Hey I am updating yet again! This is for Jala and my many other wonderful readers! I hope this one is good and I know, I've been promising Shules so don't worry finally all you shippers are gonna have what you were waiting for! Real quick, because I want all my readers to enjoy I wanted to ask what they meant by not the easiest story because if it's difficult to read I could try to get a beta... I didn't think it was that bad but sometimes people need fresh opinions so tell me if I need to get one and such I prefer to make my readers happy.

Shawn was trying to get over the little visit from his dad. He had just woken up and was pulling at a loose string on his hospital blankets wondering why he had to be a failure. His dad had raised him right... sort of... he wasn't sure if making every father son moment a training moment was what you called healthy. But he had been fed, clothed, and given all the basic necessities and wants. But his dad had never talked to him about his parents divorce. He had never given Shawn ample room to cry, be sad, or even talk about what bothered him emotionally. Of course it was alright to cry a little when you were hurt but comforting was a woman's job not in any way something Henry would ever do extensively. It was always 'Spencer men never appear weak' and other stuff like that. It had gotten more severe as he grew into a tumultuous ball of energy and eventually Henry spent more time at work and Madeleine did likewise. So Shawn sat wishing with all his heart that he could be anywhere else but the hospital bed fulfilling his fathers expectations of him being a disappointment. He lay there feeling as if he was all alone in the world.

A small light knock at the hospital door pulled him out of his reverie. Juliet slipped through the doorway quietly shutting the door behind her. She wasn't smiling so she probably didn't enjoy the fact that Shawn was in the hospital. Shawn's eyes flicked up to hers and then back away as he felt unworthy to look her in the eyes. He could think back to all the times he had lied to her and wondered why she didn't want him gone. He had thought she hated him after all those years and to suddenly figure out that the person you had slowly fallen in love with was a big fat lie. He hated himself and that was Shawn, he couldn't imagine how she felt. Juliet didn't say anything for a few moments and Shawn looked away not wanting to see that look of disgust on her face as she viewed him in such a pathetic state.

"Hey Shawn" Shawn frowned in confusion. Her voice was soft and kind nothing like how he had imagined it would be. He was still too scared to look up. It might just be a hoax she was playing on him. She took a few steps forward. He only knew because he could hear the soft click of her heels against the floor. He turned his head farther away staring at the window as tears trembled in his eyes threatening to spill down his cheeks. He heard her walk the rest of the way to his bedside and sit down in the stiff chair. Now he could smell her cherry blossom perfume, the same he had bought for her last year for her birthday. Shawn became even more confused, he thought she wouldn't want to keep anything having to do with him not after she had discovered how fake and pathetic he was.

"I heard about the accident at the bar. McNab told me." She paused as she took in a deep breath.

"I... I was so scared when I heard. I thought it was all my fault. You at a bar getting stabbed. I thought you were drunk or something after me never answering all your e-mails. But I needed to talk to you in person. After everything that happened I needed to see you and look you in the eyes." She stopped now and Shawn could hear as she shuffled around in the chair. He was still so confused. Juliet scared and worried about him? He thought that ... well it seemed that everything he had thought about her for the last couple of months was wrong. He couldn't figure out what was going on.

"Please, Shawn, look at me. I love you still and I just need to see that when I ask you these questions... ones that I have been thinking about for the last couple of months, I need to see your eyes."

Shawn froze barely breathing as he tried to process what Juliet was saying. Not only did she not hate him she was saying she still loved him. He stayed there as tears streamed down his face. How could she love him as a failure? She didn't even know about how much he had changed.

"Shawn, please, for me, just look at me" She was pleading with him.

Shawn slowly turned around pain flaring in his mid-section as he turned to look at Juliet.

Juliet's heart nearly broke as she saw how vulnerable and unsure Shawn looked. He was crying. Goodness he was crying. In turn Juliet's eyes watered. She had never loved him more. She almost felt like the questions weren't needed as she saw the mixture of emotions in his eyes. Pure sorrow and pain. The apology was written in his features. He was more regretful and humble then she had ever seen him and she knew without having to ask that Shawn loved her and was dieing without her. But still she was a person who didn't often vary from what she decided she wasn't spontaneous quite like Shawn. Juliet smiled lovingly at Shawn and grabbed his hand. He hesitantly gripped her hand back.

"Shawn, I read every single e-mail and letter and I decided that I don't like that you lied to me. We have spent so much time together. We've solved so many cases together and you've saved so many lives. I know that you lied and I don't want to date Shawn. Not the old Shawn, not the lie. I want to get to know you without you dodging some of my questions to protect a lie. I know you Shawn but I want to know all of you. You're sweet and kind and funny. I just need to ask you some questions. Will you answer them?"

Shawn nodded his head yes. He had stopped crying. He wasn't sure anymore whether or not this was reality or a beautiful dream that would torture him when he woke up. But he didn't wake up and the smaller manicured hand clutching his wasn't going away.

"Do you love me?"

Shawn was befuddled by this question. How could he not love Juliet? She was beautiful and wonderfully perfect. He looked at her admiring that little crease in her brow as she looked at him waiting for an answer.

"How could I not?" He replied hoarsely. It was strange to think that those were the last words he had said to her after the case but now they meant something so differently. He still remembered those last moments as Juliet's smile faltered just a bit. He knew that she was reliving it too.

