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Here I was standing like a idiot, waiting for him of all people. At 3 a.m. I might add, something was clearly wrong with me! 'Glancing down at my phone, noting it read 2:55'. Not going to lie I'd thought long and hard before finally putting myself together enough to come out here. There was something about him, that I honestly wasn't quit sure what it was. But he brought this whole new feeling of excitement and want. An abandonment in me I never experienced before. He was dark, secretive, and for some reason I found him oddly attractive. He wasn't this pretty preppy boy like I was originally used to. No he dressed well and beyond his years, even talked it. Yet he was only 17. Every time I tried to pull myself away from him, this odd pull only gravitated me back closer to him.

"Miss Me?" he states as he rolls down his window.

"No!" smirking, while putting her hands on her hips.

"Well, I see you decided to come."

"Yeah, well you didn't really give me much of choice Bass"

"I'd like to think I did." he states while opening the door and scooting over.

"Uh.. what are we doing here exactly?" looking around the empty amusement park.

"What?" turning his head back to face her "Don't like to ride?" he states.

"No.. its just well.. Chuck its three something in the morning, and you brought me to a deserted Amusement Park!" rolling her eyes at him.

"Exactly!" grabbing her hand and leading her further into the park "No people, no lines!"

"You forgot one major detail to your little plan." she comes to a stop, halting him to.

"And what would that be Princess?" looking down at her.

"How are we suppose to ride any rides without someone to operate them?" raising her eyes up at him.

"Easy, I've got someone to operate them." pulling her along till they come to a stop at the big roller-coaster.

"You think of everything don't you?" she states, once she see's in fact a older man standing just ahead.

"Yes well I do try to be on point, when making dates!" he smirks.

"Oh, so this is a date now?" smirking back "And here I thought Chuck Bass didn't do dates!" teasingly she says.

"I.. I don't!" damn it, he fucked up on that one. Watching her grin at him. "Would you just shut up and come on!" he smiles back.

"You should probably know that I'm a bit scared of heights" looking over at him, as the coaster starts to incline up the hill.

"Well then this should be more then interesting then!" laughing at her fear full eyes. "Ouch!" he begins to rub his arm she only momentarily hit. "That hurt!"

"Oh boohoo did I hurt the little baby?" pouting out her lips "Maybe next time you wont be so inconsiderate!" she sarcastically states. "Don't cry too hard!"

"Yeah, we'll see who's going to be crying here soon!" he states. Coming to the very top of the drop.

"Oh my gosh Chuck, we're... we're up so high!" she yells out. Instantly grabbing his arm for better measures of safety.

"Blair" he chuckles lightly "Blair, your squeezing my arm off!" he cant help but laugh at her antics at the moment.

"Chuck.. Chuck Bass, I don't like this!" Feeling the coaster begin to descend the drop. "AHH...AHH..." she screams.

"Waldorf calm down.." he tries to get out, during her freak out. Finally he wraps his arms around her and holds her close. "Blair look at me!"

"Bass, I cant this.. this is to scary" she says but still turns her face too look at him. Feeling his arms wrapped around her in the moment sends a somewhat calming effect on her too.

"Look at me, every things fine, you're fine!" nodding his head "Shut your eyes"

"Huh?" staring at him with a bewildered face.

"Just trust me, shut your eyes!" watching her eyes finally shut. "Feel the motion, the wind blowing through your hair, onto your skin, into your soul even." he whispers into her ear. His lips touching her so innocently yet somehow provocative in a way. "Blair feel me, feel my arms wrapped around you tightly. I have you! Now hold your arms up into the air, like your a bird, like your finally free!" Watching her shake her head no "Do you feel me, my arms around you, holding you securely? I wont let you go!" he squeezes her more tightly. "Do it, let go, be free!"

In that moment, he watches her arms release the bar. Watching them float high and above her head, the once scared face takes on a face of joy, of excitement. She smiles with her eyes still shut. And for some odd reason he feels an unfamiliar stirring in his gut. Glancing away only momentarily before returning his eyes back to her. Its then he see's her eyes are opened wide and staring back at him.

"Is this what it feels like to be free?" she asks, feeling no longer afraid.

"This is only a taste of what it feels like!" his eyes boring straight into hers.

