Relationship Difficulties(ish)
Relationship Difficulties(ish)
Decision
Stunned. It was the only adjective I could think of to describe how I felt at that moment. Sill, it didn't seem strong enough. Then I considered the look Booth would get on his face when he found out and came very close to bursting into hysterical giggles. It was only then that the thought struck me; I didn't know if Brennan was going to tell him. I didn't even know if Brennan planed to keep the child. Those were probably good things to know, but how to phrase the question so as not to set Temperance off again?
"Sweetie…?" I questioned cautiously.
"I'm not fragile. You don't have to treat me like I'm on my death bed! It's rather the opposite" she snapped, only to follow it up with some mutterings about "Now if we lived in any time other than the post-modern era that would be quite another story…"
"Sorry" I mumbled feeling like a reprimanded school girl. "I just wondered… umm…" The glare she gave me told me I had better spit it out. "Well… have you decided… I mean… are you… keeping the baby?" My voice was so high by the end of the sentence that I was amazed anyone but dogs could hear it.
She must have though because she let out a harsh laugh that startled me before saying darkly "decided? I'm still not entirely sure I believe any of this is happening."
"Oh" was all I said, but it seemed to be too much for her to handle because she burst into tears. Running to her side and enveloping her in my arms I just started talking; trying to comfort my best friend while attempting to avoid having my head bitten off and way out of my element. I hoped for the sake of everyone involved this was not a sampler of Brennan on pregnancy hormones. The normally overly rational, totally controlled anthropologist was an emotional wreck. Not that I was likely to say that anywhere near Tempe. It might be better not to think it around her with her recently improved intuitive skills.
"It's ok Sweetie. We're all here for you, whether you choose to follow through with this pregnancy or not, or if you do and choose to put the child up for adoption or into a foster home. No matter what, all of us will be there for you, whether you need ice-cream at 3 am or someone to hold you hand during the birth or the abortion. You won't be in this alone."
A minute of quiet sobs preceded her next words. I have to assume she was rationalizeing saying them at all. "What if something happens…? What if it's like my parents, what if I have to go away? At least if I send the child away now it won't know, it's not truly human yet, no blood runs through its veins." She sound as if she were in physical pain; I suspect this is the biggest moral dilemma she had ever been in.
"You won't have to go away."
"You can't guarantee that."
"Your right, but I can guarantee this: It will never be alone. It will have me and Cam and Hodgins and Zack and your dad and Russ, but most of all, it will have Booth. He would never let harm or unhappiness come to anyone you cared for, be it his child or not."
"Do you promise?"
"Of course I do!" Perhaps I wasn't completely out of my league because when she looked up she was no longer crying. In fact, she was smiling, albeit only a little.
"I think I'm going to be a mom, Ange." I didn't question her phrasing. The tears were back, except this time they were not for anger, or sorrow, or worry, they were for something that wasn't quite joy, more like the expectation of bliss to come.
"I look forward to being a doting aunt." I was happy for Bones. A touch nervous (An overly hormonal Temperance was a scary thought), but pleased. She would always doubt herself but one of us would always be there to push her back into the light when she fell into the dark hole of despair, because no matter how much she denied it, she had emotions. The past few hours had been more that enough evidence to convince any jury. Not that Brennan had peers, exactly…
Wiggling slightly in my embrace she reached over and pulled my cell off the table. "Found your phone" was all she said as she handed it to me. But I understood. Now she needed Booth.
A/N: I am going camping for the next week and then school is starting so my next update may take a little while. I am sorry and promise to post chapter five as soon as possible.