Disclaimer: I don't own bleach, Tito Kubo does (damn you). Or the song 'Breaking the habit' by linkin park. (if it's by them, that obviously, they own it, not me )
In the pale lifeless desert, stood a little girl, ruffled and beaten with two short wild blond pigtails dressed in red tracksuit. Beside her stood a short-haired blond man with buttoned orange shirt and a tie, and in the same state a the girl beside her. They gazed at the huge, and now half ruined, white dome of Las-Notches.
Memories consume,
Like opening the wound,
I'm picking me apart again.
Although everyone was expecting to the situation to come so far and alarmed, what they call 'worst case scenario', Hiyori was the one with the most difficulty to accept how things have become.
You all assume,
I'm safe here in my room,
Unless I try to start again..
She hated changes. She was the youngest, the most hot-headed, hot-tempered, always one to jump to action first.
It was the same case with Urahara.
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose,
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused..
She hated Urahara for replacing her captain, the one that she thought almost as her mother. She hated him for the changes in the twelfth division, and for treating her with kindness that she didn't want to accept from him.
I don't know what's worth fighting for,
Or why I have to scream..
I don't know why I instigate,
And say what I don't mean..
She didn't know why she was so hot-blooded, but she just was, and it was manifested in her attitude toward the blond standing beside her. They fight and argued, yes, but beside that they were good friends. Actually, these fights is what showed how good friends they are. And sometimes she wasn't so hot-headed, but actually nice.
I don't know how I got this way,
I know it's not alright..
So I'm breaking the habit...
I'm breaking the habit, tonight.
But it still didn't changed the fact that she hated changes. Hiyori was very possessive. She always defended of what's belongs to her of fear it would be taken from her. It took her some time to accept the new situation she and the other X-Shinigami from her group had got into, and then she did finally accepted it, That orange-berry-head came.
It was another change, that's why she didn't wanted to accept him, because of her personal feelings.
Clutching my cure,
I tightly lock the door,
I try to catch my breath again.
But she had no other choice then to accept, and she hated it.
That is why she didn't.
I hurt much more,
Than anytime before,
I had no options left again..
Her mother-captain: left. Urahara, Aizen: departing from Soul-Society with no other choice, living in the world of living, fighting against your evil-Hollow side to try and gain control other your soul or else, Ichigo....She hated not being able to choose and control her own life.
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose,
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused..
She hated it.
I don't know what's worth fighting for,
Or why I have to scream..
I don't know why I instigate,
And say what I don't mean..
She hated being so hot-headed, to not have control on her life, to not accept everything and be left with anger and malice and frustration.
I don't know how I got this way,
I'll never be alright..
So I'm breaking the habit,
I'm breaking the habit...
tonight,
"So what's now?" asked the two-pigtailed girl in her usual annoyed voice, though there was a tint of worry in it, remembering how, after they'd got to the war-zone at Karakura-replica, they were suddenly thrown with everyone else, including the shinigami, into a Garaganta that opened behind them.
I'll paint it on the walls..
'Cause I'm the one at fault..
I'll never fight again..
And this is how it ends..
"I guess we'll just have ta' find everyone an' get out of 'yer."
Shinji stared at the dome, continuing Hiyori's thought-line by remembering how after they appeared in the desert, separated from everyone else, they had bumped into primera Espada and his little-girl-like Fraccion.
Perfect match; He against Stark (although the Espada told him that he's fighting only because he must obey Aizen's orders), and Hiyori, who hated to stay out, took in the Fraccion; Lilinette, who was hot-tempered exactly like her.
Aizen probably have his ways of communication, because the two suddenly disappeared; Sonidoed away back to the dome.
I don't know what's worth fighting for,
Or why I have to scream..
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean..
The pigtailed girl knew her companion wouldn't chase them, so she didn't either.
The truth is, she was just so tired from all this.
I don't know how I got this way,
I'll never be alright..
So I'm breaking the habit...
I'm breaking the habit...
I'm breaking the habit...
She hated being so hot-headed, to not have control on her life, to not accept everything and be left with anger and malice and frustration.
So she had decided to throw it all away; all the anger, the malice, the frustration, the wrath. It doesn't meant that she would stop being a little spoiled hot-headed brat, or stop smack Shinji in the face, but-
-But sometimes, you have no other choice then to accept and live with it. Not meaning stop struggling, but if it doesn't necessarily hurt you, you don't have to make it to hurt.
Just start again.
tonight.
But 'to start again', doesn't mean you can just throw away old habits, especially if the habit is actually fan.
She smacked him with her sandal like always. "Wha' do ya mean 'I guess'?! of course it's what we need to-!!"
Her yell was cut-off as she and her fellow turned around to face a certain point in the deserts horizon, eyes widen in alert, pointing in their minds to a faint flickering amount of Reitsu.
A Shinigami's Reitsu.
But it wasn't a Shinigami's Reitsu in the dim sensation that had gotten the alarmed.
At first I thought to put this song to kira but in second thought i assumed that..well, it kinda suits Hiyori..in a way.