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That night Troy didn't eat anything, he said he didn't feel well and said he could take some snack later that evening, yeah right like that was gonna happen! His mother had looked after him with worried eyes, but he ignored the look, not wanting his mothers pity now, it was too late for it and nothing was gonna make him change his mind about it! He needed to lose weight and he was gonna do it with a lot of training and no eating!
He sighs and tries to avoid looking himself in the mirror, scared of his own image, his disgusting and hideous body! He puts on a simple grey hoodie and starts searching the internet on the best diet methods, and in theory they were all the same, eat healthy and exercise! He quickly shuts down the pages he had been looking on when there was a knock on the door. "Come in!" He says looking at the door; it was Anne, coming in with some dinner to him.
"I thought you wanted some dinner…" She says kindly and smiles to him. "What are you doing? You seem tense and nervous…." She notice and looks worried on him.
"I am doing a school work about food and health!" He smiles sweetly and looks at the dinner she had brought up to him; it was her famous chicken sandwiches. It looked tempting to eat it, but he couldn't, not when was gonna lose weight to become a better and thinner person! And nothing was gonna stop him to reach his goals!
"Okay, just remember to eat something before you go to bed, I am heading home now, but I'll see you in the morning!" She smiles and leaves the room, closing the door carefully behind her, when he heard her fixing in the kitchen he clicked the pages open again and started reading once again, but soon he was on pages that showed girls that was walking skeletons with skin, and there was a few boy that also was like that and Troy looked at them with wide eyes, he wouldn't go that far, that was just disgusting! He sighs and turn the computer of and look at the sandwich one again, he walks to it and throws it in the trash can!
He pulled of his clothes and went to brush his teeth then he walked to bed feeling his stomach grumbling. "Shut up!" He mutters and then he tries to find a comfortable position to sleep in, a position so his stomach wouldn't grumble too much! He didn't know when and how, all he knew was that he fell asleep after twisting and turning for a long time!
I want food! That was he first thought when he heard the alarm clock ringing! He sighs and gets up from the warm bed and puts on some sweats and a white t-shirt, he didn't feel to dress up for school today, he was gonna go there in comfy clothes, that he somehow he always managed to look fantastic in! He fix his hair then he goes to the kitchen were Anne was standing making breakfast! It was bacon and egg! He couldn't eat all of that! It was way too much!
"Good morning Troy!" Anne greats him, he sits down on the bar stool and is served the portion of eggs and bacon and toast on the side, on any other day he would finish this up in no time, he sighs he starts cutting the food in small pieces. "Something wrong?" She asks noticing his strange behaviour.
"No, I am not so hungry, I still don't feel so well…" He says and smiles weakly and pushes the plate away from him, "I'll take an apple with me to school in case I get hungry while I am there!" He say lying straight to her face.
"You do that, green or red?" She asks and looks in the fruit-basket. He shrugs not really caring witch colour on it since he wasn't gonna eat it anyways! She gives him a red apple and a brown paper-bag with his lunch, he says thanks and goes to his room again packing down the lunch and apple, he puts on his red wildcats hoodie and takes his backpack then he is ready to go to school.
He entered the school and the first thing he sees is Chad eating on a mars, he sighs like many times before that day, he walks over to the lockers and is meet by a soft kiss on the lips by Gabriella. "Hi babe…" He says softly and place another kiss other soft lips.
"Morning, slept well?" She asks sweetly and he knows exactly what to say to make her happy and he smiles shaking his head.
"I missed you!" He chuckles softly and throws down the books he will need during the day, he puts his arm around her tiny waist, a waist he wants to have.
"I missed you to, the bed is very cold and empty when you are not there!" She says a little to dramatically, ever since they had sex she had been glued on to Troy, and sometimes he thought it was sweet but when you want to be alone with the guys she isn't really welcomed in the group.
"I had Chad this weekend but he is not as cosy as you are!" He says and gives Chad playful grin. He pulls Gabriella tighter to his hard frame, kissing the top of her head gently. "Wanna head to homeroom?" He asks and looks around the group.
They start walking to the homeroom were Ms. Darbus sat waiting for them to come inside so she could give her beloved students the lesson about Shakespeare and her years as a Broadway actress! The whole gang sits down in their places, Troy sat in the back and took up a note book and started to calculate how much weight he needs to lose before it can count as an acceptable weight, 150 pounds that was his goal, at least for now.
"Troy! Are you listening?" Ms. Darbus in a sharp tone to him, he looks up and nods slowly and lied and told her that he was taking notes on what she was saying! Ms. Darbus looked shocked when he said this but continues to talk.