"So this is what it feels like to be Chuck Bass!" smiling brightly.

"Yeah, I guess you can say that." he states, noting the ride finally coming to an end.

They'd road that coaster two more times that night. Blair no longer being afraid. Went on the bumper cars, before finally finishing out the night on the carousel not by Chucks choice but more so on Blair's count. She'd shared stories of a time long forgotten, a time of pretty curls, pinked cheeks. Little laughs, fluffy dresses. With a wonderful father, and perfect life. She was no longer that little girl who was afraid of the bigger more scarier things. No being with Chuck made things easier, yet complicated too. But having him with her, she was sure she'd be able to conquer anything that came her way.

"You should think about coming out to Butter tonight with all of us!" she looks over at him while pouring her measurement into a beaker.

"Me, at Butter?" looking down at his paper "Is that some kind of Joke?" lifting his head to look at her.

"No joke about it.." raising her eyes at him. "Oh come on... it'll be fun!"

"Yeah thanks, but no thanks! I like myself way to much to subject myself to that kind of entertainment for countless of hours!" he states while lighting the Bunsen burner.

"Okay, if you insist. But don't say I never invited you to anything!"

"Well that's one invitation I'd gladly give back! Sorry but your on your own on that one!"

'Okay so this officially sucked!' she thought to herself as the swirled around her martini, watching the olive go round and round. Normally a night out at Butter with friends consisted of fun. But now she found herself bored out of her damn mind! Glancing over at her friend Serena who already seemed a bit tipsy. Watching her down shot after shot with some of the other girls. Nate was around too, where at, at this moment she wasn't quit sure. Probably off getting hammered with the rest of the lacrosse team no doubt!

"Oh my gosh B, did you see what Penelope just did?" she drunkenly slurs out.

"Nope, unfortunately not!" she states.

"She was making out with some old guy in one of the back booths!" making a grossed out face.

"Yeah, sounds fantastic!" sounding non-interested.

"What..what's wrong?" noting her friends enthusiasm or lack there of!

"Nothing S, just have a headache that's all! I'm going to run to the restroom and head home."

"I'll come with you!" getting up from her seat to follow.

"No, you stay here, have fun!" smiling at her blonde bombshell friend.

"Okay, if you insist. I guess I'll talk to you tomorrow?"

"Yeah!" turning to leave "Oh, if you see Nate."

"I'll tell him you had to leave early due to a headache. No worries I got you!"

"Thanks S, your the best!" finally taking her leave towards the back of the club, where the restrooms were located.

"Having fun without me I see!" he states once she walks out of the bathroom.

"What.." she states before turning around, its then she see's Chuck standing only inches away "Chuck, what are you doing here?"

"Oh nothing just having the time of life of course!" he smirks at her.

"Really?" folding her arms and looking at him "Because this is the first I've seen you all night, so clearly you wasn't having fun here!"

"Oh but I was!" folding his arms back at her "Clearly you haven't though, your not even tipsy yet!"

"And you are!" she states while challenging him. Watching his shoulders lift into the air, with an amused expression on his face. Which only causes her to bust out laughing.

"Come!" he states while turning around.

"Chuck, where.. where are we going?" she states as she follows behind him.

"Just come, I want to show you something!" coming to a stop at the elevator doors. watching them open and the both of them step in.

"Chuck, what are we doing?" looking around "I didn't even know this place had elevators back here.

"Sh... patience my dear!" he states before pulling out a small key from his pocked and inserting it into the small slot on the panel.

"Are.. are you suppose to have that?" she nervously says.

"Waldorf, if you don't stop asking me question then I'm not going to show you my secret spot!" looking at her, noticing her mouth come to a halt.

"Oh my gosh this place is beautiful Chuck!" glancing around on the roof top terrace.

"Yeah, its definitely something else up here!" he states, as he walks closer to the big windows that give the perfect view of all the entertainment down below.

"So this is Chuck Bass's secret spot huh?" she states as she walks over and sets on the ledge near the windows, next to Chuck. "Not a secret anymore! I know now!"

"True, but even some secrets must be shared!" he smirks at her before watching her eyes grow larger at the sight below them.

"So this is what it feels like to be on the other side!" she states while looking over at him. "I've never been on this side!"

