Summer of Love and Loss Chapter 4: Parties and Panic Attacks, an austin & ally fanfic

So this chapter didn't go through many changes but I hope y'all enjoy it.

Songs used Don't Wanna Grow Up by the Willknots. I don't own the song or Austin and Ally.

Summer of Love and Loss

Chapter Four: Parties and Panic Attacks

Derek led them through the house and into his massively huge backyard, they were going to be performing poolside. Austin like the idea of performing by the pool and Derek had done a good job setting up the lighting, the only complication was their 'stage' if it could be called that. Derek wanted them to perform on the hillside next to the pool and on the multilevel rock wall that extended into the pool, of course the waterfalls would be turned off and the rocks dry by the time the party started.

"This could work." Dez said looking at the area through his camera. "In fact this will make one cool music video."

"How are you going to get these things to be dry by tonight?" Austin asked.

"I'll have the gardener do it." Derek said waving his hand dismissively. Austin and the rest of the band nodded.

With the help of Derek's gardener they set up their instruments. Feeling bad for the poor guy they helped him dry off all of the rocks and once they were safe enough to stand and dance on they did a quick sound check. They found Derek in the kitchen stirring what looked like punch, they told him that they were going to go get ready and would be back before the party started.

When Ally and Scarlett arrived at Derek Colman's house the party was already in full swing. The moment they walked into the foyer Scarlett ditched Ally, though Ally had expected that. Half of Grover Beach's teenagers were scattered around the Colman house, drinking, playing games, talking, or dancing. Not want to stay inside Ally grabbed herself a can of Pepsi from one of the coolers in the kitchen before heading out to the backyard where the other half of the town's teenagers were dancing by the pool. Standing on the rocks on the opposite end of the pool microphone in his hands was Austin. He winked at her or in her general direction; she rolled her eyes and shook her head.

"Hey everybody this next song is called Don't Wanna Grow Up and it was written by my new friend Ally Dawson." Austin said grabbing the red guitar that Dez tossed at him.

Just take a chance
Don't think it's your choice
Wake up don't you hear my voice

(Don't you hear me)

I swim threw broken glass, just to define
You left me buried, up and sweep aside
I think its all been said before
(so many times before)
You left the extras by the closing door now

I don't wanna grow up
Don't want to figure this out
I know you set me up
Don't want this dragging you down

Ally smiled as she watched Austin sing the song they had written the day before. He wanted to perform another original song and they spent the entire day at Kelsey's house sitting behind her piano writing the lyrics and coming up with music. When they had looked through her book for songs he deemed a good majority of them too depressing. He had told her that the song should be fun 'like a splash of sunshine' and called her to a 'drizzle of darkness.' Shortly after that he proceeded to 'fun her up' to get the creativity flowing. With their creative juices flowing they were able to write the song.

Just raise you head, don't make the wrong choice
Shout out don't you hear my voice
(Don't you hear me)
I've taken every chance just to define
You're tripping here, that's where I draw the line

I think its all been said before
(So many times before)
You left the extras by the closing door now

I don't wanna grow up
Don't want to figure this out
I know you set me up
Don't want this dragging you down

Why's that so hard to believe?
Why can't you just let us be?

I don't wanna grow up
Don't want to figure this out
I know you set me up
Don't want this dragging you down

I don't wanna grow up
Don't want to figure this out
I know you set me up
Don't want this dragging you down
Don't want this dragging you down

Don't wanna see you around
Don't wanna see you around

"Okay so we're going to take a break so enjoy the wonderful styling's of Derek's stereo." Austin said cuing Dez to start the music. He and the rest of his band mates walked off of the hillside. While his friends went to go get drinks he went to go join Ally. In all honesty he was surprised she was at the party, she really didn't seem the type to be at an unsupervised party where it was evident that there was underage drinking going on. "Hey I didn't think you were going to show up."

"My mother made Scarlett bring me and I couldn't get out of it." Ally said with a scowl. "She left me the moment we walked into the foyer."

