A/n: look who's back, back again, Hannah's back, tell your friends.

Disclaimer: Shonda owns, nuff said.

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He said it was a one night stand

But the alcohol didn't let her understand.

He said it was a one night stand, a one night stand.

-Fourth Drink Instinct, Cute is what we Aim For

Derek's POV:

A year ago, the one thing that Derek had wanted most was for Addison to give up on their sham of a marriage so that he could be with Meredith. Twelve months later, he seriously doubted his own sanity.

Meredith had been a breath of fresh air, but now it was as stale as the air on a flight from New York to Hong Kong. And he wanted out.

The thing was, Derek had never been good with confrontation. He had a tendency to wait around until someone else brought up a problem rather than voice it himself. Growing up with four sisters, that had never been a problem, but when he entered the real world he realized that his way of doing things made life very difficult.

And still Derek made no effort to change it. The way he figured, he was the way he was, and the people around him would have to figure out a way to deal with it.

When he married Addison, he figured their mutual passive aggressiveness wouldn't be a problem. As their marriage began to crumble it became apparent that two people who never voiced their feelings could never succeed as a couple.

Addison had an excuse. Her upbringing couldn't be more different than his own. Growing up in the Shepherd household had been a bit cluttered and noisy, but someone was always around, and Derek had never been lonely. Addison on the other hand was an only child, a mistake of sorts made by two incredibly busy workaholic parents. They had never had time for Addison. The closest thing she had to a real family had been nannies and butlers, but they came and went.

When he thought about Addison's situation growing up, he could understand why she had turned to Mark for comfort. When they got married he had promised her that she would never be lonely again, a promise he broke time and time again. He ignored her for years, and Addison was a strong woman, but she could only take so much.

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When Derek met Meredith he had still been nursing the wound left by Addison and Mark's betrayal. Raw and hurt, he had picked up a girl in a bar, never intending it to be anything more than a one night stand.

Meredith had turned out to be something different. His refuge from the storm that was his marriage, his escape, his anesthesia. She had been perfect in his eyes.

Later on, feeling trapped in his marriage he built Meredith up. He convinced himself that she was the love of his life. Addison was the evil bitch keeping him from the woman he truly loved. Prom wasn't a mistake, it was his way of putting things back the way they were supposed to be, or that's how he thought of it at the time.

Now he realized he couldn't have been more wrong. Meredith was far from perfect, and she certainly wasn't the love of his life. She was whiny and annoying, clingy and immature, damaged and afraid to commit. She had so much baggage it was weighing the both of them down. Meredith was a nice girl, and he did care about her, but their relationship, built on lies and adultery, was doomed from the start.

She doesn't deserve to be in a place like this, all alone…

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