Troy continued to write down the easiest meal to skip without anyone getting suspicious, lunch was the easiest if his friends didn't bother to ask him why he didn't eat anything, he couldn't forget every day, no there has to be some other way to eat the food, but don't keep it down his throat. He sat and thought for a moment, and laughed at himself it was so easy all he had to do was to throw up the food again! He had to look that up when he came home later this afternoon, see what the dangers are if you are throwing up on a regular basis!
The bell rang and throw his book down in his bag then he and the rest of the class ran out the classroom, the group rejoined and cheeked which ones had classes together and not, Troy Chad and Sharpay had math together and they started to walk down the hallway to the waiting math lesson.
"Brad has been trying to call me and tell me he is sorry!" Chad suddenly says in a low whisper in the middle of the class.
"What? Why?" Troy was shocked, Brad had broken up with Chad then why the hell was he now trying to call him and say he is sorry, Chad had a hard time enough! Now he was back again trying to crush his heart once again.
"He says he did a mistake and he really loves me and wants us to get back together…" Chad says silently doodling in the book.
"So what are you gonna do about it?" Troy asks carefully, scared that his best friend will break out in tears or anything this second.
"I don't know, I mean I really love him but I think the chance is big that he will dump me again of… You know! And I don't want that to happen again, once is enough!" Chad says broken still not looking up at Troy, his eyes was glued to the paper in front of him.
"Personally I don't think you should go back to him, you can have so much better, someone that is actually patient and cares about you!" Troy says softly and rubs Chad's knee softly, the teacher gave them a warning look and then he turned back his attention to the student that needed help.
"I know that, but I just don't know what to do… I will give it a few days then I will give him my answer…" Chad finally says.
"I will support you in whatever choice you make, even if I won't like it you get back together with the pig!" Troy mutters and Chad smiles, he loved Troy he had always cared about him no matter what and he knew if Brad hurt him again he wouldn't see tomorrow, it wasn't the first time Troy had kicked someone ass for being mean or rude to Chad.
"I know Troy, I know but you haft to let me figure out this on my own…" Chad says softly to his friend and then they turn back to the math problem that was supposed to be done in seven minutes, and there was no doubt that the boys wouldn't finish.
"You who aren't done with the problems I have given you will have it as home work to next week!" Mr. Lokel says as the bell finally rings and the students getting up from the chairs was sounding louder than Mr. Lokel so the possibility that someone heard was very low!
Troy looked after Sharpay as she ran away, probably having a quickie with Zeke before the next lesson, Troy just shook his head at his horny friends! "Can I come over tonight?" A voice broke Troy's own thoughts he looked around and saw that Gabriella was staring at him.
"I don't know… My mom and dad wanted to have some family dinner." Lie! "So I am sorry some other time though I promise!" Lie again, Troy was gonna break it off with Gabriella soon, he couldn't risk her finding out about his dieting then she would tell his father and it would be like hell!
"Okay…" Gabriella says slight disappointed, it was obvious but Troy couldn't care less really right now, he needed to do this on his own! So Gabriella couldn't be close to him it would just ruin the whole idea.
"Don't be sad okay, if I could make my parents change their mind I would but mom is leaving in two days for a month to Japan! Expanding her company even more!" He says hurt on the inside!
"She is always away isn't she?" Gabriella asks, he was about to answer when the bell for next period was ringing he gave her a quick kiss on the cheek and left her standing there. He closes his eyes forcing the tears to stay inside his eyes, he couldn't cry now! No one could see him cry it would just make people wonder!
The day went on great, and now it was lunch, the time Troy had feared all day! Now it would show if he could keep it a secret that he didn't eat, he walked into the cafeteria and to the table were the 'Cool' kids were, he sits down between Gabriella and Ryan.
"Aren't you eating anything?" Gabriella asks confused, since he was usually half trough his sandwich when he sat down with them and now he had nothing?
"No I over slept this morning and I had to run to the car first thing otherwise I would be late!" Troy says lying to his friends and a pang of guilt showed itself in his stomach, or maybe it was just the hunger he didn't know! Maybe both.
"Wanna have half of mine?" Gabriella asks softly. Unwillingly he nods and takes half her sandwich feeling the jelly going straight to his thighs.
