I don't own KH. And has anyone seen the latest update! It makes me sad that it looks like its going to end soon. Anyway. Enjoy!

-One week later-

Nanami POV

"Yukiji! Where are you?" Tomoe called out.

It's been a week since I got here, and I haven't even seen the outside, Tomoe seems insistent on locking me up inside. Like he's afraid I'll run away…Anyway, I got fed up with him keeping me locked up like a useless princess. So I crept out to the sakura trees.

Just sitting here remind me of the times when I sat with Tomoe and drank sake at the full moon. I miss him so much!

"But you see him everyday!" a part of me yelled.

But this isn't my Tomoe; to this Tomoe, I am Yukiji.

I remembered the times when Tomoe would put shiitake mushrooms in breakfast just to annoy me. At least he cared enough to make me breakfast.

The time when he saved me from Yomi-no-Kuni and was taken away. At least I knew that he cared enough to save me.

Then when I woke up he was my familiar again. How happy I was, when I realized, I wasn't going to be left all alone. That I wasn't going to be abandoned again. That he cared enough not to leave me.

The times when we were all happy, when everything seemed to be perfect, until it all came crashing down. The time as I watched the curse slowly kill him and I couldn't do anything. At least I knew that he loved me. Or did he?

"Yukiji! There you are!"

I miss you so much Tomoe! I want to see you. I want to see your reluctant smiling face. I want to hear your voice calling me baka again. I want to feel your soft snowy hair. I want to go back in time so I can do all that. So I can take back those words that I said. So I could lock up my feelings. So that you would never be cursed.

But it's too late isn't it. I couldn't let you go. I couldn't bear the idea of us never meeting again. It was all my fault. It's all my fault that you're gone. It's all my fault that you're dead. I never even got to say goodbye to you. I couldn't take it, you being dead. I refused to admit it, that you're gone and I'm the only one still hanging on. I love you Tomoe. So much. But the people I love always disappear. I should have known better. At least if I had let you go, there was still a chance of me catching you. But now I'm still running after you, but you are already long gone.

I was so worri…." Tomoe rambled on, as he tugged her up and tugged her back to the house. However, Nanami was lost in her thoughts, as she trailed behind Tomoe.

He said he loves Yukiji doesn't he, then why can't he tell that I'm not her. Am I really just a shadow of Yukiji? Was I just a replacement for her? He never loved me did he? He loved the Yukiji in me. He didn't fall in love with Nanami. He fell in love with Yukiji.

"Yukiji, shall we have fish for dinner?"

Yukiji. Yukiji. Yukiji. It's always her. Everything is about her. Everyone loves her. He loves her.

"Yukiji? You don't want to? Yukiji?"

Yukiji. Stop calling me that! Stop torturing me like that. Stop! I'm not the one you love. I'm not Yukiji. Stop it!

"Yukiji?! Are you alright? Are you feeling unwell?"

STOP IT! I'M NOT YUKIJI! I'M NANAMI! Stop calling me that name! I'm not Yukiji! I'm not the one you love! Stop calling me that! I'm not Yukiji. Not Yukiji.

"I'm fine. Leave me alone. I don't want dinner. Good night… Tomoe." she choked out and rushed back to her room.

"I'm not Yukiji. I'm not Yukiji. Tomoe I love you. But I can't stand you calling me as another woman, even if this is the only way I can see you. I can't take it. I have to go beck. Back to reality. It's time to wake up from this illusion. " She mumbled as tears jagged across her face and she hugged herself

Yay! It's longer now. Well ok not that much, but better than the last one. So yes, I did kill Tomoe off... Forgive me! Anyway, any comments, like it, hate it, anything. Thanks for reading! :)

Oh yeah Whoever, You actually read my stuff! Thank you! I hope this didn't disappoint, it's a new style of writing for me. :D