CHAPTER IV: HIDING
Christopher's POV:
I knew I shouldn't have left her there. She may have not tried to drown herself but she did almost die. Stupid stupid stupid! She was so beautiful, so pretty and I had let this happen to her. I should have just dropped her home. Why didn't I? My thoughts were interrupted by tori waking up. "uhh." She said. "shhh… it's ok." I said, meaning the opposite. Her daughter came inside. One look at her mother, and her eyes were filled with tears and her entire composition was shaken. She was going to burst into tears any minute and tori understood this and immediately said "hey Addie. Mum got beaten up and mugged. But it's okay because I'm a tough girl right?" Addison said "mom I just have to go home okay. I'll see you tomorrow." She was trying hard not to cry and as she left tears started to trickle down her face. Jade and Cat gave tori a smile and left. Soon it was just us. She said" Chris? What happened?" " you were raped, tori." As soon as I said it, first she just looked at me as if I was crazy, then at the ceiling in disbelief and then her tears came and I knew nothing that I could say or do would make her better.
TORi'S POV
Raped? That didn't happen. Looked at him as if he were crazy. Then slowly all the things were replayed on the ceiling. I felt so humiliated. So… Disgusting. And most I was crying about was the love of my life not even acting as a human? I knew my daughter knew what had happened to me. I cried and cried and even if anybody said anything, it wouldn't make a fucking difference. I asked the nurse to leave me alone for a while. I couldn't bear to look at anybody's face right now. I had a radio and a song started to play. It was broken by lifehouse.
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Listen to the song while reading this POV so it will give a better view f what is with tori.
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I looked at the clock. It had stopped and for some reason that made me feel 1% better. My tears finally stopped and I just told myself to deal with it. I suddenly remembered me and beck playing in the ocean once, when my foot had gotten stuck in some seaweed and he had saved me and promised to save me all over again. The tears started to flow again. What had my life been then? The name "beck" was the only thing that had any meaning to me. I took care of him. Whenever he was sick I nursed him. I kept his secrets and I had nursed his pride. I knew it. And He knew it. HE KNEW IT! And yet nowhere in his face did I see anything but shame of not helping me. This is were I am. This is where I will be if I don't make a choice. I was his Hand. And now I'm nothing. I'm a shadow for him. The whole world was proud of him and wished him well but I didn't. I'm a ghost for him. I do the same things I did then, I raise Addison, I sing songs, I act in movies, all the time while he is fucking doing what he fucking wants to do. It was my turn now. I wiped my tears away and stood up, fighting the nausea. It was my time and something in me had changed. I was finally moving on.
NOBODY"S POV:
Even though tori thought she was moving on, there was still a spot in her heart, a spot she didn't even know was there, existed, still full of love for beck oliver. And on the other side of town, the same spot of love existed in beck's heart for tori vega, even though both of them never knew, that spot kept hurting whenever they were away from each other.
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For all of the people who have reviewed me. Thank you and I have decided to put some more EMOTION in to my story and this chapter was full of it. This will Always be a beck and tori story and please help me improve it by reviewing! Please please! And the next chapter will contain beck's POV. And will be slightly longer than my other chapters. Love you! Review!