"Thanks babe…" He smiles weakly and places a soft kiss on her temple. He finishes it up quickly then he excuses himself that he needed to use the bathroom, he runs down the empty corridors and to the boys restroom, he goes in on the first toilet and down on his knees, he hesitates for a second then he bends his head over the seat and he pushes two fingers down his throat and his breakfast and lunch go straight up, it tastes weird in his mouth but he washes the worst taste out with water and then he goes back to his waiting friends.
"You okay?" Gabriella asks worried about her boyfriend. He nods carefully and sits down again next to her and kisses her cheek tenderly. "You breathe smells horrible!" She says she gives him a worried look.
"Nothing wrong with it!" Troy defends himself. "And of its so horrible you have any gum so it goes away?" He asks, she searched through her purse and gave him some gum that he started chewing on at once.
The others was looking at Troy suspiciously were he sat, he had never once acted like this before, and they all knew it was just the beginning.
The bell rang and Troy went to his locker to get his books, it felt like everyone was staring at him and he sighs trying to ignore the looks, he knew why they looked at him, he was fat and everyone besides him knew it! Why hadn't anyone told him earlier?! They were supposed to be his friends and they should care about him! He shut his locker closed and went to the next lesson. He didn't pay were much attentions in the lesson his mind was screaming one thing. FOOD! I WANT FOOD! He sighs and look down on the book, he tried to focus on something else, anything else but food, but right now he had biology and they were studying the digestive system and of course it was pictures on food that helped the digestive system to melt it easier, he groans silently and looks at the teacher who was talking.
"The food goes down your throat…" The teacher was talking and Troy shut his voice out, not really caring about the digestive system! He sighs and start doodle a little, Troy had always liked drawing and he draw a lot on his spare time, to his surprise when he draw it was two boys kissing, he knows that it was him and Chad, was he really falling for Chad? He questions himself. No Chad and him are best friends, brothers! There was no way Chad was gonna feel the same!
He glances at the watch, 25 minutes left, "Are you bored Troy?" The teacher asks in a disgusting caring voice.
"Of course not!" Troy smiles sweetly, "I live for learning about the digestive system!" He says slight sarcastic, but the teacher didn't seem to notice when he got back on drawing on the white board.
Troy went back to his doodling, on the picture with him and Chad, He draw more in detail and putted on shadows, when the class had ended he was pretty happy with the result. He put it in between some pages so no one would see it, he gets up from the chair and walks out the room, happy he has gym now, something he actually liked and was good at. He walks towards the locker rooms and is meet up by Zeke. They chat a bit and then they change and head out to the gym, seeing almost the whole class there and his father waiting for them.
"Okay, today we are running! And it's not how fast it goes what's important, the most important thing is that you make it!" The coach says and those on the basketball teams knows they have to go pretty fast to show that they are still shape enough to stay on the team!
Troy and Zeke takes the lead at once, but after the half the track Troy speeds up even more knowing he has to go faster so he can lose more weight and hopefully run one more lap before the lesson ends. His heart was pounding faster than ever before, he felt how his muscles was screaming after more oxygen and his stomach was screaming after food this was pure hell, but he knew that he needed to get through this and lose the weight he needed to lose then he would be fine!
He got in the gym again were his dad was waiting.
"Done already?" His dad asks suspicious.
After a few seconds of regaining his normal breathing he finally answered. "Yeah!" He says still finding it hard to breath normal.
"That must be a new record of yours Troy! I am proud of you!" His father smiles warmly and writes down the time on his clipboard. Troy looked at his father and feels he is ripping apart on the inside, why had his own father lie to him? Wasn't he someone that would tell him truth! But it seemed like he was wrong.
"So... Uhm when was mom leaving for Japan?" Troy asks he was pretty sure that it was in two days but then again everything changes pretty quickly when it came to his mothers business so she might as well leave tonight!
"She is leaving tomorrow at lunch!" His father says a little sad.
"What?! I thought she was leaving on Thursday!!" He says upset. "But let me guess the planes changed as usual!" He says feeling angry.
"Troy this is your mothers dream!" His father says in a harsh tone at his son.
"So her dream you can encourage but not mine, that is fantastic dad really!" Troy says staring in his father's eyes, "I thought that what you always told me when I was younger, that you would support me in whatever decision I make for my future and now when you do know what I want for my future you get mad because it's not what you wanted!" Troy feels the anger boil in his blood, he hated when his father acted like this, when he crushed his dreams.
"We'll talk about this later!" His father says when he sees the other students come in the gym, Troy gives him a fake smile and starts looking after Zeke. Some one that could cheer him before he actually went home and talked more with his father.
"Zeke! What the hell took you so long?!" Troy asks when his friend comes inside.
