First of all... Thanks to all of you that are still reviewing. Means a lot. Secondly - Just want to address something that came up from a review. I'm from Australia, so the car thing? We drive on the left side of the road... therefore the driver sits on the right hand side. Just though I would clarify that so you'll know that BB are not contortionists (Thanks mendenbar) And here it is... the next chapter.... This one is kind of a filler.... doesn't have much in it, but kind of joins the last chapters and the next one together.
Intense and sweet according to my beta.
Anyway, this is how it turned out... You may have noticed that I'm kind of changing the POV's a lot and sometimes going for a more general look, I'll be continuing this for a while let me know if you like it that way, or with POV's.
Enjoy!
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He couldn't believe it. It was all too confusing for his exhausted mind to figure out. She had... left? Just like that, she had gone. He needed to find out what had happened at this house today to find out why it had happened. It just didn't make any sense. He shook his head, trying to clear his thoughts but they wouldn't go away. He slipped the ring into his back pocket. He would fix this, but it would help if he knew what 'this' was and the only other person that would know would be Parker.
He slowly made his way down the corridor and knocked on Parker's bedroom door, pushing it open slightly.
"Hey bud"
Parker grinned and ran to his father. "I missed you daddy"
"Yeah, missed you too bud, what did you get up to today?"
Parker visibly flinched. "Not much, just some movies"
"Oh? Thought Bones would have taken you out somewhere"
Parker shrugged "Didn't want to go anywhere" and he made his way back to his bed.
"Did something happen today, Parker?"
"No, why?"
"Bones is gone Parker, something must have happened"
"Oh" was his only answer.
"Parker? What Happened?"
"I didn't mean it daddy, I promise"
Booth instantly hunched forward. "Didn't mean to do what, Parker?"
"It was an accident, I yelled at Dr Bones, I didn't mean it" tears started to fall down the young boys face. "I'm sorry daddy, I'm real sorry"
"What did you say, Parker? It's really important" Parker slowly lifted his eyes and met Booth's.
"I told her I hated her and that she should stop being my mum" Booth felt his anger grow and turned away from his son.
"Why would you do that, Parker? Why?"
"I didn't mean it, I was just angry and she is everywhere and I miss my mum, I want her to come back"
Booth grimaced. "I know you do, but getting angry at Bones isn't going to help that is it?" Parker obediently shook his head.
"I'm sorry daddy"
"Yeah, bud, I know"
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" Stop trying to be my mom, I wouldn't ever want you as my mom, I hate you"
The words were going through Brennan's head over and over. Everytime she heard it, it got worse. Parker's words had hit her deeply and she didn't quite know how to get over them. It was like he wanted her to leave and never come back, and now she knew she had hurt Booth and she had never wanted to do that. Never.
She had made her way to Angela's slowly and when she had made it, Angela had kept quiet and hadn't asked about it, but now, the next morning, she wanted to know the details and Brennan didn't have the strength to keep her at bay. So Brennan told Angela about the previous day and found herself, once again, tearing up as she recited Parker's harsh words.
"So you just left? You didn't even tell Booth about what had happened?"
Brennan shook her head and sighed.
"Look, sweetie, I know it was hard to hear, but Parker is really young and doesn't understand all of the world yet, and he would really be missing his mom"
"You're making excuses for him?"
"No.. I... I just mean that you can't exactly blame him. He's only a kid"
Brennan shrugged and seemed to understand where Parker was coming from. After all, they had all moved in together pretty quickly. Booth and Brennan hadn't even had the opportunity to talk about what had happened the previous year. It was rather sudden, she concluded.
"Yeah I suppose you're right"
Angela stared at her. "Of course I'm right, sweetie" she winked at her and got off the couch that they were both on. "You need to talk to Booth, it wasn't his fault"
Brennan just smiled in return.
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He didn't know how he was going to fix it, he knew he wanted to, he knew that somehow, in some way he could fix it, but he didn't know how. Everything that came to his mind, wouldn't help Brennan now. He knew that she still had doubts about being a mother and what Parker had said hadn't helped, but this wasn't all Parker's fault. He may have not helped the situation, by saying what he did, but it wasn't his fault. In some odd way, he felt relieved that this had happened now, that all her insecurities had finally come out. Maybe, just maybe it was better this way.
All he really cared about was getting Brennan back, and he was prepared to do anything for that to happen.
He twisted his phone in his hand once more, as he had been doing nervously for the last ten minutes. He just couldn't figure out what he was going to say. He would think that the direct approach was best, then decide that it wasn't and hang up before the call even had the chance to connect. Finally, he got the courage and without any preparation he dialed and waited.
It wasn't until at least five rings, that she finally answered, not looking at the caller ID but having a fair idea about who it was.
"Booth?"
"Yeah, it's me"
"Hey"
"Hey" well this was definitely going great so far, he thought to himself.
"Listen, Bones, I... uh.. I talked to Parker"
"Thought you would have"
"Yeah, he didn't mean it Bones, he's just missing Rebecca"
"Yeah, I know that"
"It's not about Parker, is it?"
She smiled to herself, he knew her better than she knew herself. "No, it's not"
"I don't know how to fix this" she stayed silent, mildly shocked at his confession, he never liked to admit that he didn't know what to do. She liked that about him, he was so sure of himself, yet this piece of vulnerability seemed to feel oddly refreshing.
"It's not your fault"
"Okay"
Their words were quiet and soft and were spoken with a sense of sadness.
"I'm sorry Booth"
"It's okay"
"No, it's not. I didn't want to run but I couldn't stay there. I knew that all these feelings about not being a good mother were going to come up eventually, but I hoped that yesterday Parker and I would have a great day and I might actually feel like I could do it. Then it went horribly and I just didn't understand. He blames me for Rebecca's death, Booth"
"What?"
"He said - you are stealing my dad. All he thinks about is you and he doesn't even think about my mum anymore. You broke up my family, if you hadn't come, my mum would be alive today" she almost smiled at the irony, she remember the words as if Parker were yelling them at her at that moment.
"I'll talk to him, Bones. He didn't mean any of it, not really. He just had a bad day yesterday, that's all"
"It's not all his fault, I know that. It just didn't help having that yelled at me, that's all"
"If he could take it back, he would. He loves you. When are you going to come home?"
Home. The word swam around her head. Was it really her home? Booth and Parker were a family. Was she just the add on? Was she the extra wheel of their duo that didn't need to be there?
"I don't know, Booth. Maybe it's better to just leave it for a while"
The silence on the other end deafened her and she fought back the voice in the back of her telling her to go back.
"I'm going to go now, Booth. Talk to you later, okay?"
"Bones, wait... Uh, can I come see you tonight? I just... need to see you"
"Booth..."
"No, please Bones.... just... please?" she couldn't argue against his pleading tone.
"Okay" his voice sounded relieved in response
"Okay"
"Bye Booth"
"I love you" he whispered, but the dial tone was already dead.
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