"Yeah and, I've never been on that side!" turning to look at her.

"You're not missing much!"

"Really and here I thought you were the Queen of all of them!" glancing back down at all the drunken fools drinking, laughing, and dancing around. "You know like you say jump and they say how high type of thing!"

"Yeah, well its getting a little old I guess you could say." laughing slightly. Watching him turn to face her once again. "Its all about what your wearing, who your dating, who has the most money. Who's hooking up with who, showing off anything and everything better that you have.

"The most important and essential information huh?" he finishes for her.

"Definitely!" nodding her head. "Those people down there, they live and die by those set of rules. Its that way or no way!" remembering how she too not long ago was one of those people. But for some reason she found herself not interested in that type of way as much anymore. "But being up here, its like... Its like why did I ever care for one second what they thought about me?" Thinking on all those times she went over and beyond to impress her peers and those below her. Glancing over to him in that moment. "But you don't!"

"Don't what?" turning to face her.

"You don't care what people think about you!" smiling at him, watching his eyes bore straight into hers. "Your just.. you!"

"Yeah.. whatever that is!" he states then turns his head back to the view below.

"Its a good thing, trust me! Its a really good thing!" she states while intertwining her arm around his. "So umm.. do you come here, to this spot a lot?" noting his stiffness once she'd interloped her arm with his. Watching him nod his head a yes, while looking down at their bodies joined as one. "Uh.. cool, I found your hideout spot then!"

"Yeah, I don't know how you guessed." he teasingly states.

"Yeah well strangers things are bound to happened that's for sure!"

And in that moment, neither one will ever be quit sure who made the first move. Blair would swear it was Chuck his hands on her face pulling her towards his awaiting lips. And he would say it was her, one hand circling around his wrist, the other left on his shoulder. But their lips touched for the first time. Each one moving forcefully, yet gracefully with one another. Filled with passion, abandonment, electric, fighting for a dominance even they were not sure either of them was capable of. But as quickly as it began it was over. Chuck pulling away first, looking at her with a confused, yet guarded lustful look in his eyes. Blair breathing heavily from one of the only kisses to ever leave her lightheaded and breathless.

"Uh, yeah we should probably leave!" he finally speaks first, as he moves his body away from hers, and stands up.

"Yeah, your... your probably right." standing up only mere inches away from him.

"We're Lab Partners, and this" motioning from her to him "Is strictly a Lab Partnership!"

"Absolutely" shaking her head, yet her heart was screaming no! That kiss was something, that it meant something more!

"Not to mention Nathaniel would be very upset right now!" turning to walk away from her.

After that night, neither one of them brought it up again. In fact they practically put it behind them like it never even happened. That the kiss they shared was non-existent! Going on almost 3 months as lap partners, Blair still felt as if she didn't know enough, if not anything about him still. He was proving to be super hard to crack and only let her in on the smallest most minor details of his life. She'd shared practically everything with him, and yet he'd left her with a blank about him and who he was. Determined to know more she agreed to meet him at his spot again, above Butter on the roof top terrace. Lying side by side, on their backs on blankets that Chuck generously had laid out for them. They'd been acting out scenes of movies they'd once saw. Laughing at each others horrible impressions of those said characters.

"Okay Chuck, I gotta scene for ya!" looking over at him.

"Shoot." staring back at her.

"Its a scene where you tell me the truth!"

"Big Confessionary Ah?" chuckling slightly.

"Come on Chuck, I'm being serious!"

"Alright" shaking his head to go on.

"What are you truly doing after High School?"

"I'm going to Paris."

"Oh my gosh really Chuck? Paris, that's awesome! We should seriously meet up, there's going to be a bunch of us going to Paris.

"No.. I don't think so, besides it will only be for a few days at the most. After that I have plans on going on to London, Ireland. And to be honest I don't know where else my life might lead me."

"Okay so let me get this straight, your plans after graduation is to travel the world?" glancing over at him.

"Don't look at me like that.. see I open up to you and look what happens." rolling his eyes.

"I.. I'm not judging you, I'm only wondering why? I mean why after graduation are you going to do that, your so intelligent, so smart! There is probably tons of schools who'd take you in a heart beat and yet you've applied to none of them!

