Meredith woke up suddenly as a storm entered the on-call room in which she was sleeping. An agitated Cristina was framed in the door.
« Wake up Mer ! It's an emergency. »
« But I haven't been paged… » grumbled Meredith, still half asleep. Cristina quickly closed the door and started to pace up and down.
« Cristina, what the hell are you doing ? » asked sharply Meredith, starting to put her shoes. « You said they needed us !»
She stopped talking as she caught Cristina's worried look.
« It's not about surgery, is it ? »
Cristina was still stepping forward and back between the door and the bunk. Finally, she sat on the ground. Her back and head were resting against the cold wall. Meredith was confused and worried. Cristina hadn't looked so upset for at least a week. She hoped her friend had started to heal her deep wounds but she was wrong. Unless…
« Cristina ! Why did you wake me up if you don't even want to t… »
« I saw him », Cristina interrupted.
« What ? Who ? … »
Cristina didn't answer but she couldn't hide an unintentional smile. Meredith was astonished. She hadn't seen her friend even faintly smile for months ! There was no explanation to that sudden change. Or maybe there was an obvious one.
« Oh… You saw HIM… »
She paused to let Cristina time to find her words. But the intern had now closed her eyes and didn't move.
« Are you Ok with that ? », she went on cautiously.
« Of course i'm not ! I saw him for the first time in two months! I saw him and I still care !»
Meredith said nothing. She knew Cristina too well to ignore there was more. Cristina sighed.
« I was next to his appartment»
Meredith sat beside her and softly asked :
« Was it on purpose ? »
«No. No ! I don't know… I just found myself there one day. I was jogging. I wasn't thinking while I was running. I just came there. And I came back…. Everyday… »
« Oh… Cristina… »
« I know. I've been a fool. I did not even think for a second I could meet him. I… I had just found a place to rest and to feel alive. »
« Maybe it is not that bad. »
« It isn't ? How could that possibly be good for me ? » Cristina sneered, in totall disbelief.
« Perhaps you don't manage to forget a ghost and you have to see him to move on. » She paused, not sure of what she was going to say next.
« Or maybe, it's more… »
« Like what ? »
« Like the two of you are meant to be together. You've never really tried to fix it. Maybe it's a sign you have to sue for peace... »
« Thanks Mer ! I really feel better ! That's it ! I'm going to meet him and tell how he was right to DUMP me! AGAIN ! »
Something was infuriating her and she couldn't help shouting louder and louder. She had got up and was now making big threatening gestures. She hadn't finished her speech yet and Meredith knew she had pushed too far.
« I'll also tell him how GOOD I felt after he toke his key back ! How a wonderful man he was when he threw all this crap full in my face ! I'll give him a hug and everything will be okay ? Really brilliant idea Mer ! »
She was out of breath when she stopped. She opened the door and rushed out. She didn't cast a glance at Meredith even if she knew she was wrong. She knew she'd have to apologize to Meredith.
But for the moment she was too angry because her best friend might be right.