, please, I won't hurt you. I can't hurt you, you know this..." Near knew that Mello was faking, however he submissively opened the door. He actually wanted Mello to hurt him. The boy felt a sharp pain in his stomach as Mello kicked him, sending the pale boy to the floor. "You really don't play games well, Near. You can't hide from me, I will always find you...Nothing will ever stop me now, perhaps I should just kill you..." Near moaned even if he felt pain. He loved it. He loved how mean Mello was being, it actually turned him on. "Your such a whore...I swear, if you ever even think if cheating...Lets just say that hiding the man won't be any problem." He growled and moved closer, stepping hard onto Near's leg. "You know...I wonder if Matt would still take me...once I kill you, I'll need a place to go..."

"My sweet Mihael, I love the way you hurt me." He smiled brightly and blushed. "You make me happy. So happy."

"I'm not sweet, nor am I your Mihael. That name is reserved only for my lovers, which you are not one." He kicked the boy roughly. "Your not worthy to be anything more than a punching bag."

Near got up and hugged him and kissed him deeply, trying to call him down. "Mello... please.." He stared at him.

He pushed the boy away. "What?! I already said it, your not a lover to me, don't act like one."

Near kneeled down and smirked up to the blonde. "Can I be your toy?"

"What..? What is wrong with you?! Your...w-who else have you slept with? Your acting like a whore, you fag!"

"I have slept with Mihael Keehl only..." He nuzzles Mello's inner thigh, he did this because he wanted Mello getting distracted, not for lust.

"You idiot! Get off me!" He shoved the albino away, growling before chucking a robot at his head. "You fucking whore!"

Near frowned and got up, he glared at him. The boy felt this heat inside him, it's more of his emotions controlling him so he slapped Mello harshly and ran off to the living room. Mello followed the boy angrily. "What the hell?! NEAR!" The was hiding behind the couch, hugging his knees tight. He tried his best to be silent as Mello came into the room. The blonde punched the wall, smiling at the sound it produced. "Don't hide, Nate...I want to play, don't you? Come out and get ready to die."

Near was quiet and still emotionless, though when he looked to the side he could see the toy Mihael bought for him, he slowly crawls to it and hugs it tight. The albino then gazed down at the floor. "I am here, Mello." Once he spoke, he narrowed his eyes, he knew that his life might be over, but he was grateful to have his Mello.

Mello smiled and walked over, kicking the boy's head. "I doubt if I kill you...I enjoy to torture you...What better way than leave you guessing when the next hit will come?" He gripped a handful of pale hair painfully and slammed the back of Near's head into the floor. "Sleep, sheepy. You can explain everything later." With the hit Mello had given him, Near fell down unconscious. He was covered in bruises and his right eye slightly purple since the blonde managed to also kick it when he aimed for his head. However, he still had his toy in his arms. Mello smirked and left again, intent to let Near die if the damage was too much. Near's breathing slowly began to fade as he laid there.

Chapter 4, hope you like. This story is coming to a close. I hope you enjoy, Review means you want me to finish and will result in a faster update. :)