Ok, Aliaschickita47...I posted one more chapter tonight for you. Even though the only thing you are finding out is Spencer's POV. Oh and to let everyone know ahead of time, I've only written the first five chapters, but the sixth one is almost done so don't freak out I'll try to keep posting everyday or at the max every other day. I have a crazy weekend coming up though. I have two plays and a cast party. So, please be don't get upset if I don't post this weekend.
Chapter 4
AHHHHHHHHHHHH! I'm nervous. Ashley invited me to stay the night before our first day of school. What if I like do something in my sleep or what if I have a dream about her in my sleep? I talk in my sleep, what if I say her name or reveal my secret? Ok, I just need to calm down and breathe. I'll wait to knock on her door. Just breathe in and out. I sound insane. Just knock on the damn door, Spencer! Ok, I did it. So, I wait and wait. What the hell is she doing in there?! It's been like 5 minutes. I'll just knock again, but as I'm about to, the door flies open.
Why is she just staring at me? Do I have something on my face? Wait, I know that look. That's the look she use to give Aiden. Why is she giving me that look? Wait, is she drooling? Oh my god, she is. Does she like me? No, she can't. She's straight, and she would never like me. I'm just over analyzing this. You know she could say something, but she still hasn't. All she does is motion me in and up to her room.
So, I go in and go straight for the bed, and she follows directly behind me. She says, "What's up?" I don't know what to say. I really feel like blurting out, "I'm in love with you, that's what's up!" Instead I say, "Better now that I am here with you." I say the last part under my breathe so she wouldn't hear me, but judging by the look on her face she heard me. She looks shocked. Oh no! She's figured it out. She knows what my secret is, but then, she says, "What happened at your house?" Oh my god, I'm so relieved to her say that and not, "Get the fuck out of my house you freak!"
I think I'm going to tell her my secret. I feel like she needs to know. She is my best friend, and I need to get this off my chest. I'm not going to tell her my full secret. I think I'll leave the part out about the being in love with her, for now anyway. I'll give her time to let the whole "your best friend is gay" situation settle in first. Although, I may never tell her the full secret. I mean picture this: "Oh yeah, not only am I gay, but I'm also in love with you". Then comes the slap across the face, and the yelling to get out of her house. Not exactly what I want to happen.
So, now that I have calmed down, and talked to myself for about 2 or 3 minutes I say, "Nothing, but I do feel like I need to tell you something." After I said this, she looks like she is either freaking out or like she is going to throw up. Well, so much for telling her my secret. So, instead I say, "I'm scared about our first day of school tomorrow." She looks relieved , and so now, I'm glad I didn't tell her my secret. The next thing she says makes my heart swell, and it makes me love her so much more than I already do. She says, "Well, don't worry about it. I'm going to be there. So, you will be fine." I can't help but smile at the use of my nickname.
For the rest of the night, all we do is talk, be our goofy selves and watch movies, which is usually what we always do, but I like it that way. We finally go to sleep. It was like four in the morning, but still went to sleep or at least she did. I laid on my side and stared at the wall, while thinking about our friendship, how much I love her. Not only did I love her, I just loved being around her. It always made me feel better when I was around her. While I was laying there, I couldn't help but mumble out a few words. I knew she was a sleep, and that I was talking to nothing but the wall and the surrounding air. So, in the slightest whisper I said...