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Chapter 3: Broken and Disappearing

A second, slightly older girl was my next visitor. It seemed the little tease of a first visitor had gossiped.

This girl came from curiosity of the rumors. I quickly learned she wasn't a citizen of my kingdom but a handmaiden to one of the visiting nobles.

Her blond hair and blue eyes attracted me, along with the oddness of her preference to dark clothing and tainting her fair hair. She claimed to be miserable. She tried to look like the people of my country so to fit in. But what reeled me in were the rare smiles I managed to get from the girl and my heart fell in love again.

Bad move.

Talking to her, watching her laugh and holding her as she cried, I just fell deeper and deeper in love.

So just like with the first, I formed a relationship with the pretty maiden. I loved her more then the first, and she claimed to love me also. I couldn't be happier. Soon I decided to ask her to find the keys to the chains holding me here. I wanted a life with her outside of the darkness.

So I told the commoner to find the keys of my chain to free me.

Years went by and nothing. She told me day in and day out she could not find the keys. I would smile and tell her it was okay, she tried. That was all I asked for, but slowly doubt began to creep into the corners of my mind.

Was the handmaiden even trying?

More time pass and my doubts grew more creating a riff between us. It was at this time; a very dear and old friend had come down. He to had heard the rumors. Yet he had disbelieved them until he began to wonder if they were truly false.

I was lonely and desperate, yet I know that was no excuse.

Upon seeing him, I had yanked on my chains, giving no care to what I dislocated and kissed him. I had missed my friend so much. I was starved for physical contact.

The small kisses and caresses gave me pleasure, yet tore me up inside.

When I saw my beloved handmaiden again, I told her the truth. She forgave me, but I couldn't forgive myself. I couldn't look at her.

So she got up and turned to leave. Never turning back once, even as I screamed suddenly in regret.

Suddenly my chains were tightened and yanked me back till I was up against a wall unable to move an inch. I looked on in disbelieve as the light was just a mere dot high above at the top of the stairs, my former beloved's hand on the lever that controlled the slack and pull of the chains. Then...

Then she left, no words spoken, closing the door behind her.

I accepted the darkness. The friend I cheated on her with my only comfort.

I could physically feel pain all over slowly numbness taking over. First my toes and fingers, then up to my ankles and wrist, slowly moving higher, elbows and knees, shoulders and hips. I was disappearing into the darkness.

I was broken. My mind shut down.

Once upon a time... lived a shameful broken little girl.

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