"Shar texted and since she had free period one thing lead to another…" Zeke grins happily.
"Zeke my friend I beginning to think that you stay in shape of all the fucking you get!" Troy says with an annoyed face.
"At least some of us get something!" He says with a huge grin on his face.
"Who said I didn't get anything! You have no idea what's going on between me and Gabriella…" He says still annoyed, that was also one thing he hated when people assumed things about him and his personal life.
"So you and Gabriella have finally had sex! So how was it?" Zeke asks with even more interest.
"You know what? That is none of your damn business!" Troy says and walks away.
"So that bad huh? That must be heartbreaking!" Zeke shouts after his annoyed friend. He thought that at least Zeke would be a little more supportive then he was now, urgh why was everyone pressuring him about everything!?
"Troy sweetheart!" His mother was sucking up to him… again! Like she always did when she was going away, trying to buy his love with sweet words and material things.
"What mom?" He asks trying to sound curious about what she is gonna say, even if he knows it already.
"You know that I would leave for Ja--" He cut her off.
"You are leaving tomorrow at noon I know! Have a great time, see you in a month!" He says without any emotion and goes to his room, locking himself in the room.
Someone knocked on the door. "Troy baby don't be mad okay? I know that you don't like me going away but you really haft to understand that I love you and really don't wanna go--" He stopped listing after that, if she didn't wanna go then don't go simple as that, it was just empty words trying make her feel better about herself, for leaving her son and husband for a month.
He had no idea what she had been saying when she finally left and to be honest he didn't care, as long as she wasn't bugging him about it, he was happy. He sat down at the laptop and started searching for more diet ways but he didn't find anything about it really. He knows that his idea is what's gonna work best for now! Until he had lost the weight he needed to lose!
"TROY DINNERS READY!" Anne shouts and he sighs and he gets up from his position and he goes to the dining room where his parents are waiting for him to sit down. He sits down and looks down on his plate so much food, a third of the plate was rise and sauce was on it with two chicken breasts and some salad on the side.
"It looks fantastic Anne!" His mother says cheerfully. She starts eating on the dinner happily and talk with her father. "So how was work?" She asks.
"It was great Troy made a new track record today!" He says and smiles to Troy who picks at his plate.
"That is fantastic Troy, I am so happy for you, maybe you should join the track team to?" His mothers says encouraging
"Yeah maybe…" He says without interest. He takes the last bit of food on his plate.
"Do you want more sweetie?" She asks warmly.
"No thanks mom I am fine…" He says and pushes the plate away from him.
"But it's your favourite Troy…" His mother says shocked, she had never once heard her son to say no thanks to food.
"Really mom and I fine!" He says harsh and leaves the table, he goes to the bathroom and he bends down like he did earlier this day two fingers go down his throat and he feels his stomach fighting to keep it down but soon enough it's up and it goes down the toilet, his whole dinner went up and now there was no way in hell that he could have gained any weight today!
He stands up and brushes his teeth to get rid of his horrible breath that was made when he threw up! When he was done there he went back to his room and starts on his homework. When his dad came in, he knew that he wanted to continue the talk they started in the school.
"What dad?" He asks not taking his eyes of the books.
"I think you know what this is about Troy!" His father says as he sits down on his bed. "Could you at least look at me?" He father asks.
"Why? So I can see the happiness in your eyes when you crush my dream?" He asks sarcastic and turns around to look at his father.
"No, I wanna know what made you change your mind… And why you didn't tell me or your mother earlier?" He asks gently.
"Because I knew that you would react that way, getting mad for me having my own dreams and plans!" He says upsets. "And no Gabriella has nothing to do with this or any other of y friends! This all me and my dream! And it is my future!" He says hurt.
"I know Troy, but I still think you should have told me…" His father says.
"Dad don't get me wrong, I love basketball I really do, but that is not a secure future! I can break my knee and then everything is ruined and I have nothing else to stand on!" He says. "So please tell me what's so negative to get a real education?" He asks his father.
"There is nothing wrong with it, I just thought becoming a basketball player was your big dream…" He says.
I know I wanted it when I was younger but when you are 8 everything is about to become famous! But now my dreams have changed." He says seriously.
"Troy can you promise me something…" He asks.
"Depends on what it is…" He says.
"Never keep something like this from me again okay?" He asks.
"I promise dad…" Jack stood up and gave his son a quick hug and kiss on the forehead.
"I love you son…" He whispers.
"I love you too dad…" Troy says in a low tone, then he watches his dad walk out of the room and he continues to looks on the dieting pages!
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