Heart Killer

Chapter 4

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up."
― Neil Gaiman, the Sandman, Vol. 9: The Kindly Ones

It was the first time Eren was sitting in a limousine. Levi was next to him, his eyes focused on his phone, his laptop at his lap. Eren's mind was filled with questions? Who was Erwin? Why are we going to his house? Is Levi filthy rich? Is Levi going to sell him to prostitution? Does Levi earn his money through selling people like this? Buying them expensive stuff, then selling him away?

No, he wouldn't let Levi do this to him!

He wanted to get out of here, to leave this car and go back to his 'house'. If this was the case, he would prefer to work for his 'father'. He wanted to scream and cry, kick Levi to the floor and then rushing out of this car. But he was too afraid to break the silence. For once, Eren Jaeger was scared. He was scared that the punishment was worse if he broke the silence, Levi's concentration. He shuffled around his seat, wanting to take the uncomfortable seatbelt that was almost strangling him. Anyway, Levi was probably joking about killing his father and burning his home.

Sigh. One, more, step and he would be just free from all of this crap.

"Don't even try, Eren." Levi barely looked up from his laptop, his hands furiously typing on the keyboard. Eren looked away guiltily. Through the reflection from the mirror, he knew that Levi was barely even glancing at him. How did he even know then? Psychological powers?

"Levi." Ignored.

"Levi". Silence.

"Leviiiiiiiiii!"

"What-and What is it, stupid brat? Can't you see I'm trying to solve a fucking problem here? My whole business is going to crash because one of my motherfucking assholes screwed up the profit calculations. And now I'm facing an almost 1 million loss. If you don't think you can solve this problem in one second, shut the fuck up because I don't give a damn about what you care or think. You want to drink or eat or shit, tell Edward there but it's not my fucking problem." Levi pointed a guy who was standing behind them. Eren's eyes opened in surprise, he had not seen him there.

"Such colouful language." Eren rolled in eyes in annoyance, before he sat up and looked at Levi with a smirk. "Levi, you said 'one of my mm-mm assholes, didn't you? Doesn't that mean that you have one asshole? What are you? A monster?"

"You are so wrong, kid. And anyway, if I did it, I would never be bottom anyway. Go to sleep brat, you're annoying me." Levi barely glanced up at Eren. His eyes were still glued to the laptop's screen. He waved his hand, and Edward immediately brought a blanket and a pillow. Eren rolled his eyes, then refused them. He unbuckled his belt, and was going to lie on the seats-

"Don't you dare put you shoes on the seats."

"Yes, mom." Eren rolled his eyes and took out his 'polished-till-perfection-shoes. He prepared to lie down on the seats for a comfortable nap and was going to close his eyes-

"You're going to get your suit crumpled up."

"And you just told me to go to sleep. Such good logic, mom." Now, that earned a reaction from Levi. The normally composed man snapped his face up, for once not facing his laptop or phone. His eyebrows narrowed dangerously, his eyes glaring at Eren.

"Oops, sensitive subject. But seriously, what am I going to do?" Eren shrugged and evaded his eyes from Levi's. Those intimidating grey eyes had took his breath away. They were like stars twinkling the dark, twin swords ready to strike an enemy. He dared to glance at the window, just to see those grey eyes staring back at him.

"Can't you just sleep like a proper person? Like with a straight back or something?" Was it just the lights, or those intimidating grey eyes softened? Eren gulped for a minute, his face was getting hotter? What was he thinking about? His eyes were pretty?

Eren ignored Levi and turned his back on the working man.

Just go to sleep, Eren, go to sleep…..

…

Eren found out that he was gay at the young age of 12. He realized that he had a crush on Marco when he was still in secondary school. Marco was a senior, and a popular one in fact. He always had this gang of friends surrounding him and he was always approached by girls. Eren was what you could call a stalker. He did not dare to approach him, and would only stay at the sidelines, watching him from afar like a guardian angel.

He entered the same school as Marco in the end and continued to follow him. What he bought for lunch, what girls he talked to, what was his lesson before break, his favourite subject, his favourite colour, his favourite animal, even his favourite jacket. Eren was embarrassed at first when he realized that he probably knew more about Marco than his senior would know himself. Therefore, Eren decided to never confess to Marco, and just keep quiet and unnoticed.

It was all fine, until Jean confessed to Marco.

He remembered that day extremely clearly as Jean pulled Marco to the roof of the building. They had talked about normal things like the weather and their studies. Until Jean stood up and pulled Marco up too and said those three magical words that were about to make Eren cry. Marco had been stunned until he realized that he had some small feeling in his heart towards Jean and decided to give him a chance. Eren was hiding behind the door, eavesdropping their whole conversation.

"I really, really, like you, please go out with me."

Eren had wanted to say the same thing to Marco a long, long time ago. But, holding his breath, he quietly went down the staircase and sneaked into the toilet, and started sobbing quietly. From that day on, he never ever went to school today. After all, school sounded meaningless when he had to see Marco with another guy, kissing and holding each other hands in front of him? That sounds like torture.

Eren was pissed, but as time passed by, his first love for Marco faded, but it never disappeared.

…

"-Grisha. Are you very sure? I'm pretty sure you were so hooked on getting Eren that you just gave up and didn't really bother to listen to him."

Eren could barely listen to what Levi and that 'blond-eyebrows-guy' was saying. He was fidgeting his drink, and he was extremely self-conscious. Firstly, he was in an expensive suit, which he had never worn in his entire life. Secondly, he was in a so-called 'high-class-banquets'. Everyone was dressed as if they were royalty, and he felt extremely out of place. Seeing that Levi wasn't paying any attention to him, he decided to sneak off and get some fresh air.

Trying his best not to cringe at the expensive- looking jewelry and the smell of expensive cologne, he politely muttered some 'excuse-me's and made his way through the crowd, grabbing some drink here and there, and just holding them and putting them somewhere just to try to fit into the crowd. He politely declined some wine, some snacks and most of all, excused himself from whatever conversation that anyone wanted to strike with him.

"Did you hear about Grisha Jaeger?"

Eren paused and looked back to see who was talking about his father. He turned just to see a few young men sipping in their drinks. They couldn't be more than 18, he thought. Perhaps they knew Levi, or maybe they were working for him? Either way, he had to get more information about what they were going to say. Taking another drink from another waiter who passed by him, he took a few deep breaths before he poised himself as a gentleman.

"Good evening."

"Good evening. Wait, were you the boy who came with Captain Levi?"

"Yes, I'm one of his cousins, my name's Farlan."

Listen brat, introduce yourself as Farlan Church. Your dad owns a fucking company, and your mom has her own clothing line. You're one of my distant relatives all the way from Australia and you have a sister named Isabel. You're here tonight because I brought you as my guest and whatever shit they ask you, just make something believable up, got it?

Yes, yes Levi.

"Ah, yes, nice to meet you, my name's Reiner and he's Bertolt. Did you hear the news about Grisha Jaeger anyway?"

"No, I didn't. Please, do tell me what happened."

"Oh. I heard that he was killed by Captain Levi of the First Legion. This is an accomplishment to out United Forces of the Survey Corps. This is incredible! I heard he even kidnapped the son of Grisha, and he is most likely going to get as much information as he can from his son. This is indeed great news. If some of the members had ran away, we could always hunt from them easily. Won't you agree that this was an incredible move?" The guy names Reiner was talking to him with a shit-eating grin on his face.

"Yes, yes….indeed. Please, do, excuse me." Eren was dumbstruck, he was numb. He couldn't believe it. He thought that Levi had been lying! He believed him. That was what Levi had been trying to do? Buy him nice clothes, ask him to attend some important function so that he would trust him more? Eren couldn't take it anymore.

With his bangs covering his eyes, Eren walked solemnly as he could to the nearest balcony. He needed some air with no one around him. He trudged to the balcony and leaned on him as he felt his eyes heat up. He covered his eyes as the tears started to fall. He was devastated, yes, Grisha had killed his mother, he had used him, and yet they were still related by blood.

His tears kept falling. He had trusted Levi!

"Eren?" A familiar voice called out behind him. He paused and turned to look back.

"MARCO?"

OMG I AM SO SORRY GUYS! I KNOW I PROMISED BUT I WAS SERIOUSLY TOO BUSY! BUT THERE YOU HAVE IT NOW!

I JUST COULDN'T RESIST PUTTING JEAN AND MARCO. I SORTA SHIP THEM YOU KNOW XD