Kanojo Hisako

Chapter Three

A Lonely Heart

The silence consumed him and he begrudgingly welcomed it.

Staring straight at him was a white porcelain mask with red markings adorning the top and sides in elegant stripes. The mask was an impression of a wolf and it suited him well. He took the mask off and placed it gently on his dresser, making barely any sound. He stared at his self in the mirror and saw someone he did not know.

It was sad when you thought about it.

He couldn't be himself around his co-workers, his clan or his parents, especially his overbearing father.

The only person that he was able to be his self around with was Kagome and now he will never be again.

In the end it was for her best interest.

Itachi couldn't be selfish and cause Kagome misery by bringing her into his family. His clan and father did not like the black haired teen that had just started her career as a medic nin. She had no real credentials in her record just yet and his father took that into account, as well as her not having a trace of noble blood in her veins, or containing any outstanding marks.

She was a normal young kunoichi and a beautiful yet simple young woman.

She was not overly beautiful like most of the women in his clan or in other clans of Konoha for that matter, but in his eyes she was.

The attribute that made Kagome stand out the most in a crowd and often than not caught the eyes of many men, including his self was her unique eyes, but that was only one of the many things about her. She was also incredibly sweet and kind with a charming smile and well rounded personality, but she had her flaws as well, such as her short temper and tendency to bring herself down.

She did not have the confidence that most young women in her age had. She was uncertain and hesitant about most things, but when it came down to life and death situations she was quick to judge in the best of her abilities.

She had done well in raising her self-esteem and confidence over the years when they were together and he ponder how she was doing right now.

Once again the guilt ate at him and he tore his gaze from his reflection, disgusted. He was ashamed to look at his self for what he did to her and what she was most likely going through right now.

He just hoped her temper didn't get the best of her and she destroys her entire dish ware set.

One time, a year ago when he had to leave for an extended time on a mission she became sad and afraid. She did not want him gone for who knows how long and the thought of him getting hurt really shook her up. The night before he had to leave he had spent it with her and he had to do a great deal of calming her down once she started throwing mug cups and plates at him with frightening accuracy. He had made the mistake of shrugging off her concern for him in aloofness when he intended to assure her that he will be fine and unharmed, as always.

Itachi sighed as he began to untie his vest and soon his boots. Once he was freed of his Anbu armor the Uchiha heir laid in his bed, staring blankly at the white ceiling. Kagome's image appeared in his mind, her face staring at him and smiling lovingly. Her eyes seemed to sparkle as she gazed at him.

He blinked and her image was gone.

He was left to stare at the plain ceiling.

He wanted to see her and do so much more with her.

When he had returned to his home after leaving her apartment he stood in his room for the reminder of the day. He did not bother to go out to train or eat until his mother came to check up on him. He brushed her concerns off and told her he was fine and that he was resting from his mission, which he had just returned home from.

His mother was probably the only one who tolerated, bordered line liked Kagome, along with Sasuke. His foolish little brother even had a crush on the older, turquoise eyed teen. He realized it a few months after he started dating Kagome and once he learned how far his little brother's crush went he made sure to speak to him about it. He made it crystal clear that Kagome was his and that he will not make any bold advancement towards her while she was with him.

Sasuke had been fourteen then and Kagome just a year older. It took Sasuke a year and a half to get over his crush.

Kagome, of course, was oblivious to it the entire time and treated Sasuke like a younger, cute brother. She had a sibling once, but he died during the Kyuubi attack after a year of living in the world along with her father. She and her mother were the only ones from her family who had survived the attack that night, but with a broken heart of losing her one year old son and husband Kagome's mother passed away when Kagome was at the age to become independent.

Kagome's been on her own ever since until she met Itachi at the tender age of thirteen. She had been under the tutelage of the Godaime at the time and was learning the ways of a medic along with Haruno Sakura.

It did not come as easily to her as it did to Haruno, who became certified after two years and a half at an impressive age, just a few months shy of her fifteenth birthday. Kagome became certified after four years at the age of seventeen, specializing in both emergency surgery Medical Ninjutsu and the removal of Cursed Seals. She began her career as a medic ten months ago and was still a bit green and getting used to being on her own.

Two months from now will be her eighteenth birthday.

He remembered her confession to him as to her reasoning in becoming a medic specializing in emergency surgery and cursed seals. She told him it was because she wanted to make sure she can help serve Konoha in her own way and to prevent death and suffering.

Kagome went to the academy like every other child to become a Gennin, but when she entered into the Chunnin Exams she could not handle the violence and death when Orochimaru had launched his attack on Konoha and ended the life of the Sandaime.

The death of their leader and comrades shook her badly and resulted in her career change from a field shinobi to a medic.

Itachi admire her courage and deep sense of devotion. He his self did not like death either especially when it is caused by his hand, but it was acquired of him, especially since he will be the next head of the Uchiha Clan.

The Uchiha Clan did not tolerate weakness or sentiments.

His Clan will never accept Kagome into their exclusive family or ever consider allowing her to become his wife, which would be the next matriarch of the powerful and noble clan.

Itachi dug under his pillow and pulled out a small black velvet box.

He fiddled with it before opening it, his eyes coming into contact with a glittering, nicely sized diamond centered on a white gold band. He had bought the engagement ring three months ago and had been planning on proposing to Kagome the night of their anniversary, but instead of proposing he had broken up with her.

The day he had bought the ring thoughts began to fill his mind about Kagome's future here in the Uchiha compound with him.

He only saw her as being unhappy, miserable and sad here with him.

Soon those thoughts and images of her began to haunt him and so did the ring.

He didn't want to be the cause of Kagome's unhappiness when he wanted to be the one to make her happy in the first place.

He didn't want to risk that chance. He told no one about the ring he had bought months ago and it will remain that way. He could only now fantasize about Kagome's reaction if he had proposed to her that night.

She would have been most likely shocked and no doubt would have cried due to the over flow of emotions assaulting her at the grand gesture. He would have then slipped the ring onto the proper finger as she told him yes and would have lastly proceeded to kiss her in celebration of their soon to be union.

Itachi closed the small box sharply, his midnight irises seething in anger and unhappiness, but most of all loneliness.

Itachi recalled all his memories with Kagome and his heart throbbed painfully and in deep yearning.

Did he make the right decision?

Of course, it had been for her best interest.

He closed his eyes and appeased himself that it was indeed the right choice or at least he had convinced his self for that moment that it had been.

It wasn't half an hour later that he had fallen into a light sleep that his door was slammed open and Sasuke was seen standing in his door frame, his sharingan activated and blazing in hot red flames.

Itachi prompt his upper body up on his elbows in alarm and arched a black brow at his younger brother's abrupt entrance.

'Did something happen?' He thought suddenly to his self in concern.

If only Itachi knew that he was the one that caused his younger brother's fury.

A/N: Hm, I think there is about to be a fight between the two brothers, what do you think? I know you all thought Sakura was going to be the one to kick Itachi's ass, but I have a better idea for Sakura's revenge. All Sakura has to do is to be patient and allow for Itachi to come to her…then that's when the fun will begin for her. After all, Itachi will need to be healed for his wounds, right? Hahaha! So, you all also got a peek at some of Kagome's past with Itachi and her own family.

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