Felinis: Considering my inability to go two minutes without making a joke I am outstanded by how serious the tone of this fic is. Although my inner monologue is not as eloquent as this. Also, I found the manga that inspired the gender bender idea I had for this originally. It's called Clear Up After The Rain. It's really good. I'm still not sure if I want to make this a gender bender fic. Should I? If anyone thinks that's a good idea say so. I've been debating it in my head and I'm still not sure what to do.

It was pathetic. So pathetic, because even knowing that Estellise had broken his heart he still liked her company. Flynn haunted her path from afar. He loved Estellise. He really did. He loved her smile and the way she cracked jokes. He loved reading books with her. He loved her brilliant mind. He just loved her.

And she had flat out dumped him while they had a study date.

Flynn kept wondering where it all went wrong. He must have made a mistake. He must have. That was it! Somehow, he must have screwed up and said something wrong. Estellise still wanted to be friends so perhaps there was a chance. He hoped so.

Yuri told him to let it go. To stop being childish. But, he wasn't.

Flynn wondered who it really was who had Estellise's heart. She talked with Yuri often. Was it him? Before Flynn even comprehended there was jealousy blooming in him. Because, his best friend was close with the girl who'd broken his heart a few weeks ago. But, the few weeks became a few months.

He didn't even register that he'd been avoiding his friend till the teacher forced everyone into pairs. Normally, he'd already be sitting next to Yuri ready to drag his friend through the assignment.

This time Yuri was sitting across the room from him working with another guy. Then Flynn remembered. Oh, right. Why had this happened? In a way, Flynn knew. It was his jealousy and his stubborn pride. He didn't want to admit that he'd been avoiding him. It felt wrong to say. It felt wrong to think. Even more to say.

The next week when he was at book club Estellise asked if Flynn would tag along to party at her place.

It was raining when he arrived at her house. Estellise's family were well off folks and had a home that some might consider a mansion. Flynn had gotten a little soaked on the way over and was happy to get inside someplace dry. She greeted him warmly and once inside he was made immediately uneasy by the sight of Yuri.

They greeted each other awkwardly. And spent the evening at separate ends of the room. He tried to talk with Yuri. Flynn wanted for them to go back to hanging out with each other. But, his friend was being distant.

He went to the balcony and sighed on the railing. The light drizzle of rain hit him, but he could care less. Why was any of this happening?

"Flynn?"

He turned to Estellise who was looking at him with deep concern. "What's wrong? Are you not having fun?" She pressed right next to him and joined him in looking out into her backyard. "Did you and Yuri have a fight?"

He stiffened a little. "I thought so. Lately, it seemed like you were avoiding him."

"Was it that obvious?"

She nodded. "I don't know what happened between you two, but I want you to fix it. Both of you have been grouchy for too long." Estellise poked his shoulder. "I don't want to be mean, but you're both bumming everyone out."

Flynn looked to the wet wooden floors of the balcony. "I'm sorry."

"Tell that to Yuri. You two are best friends!" she exclaimed. "Promise me you'll try and make up?"

"I promise." He muttered reluctantly.

"Good." Estellise was about to walk off when he grabbed her hand.

"Can I ask you something?" Flynn sputtered nervously.

Estellise looked at him a little nervously. This whole time they avoided the topic. Flynn never mentioned his broken hear and Estellise never mentioned who it was she'd left him for. But, now felt like as good a time as any. "Where did I go wrong?"

Her green eyes looked at him strongly and se composed herself. "Flynn, I do love you." He caught his breath. "But, like a brother. You always protected me and treated me like a princess. You were like the Amber Knight from the stories." And the bullet to his heart hit. "When you asked me out I figured I should say yes. It wouldn't hurt to. I thought maybe I did like you romantically." He felt numb. "But, the longer it went on the more I realized I didn't. I kept thinking about love and being in love. The night I told you…" She stopped and bit her lip. "That night I realized I liked someone else. It all just sort of came out." She sighed. "I'm sorry Flynn. I want us to still be friends though. I want us to be close. Will you forgive me?"

Flynn didn't cry. He'd already let out his tears over his heartbreak. And he didn't feel angry. He just felt numb. Estellise's words were opioids in his blood. "I forgive you." The words felt so dry and fake. "I think I'll go home." He started to leave much to Estellise's calls for him to come back. He wanted to be alone.

Flynn was at the door when a hand placed itself on his shoulder. "Flynn, Estelle's calling for you. Stop a sec'."

Flynn wasn't in the mood for this. "Shut up and leave me alone!"

"What's wrong with you?"

"Nothing! Nothing is wrong with me."

Yuri was getting angry. "Then just calm down and come back to the party."

Flynn would then do something he'd forever regret. He punched Yuri square in the jaw. His friend stared at him in pain. Slack-jawed and confused. This second the rage calmed down Flynn regretted it. He'd never hurt his friend before. Not like this. He flew out the door into the rain and ran away as fast as he could.

Felins: Wow, look at all that angst.