Emma reapplied her makeup in the bathroom.
"EMMA SWAN?!" squealed a little voice. Emma turned around to see a teenage girl standing just feet away from the doorway of the bathroom.
"OMG, it's EMMA SWAN!" she squealed again.
"Um, hi. Well you obviously know who I am, who are you?" Emma asked.
"Your biggest fan, I love your show," the girl said.
"You know Carry On and Stay Strong?" Emma asked. She knew it was the newest hit but still, she had never met a fan before.
"Uh you mean the hit TV show about single mother Charlene Byrne who has three kids, Charlie, Anna, and Rianna who's looking for love but keeps getting cuts at work and has met the most handsome guy but he is married? Uh duh!" the girl blabbered.
"Yeah, sorry I've just never met a fan before," Emma admitted.
"Really?" the girl asked arching her left eyebrow.
"Yeah, sorry I didn't catch your name," Emma said.
"Oh, I'm Katy Miller," the girl said, "I'm auditioning for the little sister's role in Why I'm Single, but the Andrew Thicks, who was going to play the main character Emmett got a concussion so the whole cast is here."
"Oh so you got the role as Alexa?" Emma asked. Katy nodded. "Good for you!" Emma said. Katy smiled shyly.
"I'm just so happy, well I should probably go to the bathroom now," Katy said entering the first open stall she saw. Emma exited the hall and saw Neal chatting with the doctor. Henry's face was serious as he talked to Justyne but judging the his posture he was speaking softly and encouragingly.
"They don't need me right now," Emma said to herself and left the hospital. There was a restaurant directly across the hospital that looked good. She crossed the street and entered it.
"Hello and welcome to The Pinetree Restaurant," the greeter said. Emma smiled and sat down in a boot. Emma's only ever know Neal's love. The whole situation is just awkward. There are so many reasons Emma and Neal should break up, but he disappears and when he does it tortures Emma. She wakes up and his side of the bed is cold. When they would fight, she know he was right, but she didn't care. If they did break up, how would she recover. Their future together was just so unclear.
"The heart wants what the heart wants," Emma said quoting Killian. She rolled her eyes. Killian. What was she going to do. She ached to be with him. He seemed so much better than Neal, but Neal was her husband and the father to her kids. But her mind was already made up, she had to divorce him.
You always have a choice Emma, just know this. Mary Margaret's voice echoed in Emma's head. Her thoughts were interrupted by a waitress's voice.
"How may I help you today- OMG YOUR EMMA SWAN!" the waitress squealed.
"OMG, I'm Lindsay Dillon," the waitress said.
"Nice to meet you," Emma said pursing her lips.
"Yeah you too, anyway what would you like to order today?"
"A cheeseburger with lettuce, fries, and a coke," Emma said.
Emma blanked out after that. When she closed her eyes it was a nightmare, her whole life. The sun wasn't shining down on her today. The voices got louder in her head. Neal's voice mainly. It clouded her head.
"And a glass of wine," Emma added quickly.
"Of course," Lindsay said and left. Emma smiled down at the table.
How can Neal expect her to be perfect? She's only human. He's leaving her again. But he always shows up in the morning. Always. This time was different. Before this they seemed fine the next day. She hates to seem go but she loves watch him go, that means she won the fight, she won it. But the feeling didn't last long. She messed up this time. She always does something the make him made.
"Ah, look who the cat dragged in," Killian's voice said. Emma looked up. As Emma looked up at Killian, she knew what she felt was real. He's got the feeling that she wants to feel, love shouldn't hurt. But she barely knew him, how could she be in love with him?
"Hi," Emma said. It's in the way that he speaks, looks, loves, even, and she could see that that was real love.
"What are you doing here mate?" Killian asked softly.
"Justyne has cancer, I don't know which type but she does and I need to get the hell away from the hospital," Emma said bitterly.
"You know wine is not your friend at times like this," Killian joked pointing at her empty wine glass. She hadn't even remembered drinking it.
"Ha ha," Emma said in a steel like tone. Killian got the message. He slid into the booth.
"If you are moving to Tallahassee, well then bye, but if you're not, maybe we could go on a date," Killian said nervously. Emma laughed.
"You've got to be kidding me, I'm keeping my children and with the whole Justyne situation I wouldn't have much time, I just can't maybe in a year or two when things cool down," Emma said impatiently.
"A year or two?" Killian asked.
"A couple months?" Emma said.
"A couple of days is more like it, if you really like me you would make time for me, so I'll take that as a no, goodbye Love," Killian said sliding out of the booth.
"Killian wait," Emma begged. Killian stormed out of the restaurant. Emma stayed seated, maybe she didn't like him enough. And yet five minutes ago she was certain that he was the one. And yet reality struck her every time like an unplanned slap in the face.
"Emma what are you doing here?"
"Mom?"