"Skies the limit right?" getting up from his position and walking closer over to the ledge that over looks the city.

"Yeah, if you say so" watching him walk away.

"You sure?" turning back to look at her once more.

"I'm sure, your selling yourself short! Your too smart to not go to college. You could be something really big one day if you wanted to!" walking closer over to where he is standing. Noting his feet standing on the ledge. Its then she see's his hands let go of the banister that's supporting to keep him in. "Chuck.. Chuck what are you doing?"

"Look at it down there, all the light, the people, the motions. Everyday the same thing, never anything different, never anything new!" he states while looking below him, all while keeping his balance.

"Chuck, you're scaring me!" she whisper into the air, yet she knows he hears every word.

"Blair, can you imagine how it would feel to finally be free from it all?" turning his head slightly back towards her. "Getting away from all the boardom that seems to swallow each and everyone of us whole. Till we cant speak, cant even breath anymore, its like were drowning and there's no release, This Blair is that release!" pointing down to the passer goers below them.

"Chuck, stop it!" she says, while slowly walking closer "Get down, before you fall!"

"Just freefalling into the abase, I wonder where we'd end up after this life is done and over with?

"Chuck stop this!" she states as tears fall from her eyes "You're going to hurt yourself, please stop it!" she finally grabs one of his arms and is now full out crying.

And in that moment its like something clicks, either it was her words, her touch, her tears. He still isn't quit sure what it was that brought him back into reality. Snapping his head her way, he then steps down from the ledge. Only to watch her cries of either pain, anger, joy he still wasn't quit sure, began to come out more.

"What the hells a wrong with you!" she screams out through her tears at him. "Are you crazy! You could have gotten yourself killed!" shaking her head at him.

"Every things fine, your over reacting that's all!" he yells back at her.

"Fine?" she looks up at him. "Everything is certainly not fine!" she yells back, before walking or more or less stalking away from him.

On the ride home, neither one of them spoke a word. She stayed as far away from him as possible, and him her. She couldn't help but replay what almost happened not even a few minutes ago. His words playing over and over in her head like a broken record that she just couldn't forget. The look in his eyes, like he was there but at the same time wasn't. Coming to a stop in front of her building, she knows this day or rather night has came to an end. She cant help but ask the pondering question that'd been in the back of her head all along.

"Did you want to jump?" glancing over at him.

"What?" turning to face her.

"Did you want to jump off the ledge tonight Chuck?"

"Blair, I wasn't even close to jumping. There were rails there if you didn't notice!"

"Yeah I noticed, but I also seen your hands go out in front of you and you leaning forward." letting her emotions get the best of her.

"Please, I wasn't that close."

"Chuck, yes you were! You were so close to jumping, so close to dying!" she states before letting some tears release from her eyes.

"You don't even know what Close is Blair!" he states, while watching her tears fall down her cheeks.

"Don't give me one of your stupid line's Chuck, I know what I saw!" watching him look away.

"Well this has been fun and all but unfortunately I'm tired, and your whining is starting to give me a headache! So goodnight Waldorf"

"Chuck, don't try..."

"I said Goodnight..." staring directly at her "Waldorf!"

"Okay," finally giving in, it was clear he was done talking. "Take care of yourself okay?" she states before getting out of the limo.

She couldn't help but watch the Limo as it pulled away and drove out of sight. She wanted to know more about him, but she wasn't quit sure if this part about Chuck's life was something she liked. She was certain that had she'd not been there, he would have jumped. Question was why?

Hello, fellow readers & reviewers. I do hope your enjoying this story, as well as for this Chapter. Things as you seen took a spin for the darker side I suppose in this one. There will continue to be more and more things to come out about Chuck in the next couple of Chapters. I do wish for you to R&R this Chapter it would mean the world to me! It is you all who keeps me wanting to write more. But please show me some love! Hope you all enjoyed your New Years! Here's me wishing each and every one of your a wonderful 2015! :) Oh and one more thing, ED freaking WESTWICK followed me, and yes before you ask it is from his verified twitter page! 12/24/14 I swear it was such an amazing feeling! Plus he liked my one of my photo's on Instagram too! :) How awesome is that? brittydaniodell is my twitter account just for anyone who might need to know.