" Juliet stood there looking at Shawn hurt and anger emanating from her, those beautiful lips twisted into a large frown.

"What did he just say, Shawn, what does he mean you're not a Psychic?" Shawn stood there wide eyed and completely speechless. How did Juliet get here? He had been arguing with Gus in Psych and Juliet had just all of a suddenly appeared.

"I meant exactly what I said Juliet. Shawn is not a Psychic. Now without further ado I am leaving before Shawn pulls me into another one of his ridiculous shenanigans that makes it so the love of my life breaks off my second and only official engagement" Gus then stormed out of the office seconds passing before he marched back in and grabbed his keys and jacket. His face full of indignation and Gus like fury. He then stormed out of the office for the second time. The small engine of the blueberry barely being heard as the car lights illuminated the Psych window.

Juliet looked at Shawn again waiting for his reply. His mouth remained hanging open as he stared at Juliet. She folded her arms continuing to glare at him. When he still didn't answer Juliet began yelling.

"What did he mean Shawn!? What did he mean!? Have you been lying to me this entire time?! Does the Chief know?! Does Henry know?" A look of understanding crossed her face.

"Oh my goodness! Your dad knew, and he lied to me, and everyone else. Unless I'm the only one who doesn't know?! Who else?" Shawn guiltily shrugged.

"Just the Chief and some others..." Juliet's face went from anger and bewilderment to pain and hurt.

"Am I the only one who doesn't know?" her voice lowered and became almost a whisper.

"I loved you I slept with you and I trusted you thinking that you cared about me that maybe we could ..we could go further with our relationship"

"Oh my goodness! Our relationship is an entire lie! Why Shawn? Why?"

Shawn looked taken aback and shocked. He opened his mouth a few times without anything coming out. Finally he answered

"How could I not?"

"I'm sorry Juliet" Shawn whispered his eyes falling back down in defeat. He still remembered that moment with perfect clarity his eidetic memory not allowing it to be erased from his mind and his guilt to large for it to go away. But Juliet seemed to not remember it as well as Shawn and she only squeezed his hand.

"And I forgive you Shawn." She bent down and kissed him on the head. But even as she saw some of that pain in his eyes go away she saw a lingering look of brokenness linger. They sat for several minutes Juliet enjoying happiness she hadn't felt for a long time. But that look in Shawn's eyes worried her, she didn't know why but she felt as if Shawn wasn't quite himself yet. Finally she was about to ask him about it but when she looked down she saw that he was asleep her hand pulled up to his chest. He looked haggard in his sleep but at more peace than he had been when she had first come in. She smiled softly stroking his ruffled hair back. Being in the hospital had made his usually messy but perfect hair more messy. She still had so many questions and as she thought back to all the cases and the fact that Shawn had passed the police exam with such a high score at 15 made her wonder if her boyfriend was really a genius. She smiled as she thought that, she had always known that Shawn was one amazing guy. It still bothered her that he had lied and when he woke up she wanted to know the whole story behind his elaborate and superfluous charade. But first she needed to figure out what was wrong with Shawn. After several minutes she slipped her hand free and got up. She needed a little air and space to stretch her legs.

Juliet kissed Shawn on the head before leaving making sure the door shut without making a loud sound. As she stepped out into the hall she took in a big breath and let it out as a big smile came onto her face. She began to walk down the hallway when a frantic Gus sped around the corner.

"Juliet!" he exclaimed his eyes widening in surprise.

"What are you doing here? Where's Shawn?"

Juliet smiled "I came to visit Shawn. He's in that room but he's sleeping"

Gus frowned and looked at her suspiciously. "Asleep?"

Juliet nodded. Gus looked at her again with slight disbelief but eventually nodded his head.

"Alright, well I guess we better sit down or something, I wouldn't want to wake him up" With that they both went into the lobby and sat down.

They sat in silence for a few moments before Gus spoke.

"Juliet, why'd you visit Shawn?" Juliet looked up at Gus and frowned as she thought back to everything.

"Because I needed to talk to him and to make sure he was alright."

"Oh"

They sat again in silence. Again Gus broke the silence.

"You're not mad at him, because, well... last time...well ... you know"

"I'm a little upset still but I'm not mad least of all when he's hurt. But besides his injury he's been acting...different"

Gus sat up a little straighter and looked over at Juliet.

"Yeah I know, he's been different with me too. I mean I expected things to be different after everything happened but this isn't the same. It makes me think of how he was right after his parents divorce"

"He didn't seem angry to me" Juliet said frowning in slight confusion.

"Nah that was after. What I'm talking about was right after. He wasn't the same." Gus looked down as he thought back to it with a grim face.

"Well whatever it is I'm worried" Juliet said. Gus looked up and nodded his head in agreement.

"You got that right"

Hey I am soooo sorry about how late this is and I actually have another bus load of good excuses why but you guys probably wouldn't really care to hear so I'll spare you the details. I made it a little longer than all my other chapters so I hope I did justice to those of you who were itching for something a little bigger. I also gave my Shules fans a little Shules and don't worry there will be more Shules angst and hurt/comfort to come because although Gus and Juliet love Shawn he isn't quite out of the deep end. Give me insight and many reviews! And God bless you to all who do or May Darwin bless you or Allah or Buddha or what ever your person or deity may be just bless you for sticking with me and reading!