"So plan 'fake being sick' didn't work." Austin said taking her soda and chugging it clean. Her scowl deepened making him laugh at how cute she looked. He took her by the wrist and led her inside the house. "Lets go get something to drink. Do me a favor and stay away from the punch it's spiked. Oh and if you leave your drink unattended get a new one."

"Thanks dad." Ally said sarcastically. "Is it obvious that I'm not a party person?"

"Deer in headlights obvious." Austin said handing her a can of Pepsi.

"I don't have a good track record with parties." Ally said her cheeks tinting pink.

"Oh well that's all in the past so forget about it right now you're going to dance with me Ally Dawson." He said figuring she needed something to distract her from her thoughts. Ally did a lot of thinking and he noticed that most of the time it made her sad.

"But I just got another drink." Ally protested.

"Derek has people that are going to clean up this mess." Austin said taking her can of soda out of her hands and setting it down on a random end table. He stuck his bottom lip out and widened his eyes giving her his irresistible pout and puppy dog eyes combination. "Please dance with me before I have to go back on stage."

"Austin I-I c-can't dance." Ally stuttered, inwardly he smirked he knew he had her.

"Please Ally Cat." He said softly.

"I hate you." Ally muttered. "If somehow you end up in a cast it is not my fault, you asked for it."

Austin looked down at her and gave her a triumphant smirk before leading her out into the backyard. Ally hadn't been lying when she said she couldn't dance, he thought she meant she couldn't club dance not that she couldn't dance period, but she looked cute trying. He felt bad for the girl she smacked in the back of the head and the guy she knocked over. She muttered apologies to the couple while they stared at her like they wanted to gut her alive.

"You're rambling." Austin said realizing that she had stopped making sense and was now just quickly talking in run-on sentences.

"It's really his fault I told him that I can't dance but no he didn't listen to me." Ally said quickly. The couple walked away and Ally took a strand of her hair and began chewing on it.

Austin reached over and gently pulled her hair out of her mouth, "Lets not do that."

"I'm the worst dancer ever."

"Does that really bother you? So you can't dance a lot of people can't dance." Austin said dropping the strand of hair that he had taken out of her mouth. "Your lack of dancing ability just makes you—"

"Yo Moon break's over!" Zack said interrupting Austin before he could finish his sentence.

"I have to go." Austin sighed.

Ally searched the bowl of pretzels for one that wasn't broken which was kind of difficult since every pretzel in the bowl seemed to be broken. Giving up on her search for the perfect pretzel Ally walked out of the kitchen, she weaved her way through the mob of drunken teenagers and wound up in the game room. Out of the corner of her eye she caught sight of a boy with dark brown hair, even though she knew that it couldn't be Dallas her heart still started to pound rapidly against her ribs. Breathing became difficult and her whole body shook, this wasn't one of her normal freak-outs—she was having a panic attack. Hearing his name the boy turned around, it wasn't Dallas but he looked too much like him for her brain to tell the difference in her current state. Black dots lined her eyesight and the room started to spin, she lost the ability to think rationally and at this point it didn't matter that the boy wasn't Dallas. She was lost in her irrational panic.

An arm wrapped around her shoulder, she shrieked and tired to pull away. Austin's voice broke through the laughter she heard in her head and his concerned face replaced Dallas's. She followed his breathing instructions and slowly the irrational fear started to fade away. She slumped against him and she felt his strong arms wrap around her. He took her out to the front yard away from everybody.

"It was a very bad very public break up." Ally said quietly. "I'm not good with humiliation or being in front of people so I freaked out...a lot and well I had a panic attack that day. It turns out that I am prone to panic attacks. I have a panic disorder. That boy in there looked too much like Dallas it freaked me out."

"How about I take you home?" Austin said not knowing what else to do

"What about Scarlett?" Ally asked.

"Give me the keys to the car and I'll have Kelsey and Dez drive her home." Austin said taking her hand and leading her down the driveway.

"Okay." Ally said reaching into the pocket of her denim jacket for the keys. "Hey Austin."

"Yeah?"

"You're a really nice guy." She said. He stopped and before he could stop himself he scooped her up into his arms and unnecessarily carried her to the jeep.

So there you have it. Please review (: