Title: Broken
Author: Gacktaddict1330
Pairing: Gackt/Hyde, Chachamaru/You, Ken/Tetsuya
Genre: Romance/Drama
Rating: M
Warnings: some gore, insanity, guy lovin XD
Summary: One of them is institutionalized and completely insane after an incident in his past. The other is perfectly sane but doesn't want to admit his best friend's completly gone after an encounter he has with the man while he's institutionalized. *sucky summary sorry*
Review Answers:
Chiakaiyuki: yaaaaaaaay I'm glad you like it! lol, i don't THINK it gets very tragic...but, i could be wrong XD lol he's gonna make him better, i promise. Thanks so much, i'm doing much better.
0928soubi at .jp: it's okay hunny, Kristen passed along your review XD XDDDDDDDDD he will get better, with some time. lol, i'd like to say i'd be the same way but, i really don't think i could be. i don't think i could be that strong 'specially if they tried to kill me. XD no, he didn go crazy 'cuz he coudn express his love XD O.o who's given ya a drama fetish O.o XDDDDDDDD glad you love it?
AngelicButterfly777: lol well, he kinda yes, kinda no. XD you'll find out where they found him in a few chappies *meaning i sooooooooo don't have it written out yet myself XD* lol what kinda scenerious? XDDDDDDD *snickers* dirty thoughts? you're just like mee~~~ gladd you likes the chappie!
Satchi Claus: XDDDDDDD i kinda giggled myself when writing that. you should have heard the discussion we had in math class when i asked about them XD lol it is an entertaining image, isn't it. he makes them look good XDDDDDDDDD yea, i feel bad for him *and i'm the one putting him through it XD* hopes you likes the chappie!
Notes: I've been rather depressed lately and this was born randomly. Thanks to anyone who puts up with this *it's not very good at all* i'm so sorry it's been so long since i've updated or even posted something new. I've just been so busy lately I barely have time to type anything up. Thanks for keeping with me y'all. Today, i was informed that a friend of mine *who was only in 9th grade* was killed in a car accident and the car was driven by his best friend. I wasn't goin to post this chapter because of it, but i decided to because i can't just stop everything. please keep his family in your thoughts though. his name was Noel Gonzales. thank you all.
Disclaimer: The boys own themselves, ^^
"He's technically not supposed to have visitors..." A male nurse told Hyde.
"Please I'm begging you, just let me see him. I won't stay long." Hyde whimpered.
The nurse looked at him for a moment before finally nodding his head.
"Alright. This way please."
Hyde followed the man, nervous about what he was going to find once he reached his destination.
"He's in here." The nurse began, stopping at a closed door.
"Do not release his hands. This is the only warning you shall revieve. If you do, you shall simply be banned from this hospital for the duration of his stay however long or short it may be."
"Yes sir." Hyde whispered.
The nurse let him in, closing the door behind him.
"Gaachan?" He said into the dark room experimentally.
Recieving a whimper as his answer he turned on the light, nearly collapsing from the sight that met him.
Gackt's arms were bound to the bed with leather bindings, and the bottom half of his face was covered with a white mask.
"Oh Gackt...I'm so sorry." Hyde mumbled.
He walked up to the bed and Gackt looked up at him with pleading eyes.
Reaching out a hand Hyde gently carressed the patients cheek.
"I wish I could have helped you more." He whispered.
Gackt leaned into the touch, nuzzling his face into the palm of Hyde's hand.
"Happy birthday Gaachan." Hyde whispered. He leaned down and pressed a kiss to the younger man's forehead.
Gackt whimpered pittifully, struggling weakly against his bindings.
"I'm so sorry. I can't do anything." Hyde murmered, tears forming in caramel eyes as he leaned down to hug Gackt.
The vocalist sighed through his nose and nuzzled the pale exspanse of flesh of the vocalists neck reasurringly.
"Do you forgive me?" Hyde asked.
Gackt nodded, looking to the smaller man.
"Please don't be angry with me but...I can't stay long. Not only did I promise the nurse but I can't...I can't stand to see you, alway so strong and sure, so helpless like this. I want to see you again, not this you...I...I love you Gackt. And I'm going to figure out a way to get you out, that much you can be sure of. I won't give up until you are out of here and back home with me. I swear it." Hyde declared.
Tears began to form in momentairily clear brown eyes and Gackt nodded his thanks to his friend.
"Be good alright Gackt? Please, I'm begging you, don't do anything else to get into trouble. Focus on getting better and coming home. I want you home so much. When they finally take that mask off and we have some time, we have alot of catching up to do. I'll try to come back tomorrow okay? Be good for me." Hyde stressed, leaning down and embracing the taller man.
Pulling away he pressed a kiss to the patients forehead, lips lingering there while his right hand held Gackt's and his left hand carressed a pale cheek gently.
"I have to go now." He said standing straight. He gave one last loving smile before walking out the door where he was unsurprised to find his friends waiting for him, uneasiness painted across each of their faces.
"What are you doing here Hyde?" Chachamaru asked.
"Visiting my best friend. I made him promise me to get better so he can come home. I really think he's going to try too. He...he seemed to understand what I was saying well enough so...just maybe I got through to him. I know he's still in there because today he was just like his old self. He's still in there and I'm going to help him regain control." Hyde stated.
"Alright." Chachamaru said sighing heavily.
A month past and Gackt slowly started waking to reality.
True to his word, Hyde showed up the next day. And the next and the next until he became a common resident at the hospital all the nurses and doctors calling him by name affectionately.
Two weeks after Hyde's first visit the muzzle was removed from Gackt's face.
"Gaachan...I have something to tell you." Hyde whispered.
Gackt looked over at him, his hands still bound.
"In a week I'll...be leaving on tour."
"Oh..." Gackt said his brown eyes darkening with disappointment.
"I'm sorry Gaachan. I don't mean to leave you like this but...we've had this tour planned for so long..."
"It's...okay. You have a carreer to think about. I can't ask you to give up everything just for me. You have a son and a wife. You need to do this. This is who you are. Don't worry about me ok?" Gackt said quietly.
Hyde turned his face away, suddenly ashamed.
"Gaachan...Megumi and I we're...we're not married anymore." He said softly.
Brown eyes widened and the patient stared at him in shock.
"-what? W-what happened?" Gackt asked, his voice soft.
"Well...I...I have feelings for someone else and she...couldn't handle it. Not that I blame her or anything. I wouldn't have been able to be second best in her heart so, I don't blame her and I have no ill feelings towards her. We're still close friends. We split last year." Hyde explained.
"Oh...That's...quite a shock...I really have missed a lot haven't I?" Gackt said looking at the wall. Hyde nodded gently, opening his mouth to speak when Gackt cut him off unintentionally.
"And what of Ryue?"
"We have joint custody. While I'm on tour she will keep him. Hey, if you'd like I could see if I could bring him in...He would love to see you, he's always asking about you." Hyde said looking to the man in the bed.
Gackt shook his head firmly.
"No. I don't want him to see me like this."
"Oh, well ok." Hyde said quietly.
He watched Gackt, studying him carefully.
"Haido? Is something wrong?" Gackt asked.
"Oh um...it's nothing." Hyde said looking away.
"Well...alright then."
There was silence in the room before suddenly Gackt asked a question Hyde had been dreading since the patient came of his right mind.
"Tell me something Hyde, and be completely honest with me. Does anyone know...what I did to you?"
"Um...Chacha, You, Tetsu, Ken and i suspect my band know." Hyde mumbled.
Gackt sighed heavily through his nose.
"They really all must hate me now." He muttered.
"That's not true! I'm sure they don't hate you! How could You hate you after you've been through so much together! Or Chacha! I know they don't!" Hyde exclaimed.
"Not one of them has done anything to see me since Chacha helped sedate me that day I tried to kill you-"
"You didn't-" Hyde interjected.
"Hyde face it, I tried to kill you. I would have too had I not heard Kami's voice, we both know it. I'm sorry but maybe the doctors are right and you shouldn't actually be here..." Gackt whispered.
"No." Hyde said.
Gackt looked at him silently.
"You're not going to do this. I'm here and I'm not going to abondon you. Sure I can't be here every single day but, I'm not just going to leave and never come back. You're getting so much better, you're so close to the Gackt I knew. I know you can get well again and then you'll leave and everything will go back to normal again." Hyde said hopefully.
"Hyde, that's false hope and I can't condone it. You know as well as I nothing will be 'normal' or the way it used to be. I've been labeled mentally unstable and finally full blown crazy. I've lost my career and I won't allow you to be pulled down with me. You have a child, I have no one I need to go home to. No one who loves me in that way." Gackt said.
"You have me...I love you." Hyde whispered.
"Hyde, you know what I mean. I know you love me and I love you it's just...not the same." Gackt said quietly.
Hyde felt tears stinging his eyes and he released a nearly inaudible sigh before standing.
"I...have to go. Gotta get to practice."
"Oh...alright then. I'll see you later." Gackt whispered.
Hyde nodded and walked out the door, not even bothering to say good bye.
"He...didn't even say goodbye..." Gackt whispered.