Is the darkness finally gone…?
I woke up the next morning to an overcast sky. Noticing his arm gently wrapped around me, I moved my naked body closer to his and closed my eyes, breathing in his scent. I felt my numbness and my fears disappearing. All of my thoughts focused on him, and this strange feeling inside me. What… is this?
House yawned and shifted around, turning to me. I looked up at him as he ruffled my hair with a mischievous grin.
"G'morning," House said, yawning again. I moved closer to him and bit my lip. "What?" He sounded concerned, but I didn't look up at him. I wonder…
"What are you feeling right now?"
"What do you mean?" I could sense House was looking at me with his probing eyes, but I refused to look.
"Just answer me," I said, slowly looking up at him. "Happy or sad? Hot or cold? Empty or…"
House got out of bed and started to put his clothes back on. I stared at him, waiting for an answer.
"You do feel something, don't you? Something good." My lips curled into a knowing smile. "That's why you're ignoring me."
He turned to look at me and said with a small grin, "Shut up."
I smiled to myself as he walked toward the door. I quickly threw a shirt on and followed House.
"So you're leaving now…"
"Yeah," House shrugged. "Places to go, people to see."
I wanted him to stay, but I couldn't force myself to ask him to remain here with me and my slowly returning feelings of despair.
"This isn't going to last forever." He placed his hand on the doorknob and I inhaled sharply.
"Don't you think I know that?" I just… want more time.
House moved his hand from the door to my arm. As I looked into his eyes, I noticed sadness in them—that misery that brought us together was still there. I wonder if he sees the same thing in my eyes…
We kissed for what I feared might be the last time, and he slowly turned to the door and opened it. Before he was completely out of sight, he turned around and stared at me.
"See you Monday?"
I nodded, a small feeling of hope burning in my chest. "Yeah."