Daughter - Landfill

Throw me in a landfill
Don't think about the consequences
Throw me in the dirt pit
Don't think about the choices that you make
Throw me in the water
Don't think about the splash I will create
Leave me at the altar
Knowing all the things you just escaped

Push me out to sea
On a little boat that you made
Out of the evergreen that you helped your father cut away
Leave me on the tracks
To wait until the morning train arrives
Don't you dare look back
Walk away
Catch up with the sunrise

'Cause this is torturous electricity
Between both of us and this is
Dangerous 'cause I want you so much
But I hate your guts
I hate you

So leave me in the cold
Wait until the snow covers me up
So I cannot move
So I'm just embedded in the frost
Then leave me in the rain
Wait until my clothes cling to my frame
Wipe away your tear stains
Thought you said you didn't feel pain

Well this is torturous electricity
Between both of us and this is
Dangerous, 'cause I want you so much
But I hate your guts. I want you so much
But I hate your guts.
Well this is torturous
Electricity between both of us
And this is dangerous 'cause I want you so much
But I hate your guts
I want you so much but I hate your guts

Jacob's POV:

"I'm not going to ride on that death machine with you, are you crazy?" Anna crossed her arms and shook her head in protest when I was trying to convince her to hop on my motorcycle. Her long hair was glistening in the sun and she wore a pair of light blue jeans shorts and a yellow plaid flannel shirt that was a few sizes too big, covered her upper body and underneath she had a tight, white, tank top. I could see her beautiful curves since she left the flannel shirt unbuttoned, a fact that didn't make it easier not to want her all over me, in the slightest.

"I promise you, you'll never get hurt when you ride with me" I said as convincing as I could. I wanted her to trust me, even though she shouldn't. She really, really shouldn't. Emily had printed my brain with her scar and it scared me half to death even imagining hurting Anna like that.

Billy and Karen joined us outside and watched as I put the polished black fairings into place.

"I've ridden on that one" Karen said proudly and pointed towards the motorcycle, in case someone would think she meant my little, red Volkswagen rabbit. Which would've been more likely than me taking her out on this 'Death machine' as Anna chose to call it.

"YOU have been on that?" Anna asked a bit shocked. I got up and scraped off the dirt from my knees and saw Anna's face change slightly from terrified to curious as I joined in on the conversation.

"Yeah, she sure has" I confirmed and Karen lit up.

"As it was in motion?" Anna questioned as if we tried to fool her or something.

"He is very talented at manoeuvring that thing. And the rush you get!"

Karen was such a 'mom', taking care of everyone, making sure everyone was feeling alright and if not she always did her best to help. But she sure could let loose as well. A lot of energy in that one! I blushed at Karens words, but I was happy that she seemed to be convincing Anna to ride with me.

"Well if she's done it.." Anna said a bit hesitant.

"You don't have to, we can take the Rabbit or simply just walk through the Res." I suggested now that I knew that she at least trusted me enough to consider it. Even though her arms around my body was a thought I couldn't let go of.

Her arms, her legs, her..

Ok, I think we get the picture, buddy.

Anna let out a nervous laugh and shook her head.

"No, no. I want to try it" she stated, not as hesitant this time.

"Alright, hop on then" I said and started it up. The rumbling noise made Anna take two steps back, almost tripping and falling on her butt in the mud. She was caught by Karen fortunately as she just looked at the motorcycle. All the while I was looking at her. She was so cute where she stood, no painter in the world could've ever recreated her beauty to its fullest, I was sure of it. Karen whispered something to her and then they both looked at me before Anna walked up to me and got on without a flinch. It surprised me, what had Karen said to her?

I handed her the helmet and she put it on and adjusted the straps, then she gave it a little nudge to prove that it was in securely in place.

"Where is yours then, mr tough guy?" She asked with a smirk.

I chuckled and knocked on my head.

"Bonehead like this can take anything"

"Let's go, then!" Was that excitement I could define in her voice? Then she placed her arms around my body and I had a hard time controlling my breath. My heart was beating so fast just by her touch and it got me sad in a way. I wanted this to be a date. I wanted to take her out this sunny day and treat her like the princess she was, but I couldn't. If things got weird between us, if she turned me down, I'd still have to live with her heartbroken and it would probably make me go insane in no time. It was hard just imagining her not wanting me in her life, since I needed her in mine.

But if you had a choice?

I'd still choose her. After knowing that she exists, how could I ever go with another option?

Well, there is ONE other option but that goes down a very short and dark, dark path.

The wind caught my hair as we went out on the small road next to the house. Her hands tightened around my waist and I felt a rush that went through my entire spine from her touch. I could feel her chest pressed up against my warm back and the adrenaline pumped through my veins.

What was she doing to me?

Our first stop was Sam's place. I hadn't talked to Sam yet, nor with Billy. I still hadn't found out a way to tell either of them that I had imprinted and all I really wanted to do was to ride off, away from this tribe, away from Billy and Karen, away from Sam and away from the house we lived in, so that it could be just us. Me and Anna.

Dude, you're crazy. What exactly do you think would happen then? That she'd begin to see you as 'Jake, the exiting guy that she eloped with and then fell madly in love with'?

Maybe?

This isn't a movies you know? She'd probably see you as 'Jake, the idiot who kidnapped her against her will, tried to force her to fall in love with him so she call the cops and you ends up in a mental hospital.'

Even that is better than being 'Jake, her stupid fucking step bro'.. Ew.

Alrighty then, Straightjacket-Jake, but either way it ends up with you two NOT falling in love. At least living with her is a way for you to see her every day.

I was right, that was what mattered after all. I had to focus on that, but it was hard not wanting her more and more. No it wasn't hard, that's an understatement. This was fucking torture.

I almost wanted to take a detour just so that she would hold me longer but only five minutes later I could see Sam's house torn up down the road.

I leaned the motorcycle against the house and waited for her to get her helmet off. Then I went up the porch and let her in first and then stepped inside myself.

"No knock, no nothing?" She asked a bit surprised.

"Nah, that's not how we roll here in the Res" I said and chuckled.

"How is it that we roll here?" I heard Seth's voice and then saw his head pop up in a doorframe that led to the kitchen.

"With style and fucking finesse, how else?" Embry said before we even came inside. As we stepped into the kitchen it looked as if Anna got a bit overwhelmed by all the people that were there.

"YOU do that Embry? I really couldn't tell!" Quill said and laughed loudly and me and Seth joined in.

"This is Anna, Karens daughter" I couldn't present her as my stepsister, I just couldn't. All their heads shot up and looked at her and I instantly put my arm lightly around her as I noticed some of them checking her out.

Nothing wrong with a friendly embrace, right?

"It's so nice to finally meet you, Anna! When did you arrive?" Sam asked.

"Yes, hi! It's nice to meet you all, I came yesterday actually" I could tell that Anna got slightly nervous from all the looks.

"Oh, I thought that Jake might've been keeping you to himself for a while since Karen came months ago. He has serious sharing issues." Jared joked and smirked towards me.

"What the fuck do you mean by that? Are you implying something?" I asked, way, way more defensive than I normally would. The others looked a bit shocked at my sudden mood change.

"Whoa Jake, come on? It was a joke. Got and issue with jokes perhaps?" Jared held up his hands as to show that he meant no harm.

"Why do you keep saying I have issues, perhaps you're the one who'll have a big fucking issue if you don't shut your mouth about shit you know nothing about?" I growled.

"Jake, hey? Hey! Come on. Just come with me out back and let the girls talk for a while?" Sam asked calmly and I saw Emily make her way over to a very confused, Anna. This was not how it was meant to go.

Sam took me by the shoulders and led me out of the kitchen, I looked back at Anna one more time, her and Emily were smiling towards one another so I could relax slightly before leaving her and heading out back.

"So, you've imprinted?"

"What? What the fuck is up with all these accusations?" I began to shake now.

How did he know? Was it that obvious?

"But you have, right? It's pretty obvious, dude!"

Apparently..

"Yeah, so? It's not like I can do anything about it anyway. I mean she's my.."

"Stepsister? Oh come on! What are you? Twelve? It's not like you guys are related or have grown up together or anything."

"It's not just that."

"Then what is it? What is it that you're trying to convince me is a reason to fight your own fate?"

"What about Billy's fate then? What if it goes wrong and it ruins something between him and Karen?"

"What if, what if, what if? You can't live by "what if's" man. I mean sure it's good not to make rash decisions but you can not fight this Jake. It'll tare you up inside if you do and those bags under your eyes does not look good on you" he said and nudged me and I felt my whole body relax as I joined in on his chuckle.

"I guess you're right"

"Of course I am right, Billy will understand, it's not like you've got any choice here."

He was absolutely right, this wasn't on me. I didn't know who this was on. Her? No one? Or God, perhaps? If there even is one. But it sure as hell wasn't on me. I couldn't control this in the least.

"Congratulations, dude!" He patted my shoulder and gave me a wink before we headed inside.

"Thanks, I guess?" I said but I wasn't so sure this was something to congratulate, not yet anyway. She could still turn me down even though I had decided not to hold back anymore.